::tell me what it's gonna take...got me all bent outta shape:: gail 9611's brain fart

::Saturday, May 31, 2003::

why is it that when there's something that's so far out of your control that that's when your parents find that it's time to blame you for it? shit...im having some problems with my loan for school again and it's starting to look like i might not be able to take the summer classes I had wanted for the next two summer modules at woodbury. my mom's pissed. like seriously pissed. i told her that woodbury is asking for about $3000 for my summer sessions and that i was working on clearing some stuff up at school for the money, but she's like mad. fuck. it's all going back to my not asking her for the money i had needed last module to pay for some of my classes, and now it's biting me back in the ass. she's totally mad that i didnt ask her for that money sooner, shit, i never asked for that money. she gave it to me cuz she didnt want me not going to school, and now she's madder that i might not go to the next module either - i understand that i should be totally grateful that she wants to give me the money, but shit, we totally fought about my going to this school. she totally was against it, and she was adamant that i was going to do it on my own if woodbury was where i really wanted to go. i said fine and decided i would take out my own loans and just deal with it. so that's what i've been doing. the only difference now is that i'm starting to be open with her and my dad about how it's going. im not lying about my making the payments or how big my loan is. i'm just coming out and telling them that they were right and it is hard, but you know what? i'm not regretting it. i love woodbury. i love the people that i encounter there. i love the teachers that i have. i love the classes that i take. going there motivates me to actually go to school...i'm not gonna quit going there, and im not gonna beg for money. i'm gonna do it, but im gonna have to do it on my timetable, not theirs or anyone else's.

gail brainfarted for you @ 7:56 PM

so dude...it's my first day to be able to sleep in, and i cant do it! what a bitch!!! it's the first day in a long time that i haven't had something planned for the butt crack of dawn and i frickin can't sleep anymore!!! dont you hate that?! shooooooooooooooooot...damn this working at 7am everyday, im so used to getting up at 6 that getting up at 830 is late for me already! terrible! now i dont know what to do with myself - no one else is out this stinking early in the morning!!!

hahaaa...now i have to find a burning software to dl...this adaptec sheez isnt working for me...boooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...im off to start surfing the world wide web! check ya later!

hey...if anyone wants to do something later tonight, let me know...im searching for interesting things to do!

gail brainfarted for you @ 9:11 AM

::Friday, May 30, 2003::

talking to teen just reminded me of how precious our lives are...

Aaayteeen: ok, don't mean to put a damper on your day, but i just talked to my dad, and he told me a story
Aaayteeen: so anyhow, there's this girl that he works with, that's like 21 - she's the daughter of the vice president of their company in indiana... and she's cool, he said she's like his indiana daughter, like, him and his other friends from work all go out, and she goes along with them
Aaayteeen: kind of how like the eprp nurses are with us...
Aaayteeen: so anyways, he said they all went out to dinner last night... went home
Aaayteeen: came back to work the next morning and found out she was in a head on collision and was air lifted to the main city - indiana (cause he works like 2 hours away from indiana)
Aaayteeen: and right after they came back from lunch, they found out she passed away
Aaayteeen: =(
Gail9611: : oh...
Aaayteeen: i was really sad for him
Gail9611: : how sad...
Gail9611: : that's terrible
Aaayteeen: he said that she was about to graduate from college, had everything going for her, nice family, etc...
Aaayteeen: so he called us (me and my brother) to tell us to be careful and everything... it was really sad
Aaayteeen: he said the whole office is in mourning and to like pray for her
Aaayteeen: poor girl
Aaayteeen: poor family
Aaayteeen: yeah, exactly - it sounded like my dad was gonna cry... cause he was like, i can't imagine how her dad feels - cause he knows her dad (since the dad is the vp of the company and all)
Aaayteeen: it's so sad
Gail9611: : man, imagine if that happened to someone we knew and were close to?
Gail9611: : **knock on wood**
Aaayteeen: yeah... that's what my dad's feeling... he's so sad
Aaayteeen: i felt really bad... i mean i didn't know what to say, but i'm sorry and all that...
Gail9611: : yah...i know what you mean
Aaayteeen: makes me cherish those close to me even more...
Gail9611: : i know what you mean
Gail9611: : makes me want to take advantage of the life i have
Gail9611: : you know what they say...live life to the fullest and all that junk
Gail9611: dude...21 - that's a lot of life that was taken away
Aaayteeen: yeah man... that's frikin young

so can everyone just take a little time today to just pray for the soul of this girl and the family and friends she left behind...and while you're at it, take a little time to thank God for the people you have in your life and for thanksgiving that you're still alive...

