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I've had some criticism because this site is 'hard on the eyes', and some strong suggestions that I get onto blogger, or someplace else, just like everyone else. However, I'm an artist (not a great one, but I do have a strong visual sense) and I agree with Tom Tomorrow that far too many blogs look much, much too alike. As a unique individual, I've decided I'd like my blog to reflect that uniqueness, and look a bit different from the herd. If that keeps you from reading my work, well, I regret that, but you're the person who makes that decision.

Now stop reading this junk and start reading my damn blog entry for today, already. Geez. You people.

Sunday, May 4 2003

SSDD

Might as well blog something. It’s been a while.

I’ve discovered that when you mix Pepsi with Vanilla Coke, the result is marginally better than either alone. I like Pepsi and Vanilla Coke a lot, so that’s a good discovery, if not one that’s going to make me any money.

Cold pizza is never preferable to warm pizza, unless you’re hungry right this second and too lazy to bother putting a couple of slices in the oven. Then cold pizza will do.

I was thinking a bit earlier today of Dean Esmay’s recent email, advising me in no uncertain terms that the key to success with chicks is confidence. I was out by the pool, and there were actually quite a few good looking chicks in bikinis out there. One was Beth, the married Born Again who lives two floors up from me and who gave me the chocolate at Easter… not because I’m really nice or anything, but just because Beth is one of those truly admirable and very unsettling people who just adores everyone unconditionally. She’s completely nuts, very nice, and I can only take her in small doses, because, you know, she’s completely non-judgmental and I am so totally not. Also, she has absolutely no sense of humor; other than altruism and deep, spiritual love for all mankind, Beth’s most predominant characteristic is that she takes being earnest to well beyond Olympic levels of excellence. And that often doesn’t mix well with my generally dry and ironic sense of humor. But still, she looks pretty good in a bikini.

Another was one of Beth’s friends, whose name I can’t remember right now. She’s pretty, is dating Beth’s brother in law, has two small really adorable kids, and over a few minutes of casual conversation, I don’t get the impression she and I have anything in common beyond both of us being roughly humanoid carbon based life forms. But she was fun to look at in a bikini, too.

Then there was the other woman, who made me think about Dean’s note, because this particular girl, who looked very good in her red and black bikini, was surrounded at all times by no less than three really good looking, in shape, trim, regular featured, vaguely Spanish looking guys, whose attention was focused at all times with laserlike intensity on their objet de’amour.

I was just bemused, trying to think what kind of ‘confident’ demeanor or approach would possibly work in this sort of situation. Even my well developed imagination’s wildest flights of fantasy yielded no viable tactic, strategy, or campaign. Short of deploying orbital mind control lasers, what could I possibly do to successfully compete in such a situation? Would confidently whipping out a large pistol and shooting my three rivals in the head work? No, I imagine she’d just start screaming. (Looking at me wide eyed and saying “Now you’re the kinda guy for me” would, in such a situation, be a rather scary response in its own right.) And short of actual violence, how in the name of God was I supposed to ‘confidently’ even get this girl’s attention, much less convince her that she would be happier spending time with, you know, the fat middle aged geek in the glasses reading the Chelsea Quinn Yarbro book, than with the three 20something studs who were already hanging on her every gesture, syllable, and facial tic?

Well, this isn’t the kind of situation Dean was talking about, obviously.

Still, I was bemused as I considered it, and momentary bemusement has to be worth something. Thanks, Dean.

Anyway, other than that, it’s SSDD… same shit, different day. No job yet. No Unemployment check has showed up yet, either. Money continues to dwindle, and I need to go over to the store and pick up some more groceries, too. I did find a perfectly functional, if slightly bent, lamp in the dumpster, and have it out on my patio now… it’s one of those that takes three light bulbs, and you can turn on one, two, or three bulbs at the same time, so it gives a nice and variable amount of light out there. I also moved my 12 year old cheap stereo out onto the patio. The CD unit in it no longer works, but the radio does, as does one of the two cassette tape players. I dug out all my old cassette tapes and put them out there, too, so now I can sit out there and read and listen to tapes I bought over the course of the 1980s and early 90s. Just, you know, to make sure everyone in the neighborhood knows I'm Really Really Old.

