Letter opened to the medical instructors of Tensegridad,

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Companions medical instructors:

With which I go to say, I do not try to enter personal controversies through this means, especially when he has been yielded me gentily to express what I feel she is my to have to present. But I animate the interested ones to comment it between you yourself, to that you investigate, to that you investigate, to that you deal with non fantics, of not absolutes, of loop yourself to a single vision of the things as if it was the total truth. " You prove with touch the way ", as he said Don Juan, and ask yourselves " if the way has heart ".

If what you are going to read it seems to you an aberration, a paranoide delirium, and you feel attemped to reduce greater attention to him, I animate to you to that you take it as a challenge from warrior and continue its reading until the end, so that you have a complete panorama of my exhibition.

BE IMPECCABLE!

The Blue Finder

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Friends and I am interested in the esoterismo from kill time, having cultivated the reading of diverse slopes. By this it went that when taking contact with the work from Carlos Castaneda (Who Has reached the Freedom) we accepted it like true, but for the same reason we have not considered it a Truth Excluding, like those who thinks that " Castaneda is the Bible ", but that we took the subject like ' another vision from things', or rather ' the vision of others things'.

There are postulates that approach the esoterismo with the TOLTEKAYOTL, for example in the referred thing to the conduct (humility, etc.), the one from an mystic-important point of view and other terribly practitioner. Others, like being the structure of the universe and the beings, constitute radicals differences. There will be some who accept a description in damage of the other, and that they try to harmonize them (it is the ' the astral body, or perhaps the double eteric); although perhaps both are equally valid, " different visions from different positions from the embroider point ". Some we do not think that millenarian doctrines are only fantasmagoric, nor shared the ridicule that Castaneda did as much of the misticismo (if he only knew farsantes, worse).

We did not share the clucked one either " nobody can bewitch to you, nobody you can do nothing ". This constitutes on the part of the Nawalli either a supina ignorance or a deliberate lie (pardon, " a warrior strategy "), tendiente to avoid that people put morbosa with that subject, but that it completely leaves it defenseless before it if it decides to accept that " nobody can do nothing to us ".

And the " traps for the second attention " of the Mexican ruins, what? And the hunting phantoms of energy that Castaneda faced in the desert, (but) IN COMPANION OF DON JUAN? And the old witches from whom she had to flee as if she took the chingada one to it, as she said Don to him Juan? And the case of the ring that found the Fat person? This to only put some examples that appear in books, to that there would be to add very important other: the inorganic beings of all class, who feed themselves on the emotions (the one that persecuted to Don Juan, evoked by nawalli Julian), of the conscience (the Rockets), of the energy or of which he is of the human beings. The subject is that they always have something to take advantage of us. You read! You review books! Or you will pay attention to the Word of the Nagual: " you do not read books. You practice Tensegridad and only you summarize "?

In addition to the examples of its books, they are those scattered in Literature around the world, in books and magazines, documentary televising and others, that demonstrate the clear ones, safe to the obstinate ones, that that of " anybody you can do nothing " IS ABSOLUTELY FALSE.

And unfortunately, for greater confirmation, my friends and I have undergone in diverse degree the influence of, like quierais to call it, psychic character nefando, black magic, etc., when crossing itself the way of one of us medical instructors of which soon she was deduced and she discovered to be the most forceful vudu; witchcraft, and to try the rest of us to help it in this conjuncture. Investigating, entrevistando, studying specialized Literature, and also suffering in own meat, we reunited a devastating panorama: radical changes of personality, abandonment and dissolution of homes and families, diseases and breakings of mysterious and sudden health of all Hindu to him (many of rejectable them with " equally superstitious techniques ", and in the slight cases by means of the Inflexible Attempt of the Freedom), inexplicable alteration " of the animals " (mainly to midnight clock), more " inexplicable " death of the vegetation (even exact lateral half of a tree), overwhelming psicobody oppression in the home, preannounced suicides and a long list of others.

That on the part of the victims, although in this land the limit between victim and victimario can be made very blurred and even disappear. People have testified that not eats neither to duer me, works all day even outdoors in conditions climatic extreme, liquid drinks great amounts of during twenty-four hours, and, if it belongs formally to the hierarchy of the vudu; sect to which it is related, has tattoos, mainly in the forearms, with the infaltable serpent. But most frightful it is than these symptoms are appearing in people nonrelated directly to the vudu;, and who they can not know anything of the subject, but that they have been affected by somebody is going to know why aims.

We have observed two great affected main categories of, people who undergo " obsession " on the part of diferentres classes of inorganic beings, beings who the cultores of the vudu; call LOA, on which is possible to be consulted in existing Literature; what we have not found in books and yes in the experience, is that different categories from these beings obsesan to specific people, according to its individual personality. Thus, there is who make meat and blood of the saying that they themselves express: " It is necessary to live, it is necessary to amuse itself ", people who journey a scaling of manifestations that gradually take them to the end of not sleeping, not eating, obsessive sex, sadism, great power, violence, uninterrupted ability to work and increase and hardening of the muscular volume, which equips them with " a square " aspect. It seemed that the LOA that the obsessed one " wanted to enjoy the terrenal life " through its victim, or these acts generates the type of energy of the conscience that the inorganic organization needs like food. Confronted these people in diverse way, the obsesante being " shows itself by the eyes ", and sometimes the glance that appears causes in the other an instinctive, corporal panic or as you call it.

