They say traumatic events can unleash an incredible amount of creative energy. I've had quite the traumatic even. My life came off the tracks, rolled into a ditch where it promptly caught fire and exploded. Basically my life has been a living hell for the past 4 months, and I think I need to spill all, and put my thoughts into words. Some words of anger, some of pain, some of happiness. Others of total random nature, whatever is floating around in the nebula of my brain. You see my life was a smooth lake, calm as in the twilight between dusk and darkness. Not a thing stirred I had made peace with myself, and was going to start my summer plans. However some fucker decided to drop a 10 ton rock into the lake of my life, and I had to ride the waves of this action for some 4 months. My dad had left my family with about an hour notice to me at least. He just up and left, paradise to chaos in one hour. From there it was like a chain reaction, with everything happening at one time, to much to process, mentally weakened I went to school day after day like a zombie. I was thinking about other things then school, and it kinda showed. Hee hee. I was, for a lack of a better description, all fucked up. So I basically went into autopilot and my body carried me around, but the brain wasn't thinking. I was numb as hell, didn't feel a thing. I kept getting weaker and weaker as the days dragged into weeks, all my barriers were crumbing. I was exposed. I was terrified I'd break down at school, or just start beating on someone. Well, it's all over now, mostly, still some after shock ripples bouncing around. I went threw every emotion imaginable. Fear, pain, anger, sadness, Dred, and isolation. I adopted a motto that someone told me. Just smile, you look so much nicer. So I did and I felt much better. This has been the roughest time of my life, ever, and it's not over yet. I see many battles ahead in the near future, and they will be very hard. I'd just like to say thank you to (in no particular order and for various reasons) Doug, Wilkinson, Catherine, Jerm, Rick and Jen, Tyler, Shawny G. and the Science gang, Ian, Phil and Mr. Peterson. You all made me feel great about myself during this hard time, and I can say I truly enjoy our time together. Thanks a bunch y'all.

Now, onto Deep Thoughts, this is a part of my website where, I write things I have on my mind, so I can express myself in a creative way. Hope anyone that reads this likes it.