I keep vaguely meaning to do an entry on Buffy and Angel, but, well, they keep sucking, and it’s tiresome noting that about stuff I really want to love. You know, Joss, if you're not going to bother actually working on this stuff any more, you could hire me to do it. I still love the shows and the characters. There's nothing I'd rather be doing than making this stuff good again. And you could go create more innovative, quality programming like Firefly.

I have this fantasy about somehow gaining control of all communications satellites and being able to assume absolute power over TV and radio broadcasts. I have a long list of stuff I’d change… cutting back on the time allowed for commercials, eliminating screen clutter, moving all non-football sporting events to special all sports cable stations, creating another football league to play in spring and summer (football season is too goddam short), eliminating really annoying commercials (Carrot Top, you’ll never work on this planet again)… you know, the usual stuff.

Right at the top of that list, though, is simply eliminating all reality TV.

I mean, think about it. You may well like at least some reality TV (apparently, a lot of people do), but seriously… one can argue for the quality or the various values of many different programs I despise, and that’s why I would, probably, for the most part, leave stuff I really despised on TV, because, hey, even if it sucks, I don’t have to watch it, and anyway, I can see that it really is just a question of taste… I may not like 7th Heaven or Crossing Jordan or Third Watch or Ed, but a lot of people do, and there’s nothing wrong with that.

But just point at any reality show on the air and try to tell me it isn’t egregiously demeaning to the entire human condition. Try to tell me that simply the existence of The Bachelor or Mr. Personality or Fear Factor or Survivor or the latest Michael Jackson special does not degrade us as a race, a global society, a culture, and a people. Survivor is about the most dignified of the lot, and it’s basically a show in which people are encouraged to befriend others to their face and then stab them in the back for a million bucks.

And, apparently, many of you people have an endless slavering voracity for this swill, and it’s deforming television in really terrifying ways. (And yes, I said ‘many of you people’. I have done my reality show watching. I watched the first Bachelor with the same horror you’d feel driving slowly by a car wreck. I watched the recent Survivor that featured a schoolteacher from Tampa, chagrined and ashamed at the public humiliation heaped on everyone there. I’ve watched Fear Factor, once, and in addition to getting to see a lot of my fellow human beings degraded on TV, I also get to feel rather rejected, because I just know that they’d never let me on that show, I’m nowhere near buff enough… and hey, I can eat cockroaches if I have to.)

So… reality television would go, first thing, if I became the King of TV Land. It’s got to. It’s a plague, and it’s only getting worse.

If I controlled all satellite transmissions, I suppose I’d also control radio, so all the conservative hate mongers would be off the air, too. And I guess I’d control email transmissions, too, so anyone who spammed anyone else would find their hard drive burned out a few minutes later. But reality TV would go first.


EVERYTHING YOU NEVER WANTED TO KNOW ABOUT CYBERSEX


This blog item was originally posted in slightly altered form on Major Attitude Adjustment’s Webblog on December 19 2002. As MAAW was a ‘private’ weblog, with a very very small audience comprised entirely of people I personally gave the URL to, the stuff I wrote there tended to be a great deal more honest and raw and rather less socialized than the stuff one… or at least me… would normally publish on a ‘public’ blog with links on other people’s blogrolls that anyone could happen to wander by and read. So there’s probably stuff in here that will offend and annoy nearly anyone reading it. I don’t seem to be winning any popularity contests in the virtual world or the real one, so I’m not really much concerned, but, well, be advised.


Are there any women in the world who actually enjoy cybersex?

