Topic: WC - Daily Practice
5:33pm Monday 8Jan07
It's ironic that the only part of my horoscope for January that comes true is the bad stuff. The romance? No of course not. Mind you I did swear off men for the time being anyway but you know the cosmos could send me a good one just cuz I deserve it. Nope?
No, the part about a close friend in crisis, that's the part that comes true. Now I know I said that if anyone was in crisis they should call a therapist but I didn't mean everyone. I meant mostly every one.
My best friend is the one that understood the inner me almost immediately. He always knew how to console me through my crying years. He was the one that told everyone, "she's not a crybaby, she's sensitive." We've been best friends for close to 30 years, a life time really. Although we live in different cities, I never feel far away from him. Until today.
I feel too far when I know he could use the comfort of seeing my face and appreciating my listening ability and my comfort with silence, if that's what is needed. I feel too far away when I know that he doesn't open up to just anyone and it's me that he thinks to call when he's going through what he's going through. I feel too far away when I know that he's my 911 person, he's the person that I would call if I knew I was going to die and I had one last chance to tell someone I loved them. As so many had to when they faced the tragedy and horror of September 11th.
I told someone recently that I didn't have anyone who would be devastated if something happened to me but I wasn't thinking. He would be devastated if something happened to me. And I can't even contemplate anything ever happening to him.
So tonight I pray for his emotional well-being. Tonight I pray to whatever power is up there to help me to transport my energy to my best friend for comfort. Tonight I pray for a way for him to feel my presence blanket him as if I were there holding him, consoling him, giving him the safe place that he's always readily and easily given to me when I've needed it.
I don't love anyone as much as I love you.
EY
