Topic: R-Dead Television Report
Saturday 10:25am 5May07
Okay so I decided to post my little rant from last week's episode of Grey's Anatomy:
I was hoping that they weren't going to go down that route with McDreamy. He's always pushed the relationship with Meredith. When she pulled back from him after their one night stand because a) it was a one off and b) he was one of her bosses. He pushed it to continue. She never claimed to be easy to love. She's always known that she has intimacy issues.
But she went along with his coercion and started to fall for him. Then she gets the previously still married surprise. She fell apart in Meredith's way of falling apart and somehow got McDreamy back. Again she showed that level of distance. After their first real fight she showed that level of insecurity because she'd never done this before. She'd never stayed. And he promised her that no matter how many yelling matches they would endure he would still show up every night because this is what love is ... showing up, being present, committing.
Now that she's in it. Now that she's committing. Now that she's opening herself up, he's pulling back. He's worried about losing out on becoming chief. He feels like he's losing his edge and he's looking around for blame and blaming Meredith. Now isn't that exactly what some men do and don't they crush a woman's heart in the end?
If he's losing his edge it's not because of Meredith, it's because he never had the edge to begin with. Why can't he be a good surgeon and a great boyfriend at the same time? Why does it have to be an either or proposition?
I like how Grey's Anatomy pulls out these issues that feel like real life. The questions that make me look back at my male choices. The times that I was aloof out of fear and when I finally gave in , my heart got stomped flat by a steamroller. And all you can tell yourself when all goes really wrong is Why didn't I continue to hold myself back? Then I wouldn't be in this predicament, wishing him back or wishing myself forward into the healthy heart land where the emotions aren't a mess and the man is just a memory. But we can't hold ourselves back forever, can we? We have to give our hearts to someone sometime.
And doesn't mcDreamy pick a fine time to pull this shit? When Meredith has the big exam to prepare for? Not that you can ever time these things well but seriously? Seriously?
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