It's a rhetorical question. (Ignore the bitter, pleading tone, that’s rhetorical, too.) I have, in fact, had cybersex with several online partners I know for a fact were actually women, because I'd met them in real life. (Many of them didn't know they were having cybersex with someone they actually worked with or otherwise interacted with in their normal, day to day life, but what can I tell you... they should be more careful who they let know their AOL screennames. Nuff said about that.) And I've also spoken to some of my cyber-partners on the phone, and they certainly sounded like women, and I've even met a few of them in real life, after making their acquaintance online, and established to my absolute satisfaction that yes, indeed, they were women.

So, yes, I know, there are actually real women out there who have cybersex, so, yes, I know, I'm being overly dramatic when I ask, in some despair, are there any actual women out there who enjoy cybersex?

Nonetheless, this is why I'm asking, and I present this sad account, which makes me look exactly like what I am (an idiot, at least, as regards matters of the heart and the gonads), as an educational experience for my viewing audience at home, in the hopes that, as Karl Malden used to intone in those American Express commercials, you won't let this happen to you:

Last week I went out looking to see if someone I know had an MSN profile. I couldn't find one on this particular person (the reason I went looking is that I stumbled across a Yahoo profile of this person that told me a few interesting things I hadn't known before, and I'd tell you what they are, but while I'll bare my soul and my ass comprehensively on this page regarding things that only concern me, I try to be judicious in what I reveal about other people, especially other people who have threatened to call the police on me if I annoy them overly). However, I did find that MSN has a whole personal/profiles section set up for people who want to hook up with other people, and unlike Yahoo's similar set up, at MSN you can email these people for free, assuming you register a working email address with the system. I have a lot of working email addresses (12 or 17, at last count, depending on whether my ephemeral AOL screennames, which flicker in and out of existence like mayflies, should actually be counted), so I promptly registered one, and started sending emails out to likely looking profiles for single chicks in the local area, hoping to make a connection.

(It is a sad truth about me, that I wish I could deny, and yet, in fact, I neither may nor can... when I'm single, which is far, far too often, I'm always looking to hook up. Yeah, I want to be the autonomous, clear eyed, noble loner, the renegade, the maverick, that strong, silent Gary Cooper type, standing proud and solitary outside the herd, resolute, uncompromising, answering to nothing and no one but the dictates of my own soul. However, that guy is a fantasy; here in The World, I want someone to cuddle and buy presents for and go to movies with and occasionally get sex off of a whole lot more.)

So, anyway, I sent out a bunch of emails and heard back from one or two likely sounding lassies and we began to correspond by email, and one of them told me she had an AOL Instant Messenger account, and I currently have AIM on my computer as well (it's free), so last night we hooked up for a pretty hot cybersex session.

Here's the thing, though. When you send an email out to an MSN ad, you do so through a blank form that does not show you the email address you're actually addressing. There's a warning on the form that the receiver will be able to see YOUR email address, but what the hell, I was looking to hook up anyway, so that wasn't a biggie.

However, when I got my first response from 'Courtney', it was a bit troublesome, as the name in the return address slot (that damned snoopy thing I always disable on all my email accounts; if I want someone to know who I am, I'll tell them) was not 'Courtney', it was 'Cal'. This troubled me. Also, the email address my response emanated from was 'war_hawk111' (at some email server, yes, but I'll spare this person your email abuse, while thanking you for the thought). Neither 'Cal' nor 'war_hawk' are e-identifiers that I find comfortingly redolent with cute young femininity (the age given on the MSN profile I responded to in order to contact 'Ashley' was 18, and yes, I'm a letch, but if you want a quality chick nowadays before she gets snatched up by some other poacher, impregnated three or four times, and dumped back on the singles market as a bitter 20- or 30-something divorcee with kids, well, a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do), so in my initial response to 'Courtney's' initial response, I inquired as to, you know, what the hell was up.

Now, here's where we get into the Territory of Mistakes when Cyber Dating... Ignoring Warning Signs. (Actually, I suppose Ignoring Warning Signs could very well be the summation of the whole 'love/romance' thing, but let's not be quite that cynical, at least, right at this moment.)

