Feel Like Connecting
Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Sunday 4:20pm 18Feb07

I feel like goofing off a little so I thought I'd blog for a bit before I do the next thing. I did an hour of stream of consciousness writing then spent an hour prepping my soup (Zucchini and Carrots), making my beet juice and cooking an early supper.

I realized that I hadn't received an email from the Writing Coach in ages and spent a bit of time trying to see if I had any of her old emails through the Feedblitz feed. Seems her blog is on another service so I signed up for it and also received the first five days of her ebook... check out her blog etc at The Writing Coach

It seems that in it she also subscribes to the 1 hour nonstop writing session. It ain't easy, let me tell you, but you feel like you've accomplished a great deal and are able to write through the doubts. Always good. I've added to my daily habits to do an hour nonstop on my novel in progress just so I know what I want to work on before I sit down for my 3 hour daily writing goal.

One of the things that I love the most about winter is that I can stay home all day everyday without feeling any guilt for not having got outside. Yes, Yes I know I should be doing my steps but WTF I'll get back to them in March. ha ha!

But I am finding that I would like to connect with someone. I like to play these psychic games and choose a person and call their name in my head and see if I can run into them. I can't say that's it's worked in a long time but it keeps me occupied. Actually I think it's only ever worked with another Pisces. I remember that it always worked quite well with Ben Mayne, who is a Pisces. That said, I've been looking for him for years now and we still haven't come across each other. I don't know if he's in Australia or England.

The fun part about walking to connect is that I do always end up running into at least three people that I know. So seeing on how I do need a wee break from the house, I'm going out to see if today, by chance, I can connect with the person I want to connect with. Are you out there? Think, "Shelley, I'm here," in your mind and maybe we'll run into each other. tee hee hee!

EY

Sleep Marathon
Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Saturday 11:33pm 17Feb07

Seems the progress meter generator I was using is now dead. The web site is down and I think they haven't paid their bill. So had to find a new service. The ticker factory is more for pregnancies and exercise but I managed to figure out a way to get something going...
it's all good!

Since I got home from work last night I've been participating in a sleep marathon. Can't seem to keep my eyes open. I'm about ready to go back to sleep. Managed to get groceries today, supplies for my beet juice and my morning smoothies. Had salmon for lunch. Let's hope for renewed energy!

I really am going back to sleep. Now if only the cats would stop crying to get out to play again in the hallway.

EY

Writing Zazen
I notice that this blog is being problematic again. If there are no posts here for a few days, I'll be posting at my other blog that hasn't been problematic : Writing Zazen

EY

Can't Sleep
Topic: WC - Daily Practice
Thursday 10:44pm 15Feb07

Can't sleep. Had all the lights out, got all comfy under the blankets and my mind was going a mile a minute. Tried to use my imagination to think about other things or make up possible futures but it didn't slow down the mind, just got me thinking more.

I reached my 3 hour writing goal today and had all sorts of plans to see how much more I could accomplish in one day. My phone rang. The continuing saga of a friend's health scare. All is well. Played catch up on the stories that I have to tell from the past several months. Talked for over an hour, laughing and yelling, like we do. Cordless phone needed to be recharged, not mine my friend's so we bid good-bye. I was going to write and thought with Merc's retrograde (I can call it Merc since we are so close) I'd call a blast from the past, Tyrone. Called his house in Guelph and some strange people were on the voice mail. Holy shit did he move?

Emailed another blast from the past to see if he had Tyrone's current number then vaguely remembered a voice mail of month's past with a cell number. Where the hell did I put that? I don't seem to have a phone book anymore. Found the sheet and got Tyrone's wife. Tyrone called me back from a land line and the catch up began. Much laughter. Baby daughter had a birthday on the 9th. I actually remembered and mentioned it first. Tyrone was the tall skinny white guy that hung out with me and two other black people. He told us his middle name was Tyrone and we believed him, telling him it was a black name. One day while renting movies with him, I saw his card and his real middle name is Todd. Laughed my ass off. So I call him Tyrone here because he will find that amusing. Yet another admitted village idiot in the group.

His daughter is an Aquarius and I realize that my life has become inundated with Aquarians. How did that happen? I've had so many birthdays go by in February and everyday I think, Who's birthday is it today? I know it's someone's. Lolo started them rolling in January on the first day of Aquarius, then Fredo and Hy and Goldfish and best friend's girlfriends and daughters and on and on. Jeez, can't we just get to Pisces already? Aquarians can be very similar to Pisces and vastly different. It's most amusing. Goldfish is decidedly the most gentle Aquarian soul. Lolo and Fredo the most difficult, or at least they give me the hardest time of it anyhow.