gail brainfarted for you @ 4:05 PM

::Thursday, May 29, 2003::

so yeah...today's been a pretty chill day...work was alright, had a pretty good meeting for my Labor/Management Partnership Team, chilled with Paul a little bit, then got to spend some time with my cousins...they're great. they're fun...

well, first of all, lemme tell you what i dont understand. i think its pretty ironic that i have been chosen to represent "labor" on a "Labor/Management Partnership" effort team. me, being the cynic that i am, fully do not believe in the union. shit - if you know me and my work ethic, you'd know that i personally think that in general, the union is for those who are LAZY. don't get me wrong - i dont doubt that oftentimes there may be an actual necessity for unions if there are corrupt managers, but for the most part, why can't "labor" and "management" just get a long? all that's ever really necessary in a work enviornment is a team or family-like atmosphere. i think what works for my unit at work - who have no labor/management issues - is that we communicate with each other. we look out for one another. we've got each other's backs and we dont let our partners struggle or look bad, if the manager looks bad, it's a reflection of his/her staff. so why make your manager look bad? that's just the way i see it. if everyone just worked together, there wouldnt need to form a "partnership" cuz shit - i'd already be understood!

now, how does this tie in? well, it just works on so many levels...in confirmation, i've learned the importance of working with the other leaders. i can't effectively plan/lead a class if i can't lead my team. if i can't find it in myself to listen to them and understand them, am i really helping to foster a good working enviornment? an enviornment that allows for growth? no. a healthy environment is one which is filled with communication, openness, and a willingness to work hard together toward a common goal regardless of what that goal is...that's what we need to teach our incoming leaders - teamwork, it's essential...

hmmm...yah...enough rambling...sorry guys...it was on my mind...maybe i'll get some more later...byebyebye

gail brainfarted for you @ 10:20 PM

::Wednesday, May 28, 2003::

i have no life...i felt like blogging, but i really didnt have anything to blog...bleh...

gail brainfarted for you @ 10:34 PM

MY COMPUTER WORKS!!!!
Thanks Ariel - you're the best!!!

gail brainfarted for you @ 8:20 PM

::Tuesday, May 27, 2003::

so yah...my computer isnt working at home...i have absolutely no idea what happened to it, but it's not working...boooooooooo! sad for me! so for all of you that think the best way to get a hold of me is to get online and im me - dude, you gotta actually call me now! so yah...hmm...what's been up with me?

sunday night chi and i took the kiddies (kookee and nino) to speed zone. dude, chi and i are sooooooooo addicted to that drum game. haahaa...it's like DDR, but with drums. it's all about keeping the beat. it's fun. we ate a round table, and kookee finally got to see chi's apartment. it was cool. it was a pretty chill night.

worked yesterday, dropped my computer off at ariel's to get fixed. had dinner with the fam's at NewTown Buffet - damn dude...we got our money's worth in chi! she tore up those crab legs. i dont think i've ever been that full in a long time. this dining experience was so much better than the last time i went there!

Happy Birthday Auntie Maricel!

until next time...

gail brainfarted for you @ 9:06 AM

::Sunday, May 25, 2003::

something's wrong with my template, so the currents are gonna have to change later...

so yah...i think yesterday was the longest day in my life ever...

0730: Wake-up; get ready for Jaylin's Baptism
0900: Jaylin's Baptism
0945: Picture taking
1000: Run and get balloons for Mika
1015: Meet up with Jay, Teen, n Michelle Yap - rush to CSUN
1100: Mika's P-Grad
1330: Mika's P-Grad ends - that was freaking long!
1400: BJ's for lunch
1345: Leave BJ's - head to my house to wrap Auntie Lerma's birthday gift
1610: Teen n Jay pick me up, we head to Anna's
1945: Leave Anna's
2000: Meet up with Michlle Yap n Grapes
2030: Leave for Hollywood Billiards
0900: party, party, party...damn, i got fucked up!

Today:

0230: Leave Hollywood Billards
0245: Drop Melissa off at home
0300: Paul drops me off at home
0315: Knock the fuck out...
0730: get up again...
0830: get my ass to work...

i'm fucking tired...

gail brainfarted for you @ 9:09 AM