The fact that I'd gotten an email back from a putative gurl, with a guy's name in the return address slot, and from an email address not lacking in testosterone... well, that was a BIG Warning Sign. There are a LOT of lonely guys out there so desperate for attention they'll pose as women online just to get a little. And trust me, it works... I have conducted experiments myself along these lines back when I was dating Kristy, noting how long it would take me, when online, to get an unsolicited IM, even when in a suggestive sounding adult chat room, as opposed to how long it would take 'KristiKatt', with her female profile, to get an IM. If you've never paid attention to such things, I commend the study to you. It's truly illuminating. Not only will a female screenname get unsolicited IMs much more quickly than a male screenname will, but it will get far more... in fact, if a female screenname signs into an adult chatroom, it will be deluged with unsolicited IMs within seconds.

Anyway, had I been ignorant of the Cyber Crossdressing Phenomena, I might have an excuse for blowing off such a danger signal. As I am very aware of this practice though, well... I'm just an imbecile. I wanted to believe that 'Courtney' was real, so instead of immediately severing contact (and being grateful that 'Cal' was such a bumbling idiot that he hadn't taken the rudimentary precaution of buttressing his impersonation with a female sounding email addie and a female name in the identifier slot, which is easy to do, and makes it far harder to detect gender impersonation), well, I asked about it, giving 'Courtney' a chance to hastily come up with some lame excuse.

Now, as I tend to ramble, let me digress a moment here and say that while, yes, I was indeed an imbecile, still, when one goes into the whole matchmaking scene, one has to accept a certain basic level of imbecility... which is to say, any time you see a picture of a good looking woman who is, supposedly, looking to hook up... well, in our culture, that's a definite flashing red light. Now, there may not be a male impersonator lurking behind that cute image (or, on the other hand, there may very well be), but let's face it, if the image is attractive and feminine, and yet, it's on a profile purporting to be lookin' for love, then there is a variable in this equation that does not compute. Which is to say, quite frankly, no matter what we lonely single shy guys who are terrified of face to face rejection may otherwise want to believe, a female hottie in our culture generally does not need to take out a personal ad to get lucky. So, if you're looking at a picture of a babe, and the text in any way indicates she might want to meet some random stranger she doesn't even know for some sort of intimate relationship... aWHOOgah, aWHOOgah... the alert claxons should, at this point, be going off.

In said situation, with said warning sirens ululating all over the place, what do we lonely single shy terrified guys do?

We ignore it, of course. Yes, it's a big red flag... good looking women don't need personal ads unless (a) they're not really good looking women, or (b) there is something else grievously wrong with this picture, like they're HIV positive, have herpes, or (far more common than either of those, but both are out there) they have kids.

And while many of us lonely, single, shy, terrified guys may be aware of this, nonetheless, we ignore it, because what's the alternative? Emailing some homely chick? Yeah, that’ll happen REAL soon.

Now, I'm well aware the other alternative is to actually go up to an attractive woman in actual real life... one we know well enough to have already determined that she does not have a nasty social disease, or kids, and ask her out, face to face. At which point, she will either politely turn us down and then go laugh hilariously about it with her girlfriends when we're not around, or immediately turn to her girlfriend at the next desk and laugh hilariously about it while we're standing there. Let me stop and think a moment as to whether or not this is a desirable course of action... uh... NO. Nuh uh. Noooooo THENK yew. And why any of us geeks thinks a good looking woman will go out with us if we hit on her cybernetically, when we know damned well she'd rather be beaten unconscious with a rock and thrown into a crocodile breeding pen than date us in real life, I couldn't tell you. Hope springs eternal, I guess.

