June 30, 2003

I saw The Charlie’s Angels twits on Conan the other night. They were all talking at once and holding hands like 5 year olds. I don’t get the whole deal of them meeting in the press and going on like they are all friends. It comes off so phoney and really, who cares. Cameron Diaz is the most retarded out of the three. She started singing “My Little Pony” into the camera on Conan and all I could think about was what stunted her brain once she got into showbiz. I can’t believe that people are just born that mentally challenged. She had to have been completely made that way by Hollywood. Maybe it’s that whole image thing of making her so guys think she’s obtainable because she’s the dumb hot chick. I don’t know. Whatever it is, it’s annoying as hell. Onto another note, I haven’t been writing in my journal as much because I’ve been busy. I started going to school so if you read my journal. Don’t hate me for wanting to be educated. I know that it’s a goal for most in Hollywood to be dumb and thin but I’ll take my chances.

June 24, 2003

My fortune today after eating Chinese food, edited for how girls really think.

June 23, 2003

June 18, 2003

Have you seen the ads for the show on Comedy Central called I’m with Busey ? I don’t know, is it me or does Gary Busey have a crazy look like he has 20 bodies buried somewhere?

June 17, 2003

I was flipping through the channels last night and saw a few minutes of the show Celebrities Uncensored on E! It’s basically paparazzi taking photos or film of stars out in public. Sounds thrilling right? Cuz, I mean, who can’t get enough of seeing Tommy Lee or Rosie O’Donnell get mad at a camera man. I guess this is my opinion being that I’ve never been followed by a camera man or whatever. But, when I was watching, I couldn’t help think that when these people starting out, they couldn’t buy press and now that they are famous, they want their privacy in a public AIRPORT! Is the price for fame also signing away your privacy? It just made me think. What seemed to work was the celebrities who were just nice and went about their business without trying to punch the camera or smack it out of the way. I also caught another show. (yes, it was a great night of TV numbing for me) I saw a show on Fox called Anything for Love . It’s another wonderful masterpiece from Fox. (insert sarcasm here)Its soo bad. It’s like watching Rikki Lake and those dumb lie detector tests only there’s no Rikki or audience. I don’t even know why I found myself watching it. It’s a total train wreck. They had this woman who wanted to know if her man would cheat so they tested him with hidden cameras in a hotel and brought in this model with cleavage out to there, asking him in the elevator if he wanted to go on a date….little did he know, at the top floor, when the elevator doors open, there was his girlfriend waiting. She was pissed because he gave the model his number. His defense when he saw his girlfriend was “we aren’t married”. Guys are so dumb. At least ones like this guy. Don’t bother having a girlfriend if you want to play the field. A girl is going to be hurt more by being your girlfriend and finding out you cheated then knowing from the beginning you want to see more than one person. I guess it’s the thrill of getting caught. I call it the thrill of being exposed as a time wasting ass! Hmm..did that sound bitter?

June 16, 2003

I was able to catch a small portion of Jason X on Friday night, since it was Friday the 13th. Who better to see on that day then Jason? I didn’t think anything of it until the middle of the night when I had a reminder of my childhood in a nightmare. Jason was after me. I woke up and had to rationalize how Jason is probably not hiding in the shower and that it’s probably ok to go and pee. Even in the bathroom I starred at the shower door rationalizing the dream vs. reality. LOL...What the fuck?! When I was looking for photos for my journal of Jason, I got a chill like I was 5 again. Those Friday the 13th movies and Freddy from Nightmare on Elm St. used to scare the hell out of me when I was little, but I’d always watch them. Although I have to say, Freddy is less threatening since they gave him speaking parts where he made one liner jokes. Each one worse then the other. Jason never spoke a word, he just killed you. So who would win in Jason vs. Freddy ? I say if a doe eyed teenager named Nancy is a threat for Freddy, my bets on Jason.

June 12, 2003

Wanna feel really skilled? Use a typewriter all day. I realized what a retard I am when it comes to typing today. I think I cleared the whiteout within a few hours. I now know I rely heavy on technology and have a new sense of gratitude for the people who invented computers and the backspace button.

June 11, 2003

June 5, 2003

I cant believe this is actually Jerry Lewis. It hardly even looks like him. I saw him on the Conan O'Brien show and if it wasn't for his annoying voice, I would think this was a hoax. Seriously. What the hell happened? I read an article that said he was taking a medicine for pulmonary fibrosis, (an inflammation of the lungs that scars the tissue) He says he put on 50 pounds in the first 4 weeks!!! I've always said that no matter what there is always going to be someone better off than you and someone worse off. damn... Oh yeah, I found this site mobileasses. The real reason mobile phones have cameras. I guess I'm not an ass girl cuz I think whoever took the photos has some really challenged taste.

June 3, 2003

 This was my visit to a specialist after being told by my regular doctor for the last 6 months I have infections. My own boyfriend thinks its all in my head. That always helps. I'm so used to this sort of thing tho. Its my life story. I know something isn't right and say something... everyone looks at me crazy until later when they realize I wasn't crying wolf and the problem is more serious because it wasn't caught early. Whatever tho. I haven't been wrong so far so I know its not all in my head. I have an immune disorder so for the rest of my life I'm prone to being sick more than the average person. What do I get? I get told its all in my head. God, the level of support is just....overwhelming. I think I will just suffer in silence for a while. There really is no point in saying what ails me...now it really will be all in my head...

Onto another note...reality TV is still going strong which has annoyed me since it started. While I was in the waiting room at the doctors office, I read that Supermodel Tyra Banks will be hosting a new reality show called Supermodel. Can you stand it? The excitement of the real lives of wanna be  Supermodels? The heartbreaking stories of how difficult it is to be so beautiful. Life is so rough.