Jaded
So unsure of myself these days; I?ve been so focused in the past. Now my life?s a Blur, will uncertain direction. So many thing uncertain, so little time to reach a verdict. I know facts of pain and I?m learning the problems of morality. I?m ignoring the hate, knowing it will come later in do time. I?m confronting myself.

May my death come quick,
for all pain I inflict.

Horoscope for Shadow Man
"You can be so clever today that you get in your own way with your wild and crazy ideas. Reality seems to encourage you until you turn up your volume so high that, in order to teach you a lesson, someone pulls your plug. What happened? Be quiet and sit with your own feelings to discover what you should do next."

Point taken

Nothing seems to matter now, any thing I say is held agents me. Belting my self to a pipe, and waiting the storm? Or cut the leather, and ride the wind. See where it lands me.
I am born, I live and I die.
Tell me of how I live.

You pick me up when I am down,
Things are happier when your around,
What would I do without you,
What I say is so true.

Your there for me when I?m in tears,
I know you will be there for many years,
Through good times and bad,
When I?m with you I?m never lonely or sad.

To see you hurt and to see you cry,
Makes me want to crawl up and die,
I love you with all my heart,
I knew this from the very start.

C-blue
Privet clicks and segregated sorrows. Never gaining trust, and only losing respect. I?m shoved and spat at. Forced to accept their feelings of post judgment, how they preordain my placement ill never know. No more. I dance with no strings attached.

We know How to Love
So much anger undirected, so many lies cast without reason. And there we are caught in the middle, slowly dieing. We are strong, and we have faith, but others lack are conviction. I pray this does not come to a stern resolve. So much karma between are tortured souls. Century?s of unresolved conflict, still we fright as we did thin. We fight for love, love that is almost endowed by destiny. We know what we got, we know how real, and unquestionable. We know how devoted, and unforgiving. We know why, and we know the now. We know that its endless, that are love will always exist, and transcend time, and space.

Turing and crashing I sort though the thick and thin. Joining webs of intricate thought, waves of love, washing over my body. I see the starlight beaches and wonder; What is behind these score eyes?
I still can?t Sleep.

It?s the best feeling in the world when people can still surprise you.
Lindsay sent me chocolates in the mail today, it was so unexpected. (I must be getting to skinny or ?small? jk) can wait to go home and hold her.
On other things, life?s been crappy this week. Tests coming up, depressing thoughts, horrible projects assigned. I cant wait to get home, give her a kiss and fade away.

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
[Unless I try to start again]

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That i'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

-Linkin Park-