Another class of beings shows to an evident necessity of the conscience generated by the devotion and concomitantes feelings. People who feel flooded of love by the humanity, or that goes piously to the churches, people who show the same fisonomic characteristics during these states: pallor, consumption of the face, ojeras, etc., that to them mouse aspect confers " ". Such inorganic beings focus themselves sometimes in the religious images, towards which people direct her attention (that also constitutes a type of energy), producing " miracles " to maintain the faith of the flock in which they fatten themselves. Nor what to speak of the " Virgins " who punish the failed to fulfill promises, or who undo the " miracle " if offerings are done to them " that do not correspond to them ". Point by point the conduct of loa of the vudu;!

Loa ' descienden' on their human hosts, " rides them ", is aposentan to them between the superior part of the omóplatos, which causes in that zone the Maxima muscular contractura, and a encorvamiento of the superior part of the body " as if the person was hung of a hanger ".

You see the stories of those who were united to the Charismatic Movement. They convinced them to sing praises to God with the arms in stop (as if receiving antennas one was), and immediately became inflamed of devotion and " spiritual " ardor. He is that the Spirit " Santo " ' descended ' on them? And you consider that the Charismatic Renovation arose in the Caribbean, the American epicenter of the vudu...

II

You read, you read the testimonies of the miraculous treatments of the charismatic ones, that include people who " did not know to be thanked for " (she was not united to the meetings of orations, adoration and devocionales songs) and died soon after.

Fervor, joy, passion, devotion, violence... It already said Don to it Juan: " the inorganic beings feed themselves on the emotions of people ". And these beings foment those emotions on which they feed themselves, although to affect somebody it seems to be that they must be evoked, to " favor " of the applicant or of other people, not being able to act by initiative. Thus, the individual is plenty like of electrical energy, negative energy that equips to it with which would seem to be a inextenuable vitality, but that is in fact the other peoples energy of the inorganic being, in as much the true vitality of the individual goes being consumed, by itself or by loa, inextricable with the energy of the conscience. Later or more early, meat consumed beats to bones (because the matter is united to its power mold, eteric), devices and systems are colapsando, in as much perhaps person continues feeling " very well ", because what it feels it is the foreign electrical energy that maintains it, despite his own vital energy. The final stage of this condition we do not know it.

Wizards vudu; invoking to loa... Wizards tolteka looking for the allies...

Inorganic beings... Electrical energy...

You see what it is said in " the art of dreaming ", chapter 3, when Castaneda confronts the inorganic beings dreaming wide-awake:

" I took hold to the figure that was to my right. I felt one unloads electrical of such force that almost made loosen it me ".

" I clung to the figure, which enroscaba and was shaken. Not as a heavy animal would do it but like something spongy and light, but tremendously electrical ". " I received shock after shock of a nauseous electrical current ".

Don Juan said that Castaneda was dangerously similar to the old wizards. The same Castaneda in " the wheel of the time " makes the tragic confession of which it is catched in the attempt of the old wizards. Those morbosos beings who looked for alliance with the inorganic beings.

The things that ***reflx mng to the light of these considerations in the reports of the seminaries [ www.nagual.net/ixtlan/notes ] are, to say the minimum, disquieting.

" There am a history that Taisha counted in Maui, and the end cried here ". " that one was the point in which the voice of Taisha became broken. It happened that just it happened near my seat and I warned that their eyes were red and were tears running by his cheeks ". [ (...)notes/0395b.html ] Where is so clucked sobriety, that it avoids such emotional overflowings? Or they will say that they are not emotional overflowings but the " pure emotion of the wizard ", " controlled llantesco mistake " or some chorrada of the sort? (I am not accusing " bewitched " Taisha of, but the touching overflowings - to reir itself by any thing, to parlotear nervously without stopping, crying by songs they are counted between the symptoms of the affected ones by loa)

" Florinda Donner is a very low woman who exudes a great amount of energy that tended to be in the nervous side " [ / 0395c.html ]. Never I have seen Florinda Donner but they have to me counted on her, its nervous and run over conduct. That is the energy? that one is the benefit of the witchcraft, of you pass magicians: to walk to the crazy person? If really outside beneficial energy, would be armonizante, would confer peace, relaxation. But if one walks like feeler, it is that he is imbuído of electrical energy to such degree that is not supported itself. " It seemed fierce and a little aggressive ". " Later it would notice more about her and of my own stupid tendency to judge and to assume ". Then you pardon, but I believe that this stupid tendency helps us to maintain to us alive in dark and slippery land.

