I know, I know. I have not written for a long time. But let me just tell you how well school is going... oh wait... its not going well at all! Go figure!
I'm really anti-racist, I mean if I find out someone is racist I lose ALL respect for them and never gain it back. So we were talking about racism in history and I said that I saw these two girls at the store and they were saying how they didn't like black people becuase they smelled bad. I'm not just going to let them say that becuase... well... what kind of person would that make me, to see someone do something horribly wrong and not stick up for what I believe. So I said to them "Hey come on man... theres nothing wrong with black people. Thats not cool." and they said "What... do you want the crap beaten out of you?" and I just smiled at them, shook my head and walked away. So I told my teacher that and she said "BETH! You shouldn't have done that!" "Why not?" "Because people are entitled to their own opinion!" (Oh but dear, it works like a phone... if they get to talk loudly about their opinion, then they shall hear MINE too.) So I just looked at her and said "I'm not going to just back down from my beliefs, and that is what you're telling me to do. It just wouldn't be right." SO THAT SENT ME OVER THE EDGE.
ANDOn top of that... I was supposed to have Friend1, Friend2, and Friend3 over friday night instead of going to the banquet becuase... well the banquet is just a big bitch-fest. So FIRST Friend3 couldn't come becuase her family was making her go camping with them. Then friend2 couldn't go becuase he had some band thing that he had to do becuase one of the members would be going out of town... then friend3 decided that since friend2 was doing somehting more interesting that he wouldn't come to my house, and he would spend the weekend with friend2.
And yes. I'm ranting.
ALSO FRIEND3, doesn't think that the teachers should be telling him to get out work... so while he thinks he's getting all sassy and looking cool, all I see is him whining until he gets his way out and I can't fricken stand it anymore. Even worse, he's becoming like them. He is. He has to go back next year and he's becoming like them. He thinks he should be all ticked off because he's going back. I've worked my BUTT off this year trying to get through, and he hasn't done one fricken thing to try. He hasn't tried at all. And he thinks HE should be mad? Bull crap. Its me man, its me who's mad now. I got mad at him and friend2 becuase they won't work at ALL. For a group grade, since they wouldn't work, I got a really low grade and I work so hard to keep my grades up. I got mad, and I told them why and Friend3 thinks he has the RIGHT to give ME a dirty look for being mad at HIM. It was a perfectly LOGICAL reason. But you don't know what a LOGICAL reason is, Friend3 becuase you don't pay attention in LOGIC. And becuase you don't pay attention in LOGIC, I can't pay attention in LOGIC. I can barely pay attention anyways and its YOU. ALWAYS YOU. Thanks for EVERY FRICKEN THING. THANKS FOR THE CRAP, ALL THE CRAP! GOD AND I WILL SCREAM TO YOU. I WILL SCREAM THIS TO YOU UNTIL YOUR EARS FRICKEN BLEED BUT IT STILL WON'T GET THROUGH YOUR HEAD BECUASE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT REAL LIFE IS LIKE, DO YOU?!
This year has been crap, its been cow poop from DAY FRICKEN ONE. AND I HATE IT ALL.
Yea. I'm ranting, and yes... I am mad. But you have no idea what this year has been. You will never find out unless you go there.
I do not want to go tomorrow. Spiderman... save me.
BETH