So much to live.
To night has become one of the most magical days of my life. The cold snow, soft moon light, and the warm lips of my girl friend. Fast becoming more. Tonight will stay with me for the rest of my life. If my last breath left me tonight, I would have a smile on. I?ve never been so happy.

I can?t end the lacking
Endless problems, and lost goodbyes,
I can?t question the action that speaks to me in moments.
Jaded dreams and tear filled eyes,
I just am,
Of nothing of pain.

how blind can I be?

Social action
Down the far line, and out the door aging.
Self-possessing and irrational extension.
Fans fall down.

Too eager to appease
The cure is the disease
And it's only growing worse

Day by day it takes its hold
Divides its cells a thousandfold
And makes your blindness seem perverse

Out of sight and out of mind
Are deadly traits when they're combined
But it's easier that way

Sit and watch the world go by
While all the problems multiply
With nothing left to do but pray

worthless / important
In my thoughts and in my mind,
With me always through the sands of time.
I can see pleasure I can see pain,
Past actions die, and become in vain.
Boy forever?

The only thing I don?t regret, is being with you.

SSDD
How long can I stay mad, how far will anger take me. I can destroy the heavens and crush the moon. No change in mood, no singing to a solemn tune. X for life, and Viagra for pain. Back out the sky, and let it rain. Your voice alive, that gave you the brain. Make the call. Nor summer nor spring nor winter will be my fall.

So little enjoyment in life the last of times. Well paid tip for undemanding service, and a bump in the road. I laugh in the night sky, and howl at the winds that keep bringing my demise. Can the weeks of man end In the battles of separated kin. I think so. Why much all things happen in waves of unwanted times. I only want to be loved. Why dust none embrace?

Pushing away
Should I not set standers? I just continue letting others rise the bar. Ill stand in the back row and play no influence to the show. I can watch the special of life, and make support for the events worth nothing. Speak of no flaws, and turn an eye blind to perfection. Is that the need?

Am I out?
Always testing limits, and breaking rules. Why can I refrain to a life much like the condolence to others. Will I fall through the system once released into society. At this rate, there no doubt about it. My actions speak to only live in the freeloader world. I am wrong. I still do not learn of my mistakes. I feel I only do good to make others think so, when really I hate who I am. If my fate is sealed should I give up?