Nor what to speak of the laborious experience to listen to their radial interview, its pathetic ' this-this-this... of-of-of-of' tartamudeantes, and its answers that with time become entrecortadas, unfinished and finishes being a mess of ideas to means to express [ www.fortunecity.com/olympia/wade/237/florinda.htm ].

Taisha has the sufficient force for " maintaining the train in rails " but also is heard it be like having by an energy that it does not support, in interviews more than others, and fluctuating according to the moment. The effort to anchor when and not leaving goodbye here and now to the infinite? Where it is the balance, the balance of the warrior? The power to pay attention to any position of the embroider point; the sobriety, the cohesion, solidity? And one is his native world!

" In fact, you pass them are retrotraían to the old wizards and their fixations, that were in the and obsessive side. When one practices you pass them of witchcraft, then, it is enlisting to the attempt of all those old wizards and from whom they came later. A tremendous perspective " [ idem ] Already I create it!

" Florinda seemed rebosante of vitality. Practically [ jumped above and down " id. ]. Craso error to think that that is vitality. The vitality is harmony, solidity, sobriety.

How not to deduce a direct relation between a so " power " state (electrical) and good migas that they maintain with the inorganic beings, mainly Taisha, as can be read in several reports? And as much chorrada on the affection, the affection, the affection and the affection.

" Two S.I.la have taken in many trips to their world (both living in its attic). The S.i. can feel affection. The S.i. do not want to damage to us. 0595f.html only wants to share affection " [ ]. Oooooh, is taaan disinterested! Those S.i. must not have read " the Art of dreaming ". " Taisha dueme with them every night that to duer to me in its attic, and embraces with them " [ id. ].

" DJ thought that the only thing that era could be made remain sections of the inorganic beings ". " DJ glided to give a mortal jump to avoid the world of IF ". " CC create now that he is better to deal with that world; to learn to menejar it before making the trip final ". " the interaction of the group of CC is much greater than in the time of DJ " [ / 0895e.html ]. " the battle we are in that other world, and we will enter that universe likes or no, he is inevitable. They become aware more than we, but we have more energy (...) their conscience can take hold to us " (Conference of CC in the Phoenix bookstore, 28-2-93).

In [ 0595f.html ] tells that a " tiny beast with great wings " appeared next to the slide of a Rocket, and soon it disappeared mysteriously. Later Florinda said that it was " Globus and Phoebus ", the inorganic friends who sleep with Taisha. Such tiny beast would not be one insect, that in two number of figure in the emblem of Cleargreen?

III

The descriptions of the physical aspect of Castaneda agree with the one of numerous medical instructors and also with the one of numerous affected by loa that not even are medical instructors, neither of Tensegridad nor of vudu;, in very symptomatic points: the extreme thinness and the " nervous electricity ". Not to mention the glance or the expression of the face (I do not talk about Castaneda): " expensive of crazy person ", " having face of ", " worked face of ", " eyes of wizard ", " watched of black magician ", etc. etc.

" All the movements of their hands were fast and energetic, it walked to the jumps during his conference, pounding the platform with his hands at moments nails " [ / 0895f.html ]. You imagine to Don Juan behaving thus?

" Its left eye was inexpressive and dark... He was short, extremely thin " [ id. ].

" old an incredibly fragile... old one in the scene seemed because it weighed 55 kilos in a good day... Their hands were of old, with prominent veins and sinews. Their movements were vigorous, but not more than those of many sesentones that are exhausted in the gymnasium to which I go... Castaneda is so lean that its buttock has disappeared completely... spoke during most of one hour and average without hardly making pause to breathe... An old tidbit loosen melosos cliches... Castaneda make the clown in the scene, ing ***reflx mng itself of its own occurrences and generally exaggerating them ". " There was a rubiecita spandrel... Florinda Donner Grau... seemed that it weighed 38 kilos, assuming that had tickets of bus in the pockets ". " Taisha Abelar... was looked like those vacillating and fragile employees... whom as if seems they went to being demolished by a strong breeze ". [ / 0895j.html ]

This is what I have read until now. Lean and wild people. Where they are the sobriety, the balance, the balance between the physical body and the power one? " a horde of skeletal wizards ". It seemed that something consumed its vital energy to them and replaced it with electrical energy, nervous.

Many of my companions medical instructors show diverse degrees of thinness, are even consumed until the bones, but without symptoms of weakness. But what proves we had of which they were not thus already before beginning to practice Tensegridad? In addition, still we were not made these planteos. And it is not that, apparently, they lose fat and they become thin; they do not have meat! What yes they have, or they have left after the practice, is " crazy person eyes ".

Nobody observed this? Nobody asked it in the seminaries?

" It spoke on how back in Mexico people worried that he was draining the energy to them to become more fort. It said that this really is not possible " [ 0895i.html ]. " a man asked if it is possible to rob energy. Florinda said that nobody can remove energy to nobody, in Mexico was people who pnsaba that they were vampires, Florinda laughing said ' You think that we want your big toes ' " (Institute Omega, May 1995)

In this last phrase one talks about the energy of the conscience. It deliberately eluded to talk about to the vital energy?

