Pin cushion
Sometimes I just want to go into a comma, turn it all off, sounds, lights, and most importantly shut off the mind. Stop internal dialogue that?s always wrong. Kill intuition, stop acting in any form of a rational manner. Just stop the world. Let all things pass me by. My existence brings joy, and yet perpetuates pain.

Am I only needed so I can be Hated?

Eating Pattern
Walls up high, ends life, and kills laughter. Damn the anger, and bless the ignorance. Can we live for ever? Help those needy, and define morality. Stop the bricks.

Pastels at dusk make for the scarlet fade.
A Mask of night, acts for the blind road.
What covers the boy?

Natural Weapons
Time out form false games of oppression, Time off from the weeks of obsession. I relies what I?ve been hating, and now relies all the lies I?ve been making; only the truth keeps me waiting. Waiting for sounds too come back into my vision, waiting to move back into a clearer division, I mark myself now with clear precision, and still wait for a decision. Forgotten lust makes a false demeanor, lack of skill beats at the heart for a firm believer; still I keep the thoughts of a dreamer, and release the mind to the proper receiver. Why must I decide a long term fate, when I can?t decide a decent rate? Because I love her.

certain pain
So many battles I?ve fought for in the past. I always end on top, all ways kept my life. This time. I don?t want to live, I want to die for what I believe for once. Go head strong and balls to walls. I cause I know I can?t live with myself if I fail. ?the though of being with out you hurts me?

Blood Bath of Birth
Man, October had to be the worst month of my life. Things happened so fast, one after another, every thing fell. My financial situation was crashing, as well as my love life. Only when you risk everything do you realize what you got. It going to be a long road back to the top,
Just glad I?m not alone.
I got the most supportive friends I could ever want,
I got caring parents, and respectful elders.
But only the most beautiful woman in the world
has my Heart.


?Still every night I burn
Every night I scream your name
Every night I burn
Every night the dream's the same
Every night I burn
Waiting for my only friend
Every night I burn
Waiting for the world to end?

Jaded
So unsure of myself these days; I?ve been so focused in the past. Now my life?s a Blur, will uncertain direction. So many thing uncertain, so little time to reach a verdict. I know facts of pain and I?m learning the problems of morality. I?m ignoring the hate, knowing it will come later in do time. I?m confronting myself.

May my death come quick,
for all pain I inflict.

Horoscope for Shadow Man
"You can be so clever today that you get in your own way with your wild and crazy ideas. Reality seems to encourage you until you turn up your volume so high that, in order to teach you a lesson, someone pulls your plug. What happened? Be quiet and sit with your own feelings to discover what you should do next."

Point taken

Nothing seems to matter now, any thing I say is held agents me. Belting my self to a pipe, and waiting the storm? Or cut the leather, and ride the wind. See where it lands me.
I am born, I live and I die.
Tell me of how I live.