All right, actually, I can tell you why. It's because we shy, lonely, terrified geeks cherish a delusional fantasy... that somewhere out there, there's a beautiful, desirable, smart, funny, sweet woman, just like Sandra Bullock in all those stupid Hollywood romances, who is sick and tired of good looking studly assholes hitting on her and cheating on her and lying to her all the time, and who, for some reason, can't find a genuinely nice guy, and SHE's the one whose personal ad we are answering. That this is pathetic and insane is something I suspect we are all aware of; attractive women have no difficulty meeting nice guys in real life, we're the ones who hold doors open for them and change their tires in the rain and move their computer monitors from one desk to the other and carry big boxes full of stuff out to their cars for them. However, they do not FUCK us; instead, they airily say 'thank you so much, you're the best!' and then they drive home and hop on the dick of their studly, flat bellied boyfriend, who most likely just got done putting the wood to their younger sister or closest friend five minutes before they pulled into the driveway. As Merlin likes to note with a sigh in Excalibur, "it's the way of things". But we tend to ignore that when we're responding to personal ads, otherwise, we'd just stick our heads in our ovens and be done with it.

All of which is to say, when you're out there trying to hook up online, you're pretty much going to be Ignoring Warning Signs anyway, once you've gotten past the initial 'she sent me a pic of herself and she's a babe and yet, here she is online wasting time with me instead of being in a hammock somewhere with some squash playing Jag owner' stage.

Which brings us back around to me and 'Cal' and 'Courtney', in that, in 'Courtney's next email to me, she explained that she shared an email account with her brother, and, you know, that was why the account seemed to have rather a male sounding name on it (war_hawk) and the identifier had a male name in it (Cal). And, thereafter, every email I got had the name 'Courtney' in the identifier slot, so, you know, that was taken care of, and we could get back to the important stuff, like the sexually explicit emails, the cybersex, and the maneuvering for a movie date sometime this upcoming weekend.

Okay, obviously, 'Courtney's thoroughly lame explanation dealt with nothing and should have satisfied no one. She shares an email address with her brother? Oh, please. In an era where anyone with a 1975 era modem can try AOL for free for 25.6 billion hours and every AOL account can have up to 147 separate screennames, where 90 seconds filling out a form that no one ever fact checks can get you a free email account on Yahoo, Hotmail, Juno, Net Zero, Justice.com, or any of a host of other free net service providers, this is simply ridiculous. Furthermore, what 18 year old girl is going to use an email account she shares with her brother to exchange sexually explicit email with anyone, much less a 41 year old guy? What, she just trusts her brother not to read email that isn't addressed to him? Riiiiiiiight.

I knew all this. But look. This was a nominally cute female paying attention to me, and somewhere, wrapped up in all this (bear in mind, I only responded to local profiles) was the vague possibility that I might actually get to take this nominally cute female on a date at some point. (Yeah, yeah. There was never even a vague possibility of this, and I'm flatly a dimwit for ever remotelybelieving otherwise. All I can say is, that's a very big boat and there are a lot of us in it. So shut up.)

So I just soldiered on, noting these discrepancies, but not, at that point, willing to point a finger and shout "j'accuse, mon petite frommage!", or whatever it is that President Bartlett said to his wife Abby in that episode of WEST WING where he found out she'd only insisted on going to Camp David for Thanksgiving because the President's campaign manager had polling data showing that a majority of voters favored the idea.

(Isn't it charming and endearing the way I throw in these pop culture references all the time, studding them through whatever I write like little sparkling diamonds of wit and topicality? No? It makes me look like a pathetic dweeb with no damn life at all? Well, fuck you, then. Go read Uppity-Negro.com; that's where all the cool kids hang out, and you'll fit right in there, you snide, snarky, judgmental buttnugget.)

As I say, I noted these discrepancies, but, hoping that by some bizarre contortion of sanity and logic perhaps 'Courtney' actually did share an email account with her brother, who wouldn't read any of his 18 year old sister's email, or if he did, wouldn't mess with her about it, and who obviously didn't mind the fact that his sister had just changed the name in the identifier slot on their shared email account to hers instead of his, which would pretty much have to confuse the fuck out of any of his correspondents, I just trudged onward. I did, however, keep them in the back of my mind, and so it was that I asked 'Courtney' to send me another photo of herself, besides the adorable one that had been on her MSN profile.

