Faulty Accusations Breed Frustration.
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: #4 - Yellowcard
So weird.

I woke up at 11 something this morning and stumbled downstairs and watched the ending of VH1's Top 20 Countdown. It's habit forming, really.

I didn't do much today. To be honest, I did nothing but what pleased myself and is that not was spring break is for? I laid around. I dug up cement out of the front yard with my mom. We planned out the landscaping and then we sat in the warm, spring sun and read Pablo Neruda. <3 Mom and I gathered lemon grass to braid and hang and then we ate dinner and here I am.

Studying. I have forced myself to do what other normal teenagers do. I am studying for my learners permit. It is almost nerveracking all the little facts that might be on the test and yet how simple all the little facts are. But why do I need to drive? So I can take myself to school and work without nagging my parents? Parents need some nagging... it keeps them in good spirits.

I guess it is healthy to do this. I mean its like turning 13-your first year of being a teenager. Sweet 16-becoming a young lady. Learner's Permit-first step to independance. But doesn't it go downhill from there? Graduation, college, marriage, more college, more college, the doctorite, career, family, family, family. I don't know, maybe there will be some laughter in there. <3 After I think about it, I guess that it won't be so bad. Anyways, I'm putting off the studying by posting so I guess I should quit.

But what are the chances of that, right?

I'm watching Problem Child.

Daddy's taking me for a new pair of shoes tomorrow. <3 I'm thinking flat, I'm thinking white, I'm thinking anything that doesn't make loud noises when I try to inconspicuously walk to the front of the sanctuary during church.

It was so obnoxious in church on Sunday. I wore my white pumps and I did not know how loud they were on hard floors. In the middle of the service mom told me to get dad some more water so I had to walk up to the pulpit, get the glass, fill it and walk back. Stupid me. I think that walking on the side of the sanctuary will not make me as noticable... ha! There is no carpet on the side isles. My shoes turned into guns that shot me in the temple every time I set my foot down. Mom laughed, dad met me half way, I blushed.

Ha! This movie is rad. I haven't seen it in forever.

Ich liebe dich.
BETH

Wish me luck on the test tomorrow. I won't pass just out of spite. No, I'll pass. No I won't. Should I be positive and set myself up for failure or be honest and self-destructive?

<3