" the energy cannot clear nor give us, only disperses towards the periphery; and the Tensegridad regroups it " (Mexico January 1996). And all that of which " we are sealed units in which it cannot enter nor leave energy ". And then what of that technique to absorb solar energy by the eyes (the Second Ring of Being able)? And that history of Taisha raising by the Great Tube, using reservorios of energy that had left to the night with its power body and taking the energy from the mules who crossed in opposite sense? And the subject to recover and to give back power filaments with the summary?

I believe that one is being different types from energy (of conscience, vital).

But it is not tried here to blame the wizards these to drain the energy to us. Rather, it seems that they also are being drained.

And with the aim of the lineage, the Challenging one of the Death remains without naguales to those who to take the energy them. But how, it was not that the energy cannot be given nor be taken? " Or it give your energy me or I denounce to you by wizard ", said the Challenging one to him to the nagual Sebastian; likeable beginning of the relations.

It took energy them from the " point of the death in the abdomen " and now put in " an own coat " [ / 0895k.html ]. and that finished the naguales to him, what?

"... it used the enrgetic body of Carol Tiggs of a dark way and portentosa, congruente with the machinations of the old wizards... it found its escape once again. It took hold a trip with you. Your destiny is the destiny of her { the woman of the church, Challenging }... if you arrive at the freedom, she also will arrive ". (the art of dreaming, CAP 13)

It arrived at the freedom? Or it died of liver cancer? Also, would be fulfilled the asseveration of Don Juan?

That " Carol Tiggs on pure attempt " (Challenging of the Death using the power body of her, that the devils take to me) it spoke of the love, and the love, and the love, and the affection and the love to him, saying to him that the Challenging one " is part of our lives and our lineage ".

" On the renter it said that the worlds that are at the moment exploring are outside the traditions of the lineage of Don Juan (presumably because they are created by positions of the point of embroider with a different movement that the one that used Don Juan more, and like the one than used the renter)" [ / 0895g.html ].

Reached the freedom along with the supposed freedom obtained by Castaneda?

The medical instructors who are made take care of by Howard Lee, the " attending physician " of Castaneda (to see the dedication of " the inner fire ". And: " ' Their extraordinary dominion of the shades of the use and handling of the energy turns it into the most respected and admired medical instructor of the art to deal with the energy. I am proud of to have been one of his estudiantes'. - Carlos Castaneda " [ www.sacredtrust.co.uk/hlbody.htm ]), say that this one showed that it dislikes the form to him in which at the moment, with the disappearance of Castaneda, the subject of the Tensegridad is taken, which is into the hands of the Challenging one of the Death!

It follows between us and it directs the Tensegridad. With what aim? Our happiness? Our " freedom "? Which is its interest: to survive. To maintain its world of dream, its tried world, to escape of the inorganic beings.

" - What can do to him?

" - To realize of which he was a man, and to capture it again, I suppose. I believe that it is scared to them, more than what you think that it is possible to fear to him to anything ", the " Carol Tiggs on pure attempt " answered.

"... all the wizards of the antiquity fell, irrevocably, prey of the inorganic beings. After capturing them, the inorganic beings gave them power for being the intermediaries between our world and its kingdom; a kingdom that people knew like the other world ", informed to Carlos the same " organization to him " (same chapter).

That is what it looks for and it happens in the world of the vudu;, and more slyly in other instances, according to has been related. Castaneda being like the old wizards. The Castaneda clan dealing gladly with the inorganic beings (common symptom: the nervous electrical energy and the extreme thinness). " the inorganic beings want to share conscience with us ". A millenarian wizard which he uses an other peoplés power body (power, vital or etérico the body that mentions the esoterismo interpenetrates with the physicist, and if its volume diminishes, the one of the physicist also), and that now directs the Tensegridad, and he does not have more naguales to consume, but he could have million people now! (and we were frightened of " old Misquamacus magician ") Energy of smaller quality, but in greater amount.

The news of the saying by Howard Lee began to shoot the doubts, fears, conjectures and alarms between my friends and I. Some were suspicaces more than others. We practiced the Tensegridad formally, other no, agreeing more or less whereupon they had greater touching connection with the subject, for the being it leaves from the " Castaneda subject ", and others lacked her.

The things were triggered when the opportunity appeared to concur to a seminary.

The encounter with the organizers already was reason for alarm. The pluses perspicaces noticed that " they are obsesados, have that giggle in the eyes, that fulgor golden of quienen are had by the electrical energy, that negative energy, unlike the silver-plated fulgor that them note to which barren and they are rested to be in harmony because of the positive energy ". And the fact that most of them they were lean did not inspire confidence indeed.

In other occasions, previous to the seminary, some of us we returned to have contact with these people, but already from the first day the problems began.