Now, mind you, had Courtney been able to do so, it would prove nothing. I have folders full of photos of the same girl(s) that I have downloaded from various sites online. Many of these photos show the same girl in varying different outfits, in varying different places at varying different times, and in varying different stages of undress. If I wanted to pose as a chickie poo, any of these folders would offer me a vast range of 'corroborative' non-evidence as to my authenticity, and, well, I'm not a chickie poo, and in fact, have never met any of the girls in any of those photos.

However, if someone, when asked for an additional pic besides the one on their profile, absolutely cannot cough one up... well... it's another flashing red light.

And, let's face it, 'Courtney' to date had not shown a lot of acumen for a cyber-crossdresser. Using an account called 'war-hawk' is a real dunderhead move for such, as is forgetting to change the name in the identifier slot. Clearly, we weren't dealing with an experienced or shrewd feminine impersonator, if, in fact, that was the case. So, it came as no real surprise to me when 'Courtney' regretfully informed me that 'she' didn't have any more pictures of herself scanned. Uh huh. Riiiiiight.

So, I said disingenously, send me the photo of yourself you put on your profile. I thought I saved it, but now I can't find it. And I'd like to look at it while I read your email.

Ah, well, 'Courtney' replied, she... she'd send me that pic later, she had to find it, it was on a disc somewhere. Uh huh.

All danger signals, flashing in bright red lights, with sirens and claxons shrieking in the background. Was it enough for me? No sir, it was not.

However, after a long conversation with 'Courtney' online, which got pretty embarrassingly (in retrospect) steamy... I realized something.

See, 'Courtney' had given me her AOL Instant Messenger handle, 'matricalculator' (she was a math major at a local university, supposedly) and asked me to IM her next time I was online. Since AOL Instant Messenger is a free program, I fairly easily installed it, set up my own handle, and did so, and we had the forementioned steamy conversation, which I enjoyed a great deal. And then 'she' signed off.

And, lying in the afterglow, I only want to learn what she knows... er, sorry, that's a Spandau Ballet song... anyway, staring at my computer screen, eyes not really focusing... I notice...

In my Buddy List window, it's spelled 'matriCALculator'.

'Cal', get it? Name of the hypothetic brother 'Courtney' shares her email accout with.

Cal is, apparently, also someone 'Courtney' shares her AIM account with (and, by the way, 'war_hawk' was NOT an AOL account).

So this means that brother and sister not only share an email account on one particular server, but they also share an IM account on an entirely different server...

And it all came tumbling down.

Oh, I know. It's not like there weren't danger signals galore. 'Cal', if such is his name, was an astonishingly maladroit female impersonator. The good ones leave you hanging, never quite knowing for certain whether you simply did something to offend them so deeply they never want to talk to you again, or if it was just that they took the fantasy as far as they could, and since you started to get insistent on actually meeting them, they finally had to cybernetically disappear (which is as simple as noting you on their Privacy Features, so you may not Buddy List them or Instant Message them any more; to all intents and purposes, they simply vanish... at least, until you look for them from another screen name... which can be illuminating, if somewhat irksome). And, honestly, if you just pay attention to detail, becoming a persuasive and authentic seeming cyber-chick isn't all that hard... you set up a suitably feminine sounding screenname or email addy. If it's possible to fill out a profile, you do so, further fleshing out your female persona. Nowadays a lot of the commercial web providers give an automatic link in your profile to a free personal web page, so go ahead and set that up, too, for your fictional female... garnish it with a few casual, everyday photos, type in a few paragraphs of suitable text (if your female persona isn't supposed to be that bright, be sure to misspell a few words and use poor sentence construction), etc. Do a little research on the basic questions some of us more savvy cyber-letches may ask to trip up the novice cyber-crossdresser (pantyhose size, how you put your bra on), and make sure you can remember your own lies with reasonable consistency and that you always have a convenient, plausible excuse readily to hand as to why you can't do phone sex (guys will always ask) or meet someone immediately (we'll ask that, too)... and you're in. You're guaranteed to garner a lot of attention from horny, lonely males like me, if you want to milk it that way you can get a lot of free porn, and if you're especially sadistic, you can break a few hearts and maybe even make some poor geek commit suicide. It's fun for all ages! If, alas, not for all genders.

