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I decided that going to Sarah was not going to work for me. Though she believed that hatching everything out was good for me I did not. Every time I left her office I felt as if I had relived my life with Ziu. I felt exhausted and drained at the end of our session. I started to look for a support group on line. I found one called Delta Life for the Other Woman. That's where I meet Luna. Luna was getting a divorce and her lover was also getting a divorce. I envied her. She pitied me. Luna had a very unique gift. She could take a picture, look at a picture and read the energy coming from that picture. She was doing for fun for some of the girls on the forum. I asked her to read Z-u's picture, but I didn't want the information posted on the forum. She agreed. I submitted his picture. She said she couldn't get a good read and to send a more recent picture. Well, I had planned to see Ziu that afternoon. I knew that he would not let me take a picture of him so I had a friend of mine meet me at the gym. She took several pictures of him and then came back to the car. I met him and she took off to do some errands in my car. I submitted the picture to Luna and the first thing she said was, "He is cheating on you. There is a yellowish green aura about him. In the second picture he is looking back and there is a hue of black around him. He is keeping a secret from you. Please Dawn, get out of that relationship. He will hurt you." "No. No he is not cheating on me.. How can you read that?" "Dawn, I'm just reading the picture. I don't know him and I barely know you, please don't get mad at me for the reading. Let me help you." (it frightened me to have gone down the path of the occult. Had I drifted so far from God that I would use a witch to read his picture?.. the devil never sleeps) "We were on an errand and one of his young black belts called him. He was giving her directions to a class. When he getting ready to hang up he said, "Bye Babe." I felt a shock wave go through my body. I had heard from another black belt that he had been with this girl at a karate camp. The rumor was that they left the grounds together around 2:30 or 3AM. I think if he is cheating on me it's with her. I will let him know that we are through. I won't be cheated on." "Please be careful and don't let anyone know what I have told you. okay?" "Okay. I won't" That evening I called him and I told him that I had heard a rumor that he was messing with this young thing. He protested and even became indignant. "People are always talking about me, Babe, that's my life. I am in the public eye and people are going to talk. Who told you this crap anyway? " "You know, Mr. Old lady. We are through Nix. I'm not going to let you cheat on me." "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the hurt that this has caused you, but it's not true. It hurts me that you don't believe me. I love you very much and always will." "We are over." (I knew in my bones that he was cheating on me.. it wasn't the reading of the picture it was him. It was the way he was changing. Or maybe I was just getting wiser to him. ) "No, I don't want us to be over. I want you to trust me, damn it. I want you to believe in me. You know last year there was a rumor about me being the father of Stephy's baby." "You never told me that." "It was a rumor. I ignored it. Can we work this out? What do you want from me?" "I want you to stay away from her. I don't know. I'll call you tomorrow." "Okay. I love you, Babe. I do. "
He was so convincing. The hurt in his voice was so genuine that I
believed him. When I got home from work I called up Luna. "No, what's up? Did you break up with him?" "Kind of not, but I love him so much. I'm going to give him another chance." "It's your life. Send me a picture in a few months and I'll read it again. You can't be too careful. If you get a chance you may want to look at his cell phone, just to see who he's been calling." "WHAT! I am NOT going to do that, Luna, that's being too sneaky, but that's not all. He use to leave his phone in the truck when we would run errands together. I would tell him when his phone rang. Lately he's been taking his phone with him. He thinks I haven't noticed how he is over protective of his damn phone. "Hey, honey I would do, just to have a peace of mind. I know Lee's password and I listen to his messages all the time. Tell you what I'm going to do. I'm going to put a tiny thought in Nix mind and he will tell you his pass word. When he does, then you can listen to his messages.. You need to know the truth about him, Dawn." "Geez, Luna, are you nuts or what? A spell? Come on that crap does NOT work." "It does if you believe it. Repeat after me, Ziu will reveal his cell phone password to me. SAY it." "Alright, "Ziu will reveal his cell phone password to me." "Okay, feel better?" She gave a little giggle and I felt that she was pulling my leg. "Yeah, sure.. Okay well, I've taken up too much of your time.. I'm out of here.. "
Nix picked me up for lunch and we went to the baseball park. I loved going there, it was so quiet and deserted.
"I tried to call you this morning and your phone just kept ringing. It
didn't even go to voice mail." I stared off into space pretended that I did not hear him say that. FUCK.. he just gave me his password. NO.. I am not going to use it.. I am not going to use it. No, if he trust me with his password that means he is also expecting me to trust him. We ate at the park had a cozy lunch and we reclined our seats and took a nap as I laid on his chest. I couldn't wait to tell Luna.
I called Luna immediately on return home. "Luan, he gave me his password,
but I think he must trust me very much to give me his password. I can't
use it. Luna."
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