We began to see us affected of different way; they went away becoming ill, with different speed and forcefulness (the most serious case was postrado in bed, " as if it had received a beating ", with febrile deliriums in which " it fought to cut fastenings "); others such showed symptoms that during already mentioned " attacks of black magic ", like being oppression in point V, problems of throat, decay, " obsessive mind going ", conducts, etc., some of these of more moderate virulence, " a subtler attack ". To what attempt we had connected ourselves to only deal with the organizers?

And at the aim the great day arrived, as much for which " we survived " to go the seminary like for which they remained convalescing.

Thousands Reid seemed to be the one that was in better physical training conditions, whereas the endeble Darien Donner was in the other end. And that laughter in the eyes, that in some almost seemed a histérica outburst of laughter. Perhaps I did not notice this to them to Nyei nor to Renata (are " in another plane "), but in this one and Darien I believed to notice a greenish brightness of viscous nature (in the eyes); it was a fleeting printing, when happening.

There was a pile of lean medical instructors, several countries. Some were fat perhaps (it was his first seminary).

At the end of the day, having already left the place, it felt to me with solitude desires, and transido of an indefinable feeling, like a species of " melancholy of the infinite ". The vague idea that came to me it would be the feeling of that vagase eternally between the stars, and of which if it evoked the attempt for it, it would do a ball of yarn to me and it would cry very heartbrokenly.

We telephoned to the convalescent ones. They felt worse than ever in his life, and after few words plus they took leave directly and others declared to be experiencing an energy loss, equally that when one deals with " bewitched " people who have become a negative vortex of enrgía that absorbs the one of his around. Those that did not say to anything the moment, confirmed it later.

Second day. It had you happen " suspicious beside the point ", as one to inhale raising the arms (you remember the " arms in antenna of the charismatic ones) and to exhalar bending in two ("so that loa rides to you ", it would say the vudú). So everything what we could make era use the attempt to reject all strange influence. When an instructor said " so that among another thing ", metafóricamente the teeth castañeteaban to me.

A spilled concept, that soon we analyzed (with the most devastating conclusions), went that to the seminary " we were dreaming it ".

Having finished the seminary and left the place, my sensations of the eve were more intense. In addition I experienced a state of pronouncing weakening that I could drive away enough with the attempt. My friends already had gone away, each one by their side. I asked myself if really the renter would have affected to us for his benefit by means of the seminary. I experienced then the urgent and spontaneous necessity " to cut yet " with the place and what it had happened there, like thus also practicing the series to drive away the Rockets, which I made in a solitary public site. My members had an incredible agility, my fists were closed with a vigor that never before it had had. It had been able to follow all the night throwing blows of martial arts with the attempt to attack all foreign power influence. I also noticed that my attention more was focused, does not disperse as usual, and my internal dialogue very reduced.

On the following day I was with one of the " patients ", who began to recover. It was frightened when seeing me; it said that he was pale, lean, with eyes of crazy person and face of black magician, everything which I had not noticed he was in possession of the same agility of members that I, and we noticed the drastic loss of volume of our legs.

It even said that, like " bewitched ", I drained the energy to him, by telephone. That during the course the seminary experienced episodes of weakening, that lessened during the hours of the development of the factory but that they broke out again in the intermediate and later time (said sarcastically that the Renter let absorb the contenders when the practice was interrupted and visited the relatives and close friends of the medical instructors).

Other it told similar things me. The sufficient thing like going out to hours of the seminary managed to recover, and in the interruptions it undertook a flojera to him that almost could not move. To the night it had felt because a subtle shade took something him of the nape of the neck smoothly and it went away. Also it had happened to him that at certain moments felt like enough good; recostaba seated or, and when wanting to rise discovered that it could not, as if all its energy had disappeared inadvertently.

With third it happened that we dreamed about the same situations or the same people during the same nights. Also it dreamed about me in vampirescas attitudes towards its sleeping family, or who changed I of form or fluctuated my presence with the one of unknown people. And " he appeared to him in dreams " a man, an amiability model, that made crípticas references on the past of the sleeper, relating them to same himself, which in their presence invariably were disabled to move and to speak.

My dreams in both later days to the seminary were tremendous, lessening in the subsequent days. Before sleeping it asked which was the truth in all the subject of the Tensegridad. The dreams that it had throughout the night generally were related by some common, variable element.

In one, it was going to consult to a vudú witch in company of one of my friends. That same night, that friend dreamed that he accompanied me to the one by a healer, experimenting desfasajes in the perception of the time. In another one, I slipped by a tunnel, and one of my companions medical instructors desperately tried to help to me. In another one, a native or racially mixed vidente prophesied a scene to me, to which I was going to stop, asking to me how she had arrived there; a voice asked for " crazy people of force jacket ", and appeared the same companion along with of the other dream more people, and somebody shot to them and I worried about him. In an intermediate dream I went to the house of an anthropologist well-known mine. In another one, work companion was a boy supposedly, that " was crazy and was necessary to put force jacket to him ". I moved away of him and I was with another anthropologist that I know, that in the dream had gone to the seminary and I no.

