"Those were the days..."

30th January 2006, 1151 P.M.

Now that I'm in the army, I think a lot. I can't stop thinking about how life used to be so carefree and how I can play around with others in school. This is especially so during my kindergarten days. I used to play around with toys and sing along to the songs played through cassette tapes. All of these are done under a quiet and peaceful environment. Its so unlike the army where you have so much expectations to meet and the standard is high too. Although I complain about these things sometimes, I know these are things you can't change. So much for the "take it or leave it" slogan in the army. Sometimes you can feel very lonely too...That's when you see your bunkmates talking to so many friends on the phone. Well... it's not that I do not have friends... it's just...that I don't like to bother them too much. People have their own routine yeah?

Enough about these stuff... makes people feel blue. =(

Well... I guess I should live with it. Nothing in this world is of what you expect. Nothing in this world is made specifically for one person. If it was, this world would not have so much tears and bloodshed.

Its okay. Everybody is going through this same process too. Maybe its a challenge I have to conquer before I truly become an adult. Maybe after this I will learn to be a better person. Maybe. Maybe. *Smiles* I must be strong. If I falter here, then I will let those, who expect something from me, down right? Right. =)

"The Year 2005 is dead."

1st January 2006, 0831 P.M.

It's over for year 2005 and it is year 2006. It's pretty sad to see my hair go on 6 January. I will not be able to relax as much as I want to like now. Well, the fact is I'm lazy. I don't really feel like doing anything besides lazing around. Do I look like I have a choice? (O_o) Omg. Its just really boring in the army. Guns. Marching. Sleeping. Eating. Do these activities look exciting? But then again, I have to go through it to prove my patrotism to my country right? Enough about this. I'll just have to make do with my remaining days. Enjoy fully before I go in to become a man.

I went to the Esplanade yesterday to see the fireworks. Boy. It was ravishing. Simply beautiful. It all ended with hugs and shouts of "happy new year." It was supposed to be happy. For that reason, I found it strange that some people were tearing instead of smiling. Still, I didn't think much about it. While my friends and I walk to the station, we look around somemore at the clubs and pubs. It was really happening. Groups of 'lunatics' spraying party foam everywhere. I nearly got sprayed by someone I don't even know. Guess what? You think young kids are innocent? Omg. You should have seen my friend yesterday. He got sprayed by a little boy all over for no good reason. Okay. Maybe there was a good reason. (O_o) And there I was... ducking here and there to avoid being targeted. Luckily, I escaped unscathed. I wasn't even touched once. Well, there was a close one. REALLY close. Somebody became the victim instead. Well, he blocked the spray for me. Heh heh. Just can't help smiling.

With so little time to spend, I better make the best of my time to slack as much as I can. Heh heh. Well then, Happy new year folks! Shall get going. Haha.