As the Sun Set
Twilight approaches and he wants to stay in the warmth a little more. Chase the Sun and run fast before she sets and leaves you alone. Stretching thin the poor youth reaches out one last time. As he smiles with triumph he trips and the gloom descends.
He was left alone to shiver when the Sun went from his life. Now with no one to bring light the boy sits and thinks. With hands that are burnt red from reaching out to her. Why did he have to suffer two fold for trying to keep the Sun?
Finding faults of character the boy begins to doubt his affection. The Sun left without caring enough to wave and he is still upset. He cannot fill the void left when the Sun turned her back on his world. As he cries pale light emerges from the horizon, the Moon brings comfort.
Autumn Day
Step outside on cold feet Sun is up when old friends meet See the world through warm breath Night departs and only frost is left Drink cider and sing tales of the past Autumn replaces waning summer at last Trees and wind make me a song Time is short as the shadows grow long Orange leaves fly about with old dust Sometimes frozen grass reminds me of us Beautiful for a time and destine to die Our essence is lost with time passed by Darkness falls early to consume the light Even the bravest men fear the autumn night
Bad Sleep
Another night to think what I did wrong. Just a restless time in my bed. Feeling good but for how long? Wake up from fear of what I do to you. Evenings now bring nightmares and bad sleep. Toss my blankets off and awaken at half past two. Yet a new night brings no comfort to my life. I will never go back to the way things were. I will not be the same as you prefer. All despite your desperate plea. Bad days, bring bad sleep to me.
Shallow
Swimming about your personality, when it suddenly occurs to me. I have sunk to the bottom and there is no where to go from here. Something made me see, you are so petty and unpleasant to me. Your sparkling blue waters at one time were so fun to jump in. The current drags me on sharp rocks, I see how shallow you are. Today I am but a fish in this toxic stream and it makes me sick. Evolution is a fancy thing, I will grow legs or sprout wings. To take me away into the night, to a place out of your sight.
Pick Up/Go Away
You have made it, now destroy it! You built it up, now take it down! You came here, now walk away! Go away, but destroy what you brought.
I need you to kill, to kill my pain before you leave. You need to kill the pain, my agony. Destroy it damn it! Destroy it!
You brought this, take it back now! You opened my eyes, sew them shut! You gave me a voice, make me mute! Leave, but undo what you changed.
I need you to leave, leave me to myself. You need to pick up and go. Go somewhere, anywhere.
You said this, so it was wrong! You loved this, that was awful! You found me, now I am lost! Fix this myself, if you just disappear.
Sleet
The gray sky of Winter is upon us. Walking through the snow. I follow hesitant, into the field. Gray and white heighten the senses. Together at the hands sharing. Where the forest and field meet. Ice covered trees, you and me. Hesitant glances through hot breath. Childish grins for things unsaid. The breeze moves hair subtly. A thin vail of secrecy. After a time you turn to me. A faint whisper in my ear. Hoping to draw my face near. I never saw such beauty before. Sleet descends into the picture. A lovely song of our nature. We lay on the snow to embrace. Looking to the sky for inspiration. Searching for what was there all along. Companionship under the blanket of Winter.
Once More
You are drunk again. Hit me in the face again. Blood in the eyes again. Red is what I see again. Hurting my body once more. My mind is primal again. The anger rises up again. Only a crying boy again. One day I can live again.
Monday will come again. I can hide feelings again. Act happy once again. I need to smile again. I want to believe once more. To live for you again. Only to be hurt again. Back at the origin again. I will not be blamed ever again.
Freezing To Life
Feel her warm embrace in the cold air. The blanket of snow pulls itself upon us. Grasp tight while I slip away. Blinded and bathed in a timeless white snow. In hopes that this freezing feeling will yield new life.
Time in a standstill as I freeze. Do not struggle to revive me. I chose to be outside. Freezing to life.
In the pale moonlight I watch life leave. Petrified tears burn a scar into me. I must walk in the swirling wind alone. Away from my life and into the night. In hopes that this freezing feeling will yield new life.
Will I ever see what these choices bring me?
© 2001 Matt Ricker All Rights Reserved