To the other day, I dreamed that it was between many medical instructors, dresses with a species of uniforms of Tensegridad, prisoners in tunnels, grouped in pits, and our group fled, in as much they persecuted fire balls to us that always hit against other prisoners, who made the rounds with aspect of zombi, and they disintegrated them. Soon I saw advancing by acid channels, in which they choked the fire that they had in diverse parts of the body. We were in the surface, and was the same companion of the other two dreams.

To the other day I dreamed that it fled within an apartment (another version of the tunnel) of one momia that absorbed energy.

Of there in ahead, I sporadically dreamed about wizards and companions of Tensegridad, like thus also with Castaneda and texts his or of Cleargreen.

When we commented the dreams, somebody considered forcefully: those tunnels that saw were those of the inorganic world, or a reference to them or which it was affecting to us. It even reached the conclusion that what was doing to us was to drag us to the dream to drain to us, since the renter could not affect to us in the " normal life ", but would go out there and it would take energy him to anyone; that would explain the peculiar " oniroides " states that he in watch experienced; and it had not gone to the seminary. Through the energy ratio between us, it absorbed the energy of " relatives and other relatives ".

We communicated then that to him of which " to the seminary we are dreaming it ", and it almost gives an attack him.

IV

So to all this it had been going to stop all this subject of the Tensegridad...

I thought that there was to give the alarm voice, to deal with precaution the subject with the medical instructors, without making fusses alarmist to avoid to be labeled as paranoicos crazy people, and who repeated to us like parrots: " Nobody can to you does nothing ".

Another one said that there was to spread this information by Internet, that the medical instructors around the world evaluated and collated similar effects or of another Hindu to him.

There were some who did not agree: " That no, sight that if later they persecute to us ". " it already dresses the conduct the organizers; that it seems that they went in way to become a sect ".

The agility of members and vigor of fists we lost it by the same time, as much those that went to the seminary like the others, maintaining certain weakness in the legs. The other manifestations of conscience and impulses of conduct were disappearing. We practiced a little and we recovered them somewhat. But thanks to the psychic sinkings and to the experienced daze and desenergetización by those who had not attended the event, we let execute Tensegridad, and we turned upside down to other corporal disciplines.

With respect to my " cosmic solitude ", I did not return it to feel from awhile after the aim of the seminary, perhaps by the distractions. In / 0895k.html (that I mention indirectly because at the moment I do not have the text to my disposition), conference of CC on the Renter, says that one who after his first encounter with the Challenging one was imbuído of a " other peoplés, devastating melancholy " (or something thus); then the attack almost gave me, when reading that. "... and nevertheless pleasant, amiable ". One of ours thinks that the visitor " overflow of amiability and smoothness " that appeared to him in dreams was the renter.

And then, the philosophical debate: How it drains the energy to us? Direct visit, as it seemed to vivenciar the aforesaid one? General absorption of the medical instructors, extensive mechanically to its close friends? Or perhaps, if it needs Nagual energy, it consumes it of Carol, this one of Taisha and Florinda, they of the instructors, these of the medical instructors and these of his relatives; if it is thus, what responsibility degree or conscience of their acts has the witches and the instructors? He is deliberate? Or he is something that the renter produces automatically? To take the vital energy and to leave in return to agility of members, concentrated attention, reduction of internal dialogue, increase of the intention sense and a clucked f&sico and mental well-being of which never I have realized. It clears the food to us and in return it gives treats us; they are more flavorful than the food, contributes energy to be sweet; but they are only treats; how long can be lived thus with a diet, until the body colapse by lack of nutrients?

We stay because in addition to these " toys " we obtain that electrical negative energy, that has its worse expression in Florinda. But they see the histérica general answer that it gave to the questions formulated by medical instructors of Mexico, in number 2 of the newspaper ' the footpath of guerreró. Between the demolisher and acerbo it attacks, says: ' the practice of the Tensegridad will set the standard to them and you yourself will answer their questions by means of a process simplísimo that the Old Nagual explained to us but that a whole life in making it has taken us: to practice you pass magicians of the wizards of old Mexico, automatically makes discard the masturbations of the intellect. At the end of an assiduous practice he will concern a cucumber everything to them what he has said himself about the " inconceivable thing ", the " unspeakable thing " '.

Then what assumes, that we are machines to execute you happen and to summarize until the magical moment at which we stop the world and we leave sudden flights to the infinite? Immersed drops in the atestiguación of the sea of the conscience (without guide some) and cháchara of the sort? You do not speak, you do not think. It seems the coarsest sectarian mechanism.

Miniconferencia. " You come, together sentaos, thus is more power cohesion ". Why? For whom?

Participants of other semianrios have said to us that they experienced weakening in the presence of the witches and chacmoles. And that the witches even declared: " We needed your energy to be able to start off ". You want more tétrico to it?