Lolo likes these funny games like making you choose between one gross thing over another and you have to choose one. She makes you. Like knowing that I don't like feet she makes me say out loud what I would choose - licking a man's ass or sucking his toes. Now I know the licking of the ass is gross (unless you're into that, then there's nothing wrong with it) but sucking his toes is just as gross to me. Sorry no foot fetishes here. She made me come up with a list, her rules and doesn't the wench chicken out and not even come up with the same harsh list after I racked my brain? Not sure how I'll ever forgive her for it.

Yeah Aquarians are a treat.

Caught the second half of Grey's Anatomy and what are they doing to Dr McDreamy and Christina? Come on Shonda, you're hurting me. And we have to wait another week and watch Christina lose it? It's any wonder I can't sleep. And the freaking announcer says next week's most devastating episode yet! sigh!

Zelda mania has calmed down for a few brief moments and it's actually quiet in the building. Maybe I can have a tea and attempt the face first climb back into bed. At least it's Friday tomorrow. If I don't get to bed soon, I may be fried for Friday.

Oh yes and one of the ex's called yesterday. Peculiar that he'd call on Valentine's day after all this time. After 5 years together and missing each and every Valentine's day, he calls me when we're not together. We always did make better friends than lovers. He's not an Aquarius. No he's part of my Capricorn hell. I work with 5 Capricorns. And the last person that I saw regularly had the same name as this ex and the same birthday and I know a third one. It's any wonder my brain is spinning out of control. Meredith is talking to the hot bomb guy that got blown up and Denny Duquette is on the other side of her telling her damn straight you're dead!

Maybe I should have a glass of wine instead of tea.

EY

Valentine's Day
Topic: Another Entry
Thursday 5:31am 17Feb07

Well, another valentine's day has come and gone. You know it's manufactured romance but I never know how I should feel about it. Should I feel jealous because boyfriends are forced to romance their girlfriends because everyone else has to? Who knows.
I'm single anyway so I don't have any expectations either way. No expectations that some secret admirer will send me flowers or a love note or anything. ha ha!

But my lovely boss bought me a box of Ferrero Rocher. Even though I'm off sugar I had to at least have one. It's not like it's a cheap chocolate. G.Mac makes me laugh because he always does something like that. He always buys me a gift on secretaries day. He may even buy me a mother's day present, because I'm the mother of cats. ha ha!

I got an ecard from Pillsbury and if you know me you know that I love the Pillsbury dough boy. He could be the perfect man! He cooks (a lot of fattening stuff mind you), he giggles when you poke him in the stomach, and those eyes! I even have a Pillsbury stuffie that my mother got me years ago. Anyway, I sent my love of the Pillsbury dough boy in ecards to some of my single friends.

I had some good laughter asking my boys what they were doing for their wives for valentine's day. Cranky tall boy, who has been exceptionally happy as of late, said he was giving his wife a shovel. We got a lot of snow yesterday. Then he proceeded to rant about manufactured romance and hating to be told that he had to be romantic. Cranky tall boy? Maybe you'd like to look into the reasons why your wife doesn't want to cuddle you at night... She has to cuddle me, it's so fucking cold in the house because I turn down the heat! Ahh such a romantic!

Jojay said grudgingly that he was doing the roses and taking his lady out for dinner. Just paying for regular sex folks, just paying for regular sex. ha ha!

Air, you might want to think about getting your thing snipped for valentine's day as a present for your wife. The guy can't even look at his wife without getting her pregnant. It's pretty scary when you can't just enjoy sex with your husband when you know you're just going to be pregnant, AGAIN! Especially when your husband wants a football team for a family.

Fredo sent me a good giggle of valentine's day insults which was the perfect icing on a very funny day. Most days I feel like the only sister in a family of big brothers. Getting first hand knowledge that most boys are sick puppies but in a good way. And the odd hug and regular teasing isn't such a bad thing for a single girlfish.

Now if I could just keep to 1.5 hours of writing in the am and 1.5 hours of writing in the pm, I'd get my 3 hours a day easily. I'm just saying.

Hope your valentine's day was something!

EY