And all this subject with the witches who do not appear more in the seminaries from kill time. But in Ontario ' 98 she appeared one of them. And who? Oh, surprise: nothing less than Carol Tiggs. But, it would be Carol Tiggs? Or it would be a " Carol Tiggs on pure attempt "?

They were spending the days and our meats thickened gradually, in as much we were losing the pallor of the face. When or we seemed to be " recovered enough ", having fought with attack to the health of diverse intensity, without knowing if they came from the vudú, the Tensegridad or what, some reincorporamos us to the practices regular, but or if the enthusiasm of other times, and yes kind to which it surrounded to us.

It was of terror.

There was people well-known and new people. The known ones were those that worse were seen, tidbits, " face of bad " (mainly the women), " expensive of clowns " others. One chavala of once smiling cleared face, now showed a shady expression in its expensive enflaquecida of pronounced characteristics. When we seated to summarize or to do gazing, they assumed rigid positions and apparently psychic dispositions also, that they gave them aspect of statues of warriors wizards (poor of them if this flatters them), in as much to others the jeta hung to them in silly expression. It seemed that a part had incorporated the attempt of the predators and another one the one of the prey. To see them practice gave the spontaneous printing me of a shady sect. All the opposite of the spectacle of thousands of Chinese practicing in its cities outdoors, as he sees himself in documentary.

When I returned to my house and I watched the mirror, I was frightened: in the course of one hour the enjutez and pallor of my face had reappeared...

IV

Recently we have printed texts of Internet, and what appears in some of them it confirms our desolation.

www.cleargreenhispano.com/practice/log.htm: " the participants of the seminaries of Barcelona and Buenos Aires have provided us a clear example of that: they allowed that something that is outside the parameters of our daily perception took form: the possibility of dreaming together ". "... the participants of these seminaries have entered a new type of consensus: an attention consensus. All medical instructor who connects itself with this new type of consensus, can enter the dream state ".

(and in Barcelona one said that the intention of the seminary was ' to dreaming in group'.)

But the really demolishing thing is in www.fortunecity.com/olympia/wade/237/barcelon2.htm. When printing it I could read the following thing:

" Where he is the Renter?

" the Challenging one of the Death is a being who always has been here but that per moments he is not available power. It seems as if this being was a little frightful for us. He is today here, in this room, but in the abstract thing ".

What tremendous bastard, I exclaimed in low voice (in fact, it was another phrase), since it found to me between people. " It is here but in the abstract thing ". " Don Juan, what beautiful metaphor " " What metaphor nor what the chingada one! What I say to you is very real ". Yes, it must be there " in abstract ", not in physical body; or in physical body from a position in which it sees without being seen. A voice whispered to me in the mind: " For a wizard the abstract thing is concrete it ".

To the other day, looking for that paragraph, I read the rest.

" We ourself we are challenging of the death, because to practice each it happens is an act of challenge to the death " What boniiiiito, we are becoming like him! But, absorbent of energy, already we had noticed it.

" We must say that he was Challenging of the Death the being who opened you pass magicians to people, of another way you would not huebieran presented ".

I almost had a apoplexy attack. But what damn bastard of father and Mr. mine! (in fact it was another phrase) Then he was behind everything from the mere principle! What another interpretation is already aside from which it was his own maneuver to make sure the eternal sustenance? That it continues dribbling Castaneda through news articles and conferences saying that did he by love to people, or so that the knowledge did not die, or things thus. Perhaps its motivation was sincere, but there was another one with more " pragmatic " motivations, to use that jodida word.

" the gift that did to Castaneda was the possibility of leaving the door open when it went away ". Until then one said that the Nagual had made by its great love the humanity. " Whatever it does the work, that does you pass them and summarizes its life, can happen through that door that the Nagual left open.

" Carlos Castaneda and the Challenging one of the Death made the fact possible of being able to dreaming together, but there is no a group, is an assembly beings who are available power ". Available for whom and why?

" power Availability means total attention to the dream that we have at the hand, the daily life.

" the total attention works ". It works why and for whom?

We go to the seminary, they move to us or they make move the point of embroider (to dreaming wide-awake) to a position that us the Renter makes accessible, and with the total attention (watching) we hold that position. A magnificent maneuver, worthy of a Rocket.

Since " Nine days are only a second for the challenging one of the death, but an eternity for us." (Don Juan speaking to be in the second attention, " the art to dreaming ", CAP 13), time exceeds to him to process estragias that stops we are in the long term.

Aside from connecting with the attempt of the old wizards the subject to us of the practice yet [ something who always mention, as if nothing had happened ] - and even by means of books, as it were pronounced in some conferences; and to story of this, we have the testimony of a veteran medical instructor of compatible arts to the vudú, that after reading " the lessons of Don Juan " said to them to some of us: " Now I understand why you let yourselves obsess. That book has an organization ". And nothing wanted to explain more -, with video I it puts to us in good physical form (if it were behind everything from the beginning, that has organized the videos would not be nothing), with the II puts to us in good power form, for, with the III, to hold and to entail utility to the movement of the embroider point. And how it is tried to move it? With " the Butterfly " and " the masculine and feminine winged being ".

" the masculine winged fighter and femeninó are teaching to a technique in the called factory '. They said that this technique is ' propiá (it belongs) to the challenging one of the death. She is one of the two that will be taught that comes from that source ". [ / 0895g.html ]

" they taught two new ones to Us you pass magicians:

" the ' Positions of the Mariposá and ' Pushing the right body the left and the left body to derechá ". [ / 0895h.html ]

In together " dreams " the recent seminaries, we become the Renter more accessible, and in the close one to San Diego " we flew in wings on the attempt through the crack being the worlds "... and perhaps we disappear like those whole native populations of the past; happening to the definitive flight of the total freedom? Or to the warehouse of the Renter? (or perhaps 'web') Perhaps physically we follow here, but power...

In order to complete, I have seen awhile does one of the videos and I have been tense, jumping, histeroide, the eyes abiertotes, the teeth tightened, and with enflaquecimiento principle. My spirit is wild also after reading some conference of Castaneda.

Reader, if you have arrived up to here and, knowing that it is the aim of the argumentation, you do not throw this to the boat of wastes or the flocks of your computer considering it absurd ' mental masturbations egomaníacas' (when saying of Florinda), but that although is makes you think somewhat or it remembers reflections or experiences that you have had or of that you have known, aconsejarte is only happened to me that you take a breathing, you think about all it if therefore you wish and, when you are arranged, him to it read DES one second, since your perspective will be different from the one from it to have read a single time and to believe to remember all the saying and

If you grant credit to my words, without a doubt he will be very hard to perhaps oppose this to thirty years of enthusiasm by Castaneda. But it remembers: our enthusiasm was not by Castaneda, it was by Don Juan, and Castaneda is not Don Juan, and the Tensegridad is not Castaneda, and Castaneda no longer is; although when knowing itself now the origin the Tensegridad (a dark wizard of seven thousand years ago), gives just as the last Nagual it was or no.

It reflects, dear companion (I put myself touching), companion medical instructor.

It compares these notes with which you see in your surroundings of Tensegridad, in your own one to be. There is lean body, there is pallor, there is suspicious dreams, there is ill close friends, or people who get tired in your prsencia, or before who you are debilitated? It remembers that in a group the energy circulates, and mainly if it is of the electrical class, the weakening symptom will be absent. And they ten in account that I am not establishing absolute, that all are going " to suffer of the same " or in the same circumstances.

Present Ten that Don Juan was not wizard, was KNOWLEDGE MAN. It cultivates the knowledge, I do not close your mind around the only one via of the Tensegridad, to " Castaneda it said " or " Castaneda did not say ". A wizard does not say things because they are truth, but because he persecutes an intention. The irreducible vision of the flow of the energy does not have why to be the last truth, the displacement of the embroider point does not have why to be the technique ultérrima; it can be only ONE vision of the universe, perhaps a multivision, but ONE after all. Why there are to be false the reincarnation, spiritual immortality, the subtle vehicles and all it? Because the wizards do not only see that he is thus? But they do not see either that IT IS NOT ASí.

He explores other doctrines, other techniques, although he only is intellectually, for not fijarte, not fanatizarte. The shadiest part (the inorganic beings) is interlaced with the subject of the vudú, but the tenebrous reality, that we have as much deduced as suffered in own and other peoplés meat, unfortunately is not in any book, that we know. " I am sure that there are many other systems of knowledge that express... we say, the terminology, the vocabulary is different, but in the end the attempt is same " www.fortunecity.com/olympia/wade/237/florinda.htm.

The compassion is reflected of the autocompasión, say the wizards. And as I worry about me and how me it can be affecting all this, also I worry about you and I want advertirte.

If sufficient people procupan themselves by this perhaps, so that we are all embaucados by the Challenging one of the Death and stunning by cháchara witch-like repetitive, I hope that the Spirit, the Abstract thing, provides to our liberation. I believe that the only thing that we can do by we ourself is to evoke the Inflexible Attempt of the Freedom, who must exert the wizards in the inorganic world. That inflexible attempt that moves away to the Rockets, and that to perhaps it preserves us of the depredations of the Renter. Fantaseo I with a Hollywood argument in which we formed a follower of dream warriors that take by assault the world from the Renter and it attacks it without quarter, until their the inorganic energy to mer to me, its hiding place colapse and beings are it, and, shouting of horror, it is dragged with them to his world, for always. And that then Don Juan and his cohortes are freed, and they continue its trip.

And to you, that you think that tod this is silly things. That you trust " Castaneda " and you think that you will accumulate inner silence, you will suppress the ego, you will redistribute the energy, you will extend the parameters of the perception, will watch, dreamings, you will reach the totality from same you, recpitularás all your life, will reach the total freedom, you will undertake the abstract flight and you will avoid to the eagle...

Sincerely,

I wish You That You ARE RIGHT!