On the other side of the coin, spotting the competent, reasonably experienced fake female is much, much more difficult, and of course, as instanced above, our worst enemy and their greatest ally is our own willing gullibility. Like Fox Mulder, we want to believe, and as a general rule, we'll overlook quite a few really stupid gaffes before the light finally dawns. If a cyber-fake is careful not to make such gaffes, we often have little choice except to be played through once more to the same inevitable end we've been played to before, so many times... suddenly, our favorite online girlfriend is never online when we are any more (which means we've now been Privacy Blocked and 'she' won't show up on our Buddy Lists), our emails get deleted unread (always a bad sign, but one that, if we ever do re-establish contact, 'she' can claim was a 'mistake' until 'she' manages to blow us off again), or, every once in a while, if we just got shilled by someone who has a vestigial conscience, 'she' may send us a token blow off email, usually one in which 'she' tells us that the always promised visit has to be postponed, generally because of some horrific event impacting on her health meant to elicit our sympathy (and, if we insist on staying in touch, set us up for a further horrific development that will keep 'her' from ever being able to visit us, due to godawful complications, etc.).

There is, alas, only one way to determine if the person you're talking to is 'real' or not... meet them. This is pretty much the acid test, and conversely, if your cyber-girlfriend just keeps finding reasons why the two of you can't meet, no matter how much she really wants to, well, that's a pretty good indicator the other way.

There are other indicators short of this one, though. As I say, when we're all revved up and in hot pursuit, we tend to ignore them, but I'll point them out here anyway, in hopes of maybe doing someone out there who is already entangled with one of these cyber-incubi a good turn.

***Avoid really sexy profiles. As a general rule, women do not write the kind of profiles that turn men on; if you're reading a profile of a so-called female that is really a stiffener all by itself, it's some guy, using that profile to live out his particular fantasy online, hoping to bait you into being his partner. Bear in mind, women feel differently about sex than we do, and they have different sexual fantasies than we do, so if a 'female' profile sounds like something out of one of your wet dreams, well, it's actually something out of some other guy's wet dreams.

***On the above subject, general giveaways in profiles are:

*********Measurements - numbers are a left brain thing. Women tend not to be naturally numerical, and they especially tend not to objectify themselves with math. (Women do understand what guys like, quite often, and many of them will objectify themselves to entice us, but their minds work differently from ours, and they don't do it with a string of numbers.) The measurements 36-28-34 don't convey any real erotic meaning to a woman. As a general rule (one I've never seen an exception to yet, actually) if a profile has measurements in it, a guy wrote it.

*********This one is obvious, but I'll mention it anyway... if 'she' says she's bi, and adds 'no guys, I already have one' or some such, it's a guy, looking to do lesbian fantasy with other chicks. If a profile follows this up with 'women ALWAYS welcome'... again, it's a guy. Good looking women aren't that desperate. And if a profile says anything about 'send to receive, I always return' or 'don't ask for a pic unless you've sent me yours' or 'turn me on with a pic or two of what you'd like to do with me'... this is definitely a guy, looking to get free porn. Women, as a general rule, being more into behavior and competence and context than men are, don't fixate on visuals the way we do. (There are very few women who enjoy visual porn as much as men do; most women who like porn like text.) And, as a natural codicil to this, don't bother trying to pick up that really sexy female profile you see in a porn trading room; she’s a guy. Women tend not to trade for porn; they generally don't like it or need it, since women, in our culture, can as a rule get laid whenever they want (assuming they're at all cute, and you're not online to hook up with a woofer, right?)

***Leaving aside giveaways in profiles, if 'she' sends you a nude pic first thing... be suspicious. The vast majority of women won't. Immediately ask if 'she' has something G rated you can see. It should go absolutely without saying that if 'she' has nude pics of 'herself' but can't provide you with something of her in a t-shirt and jeans, 'she' is a guy who downloaded those pics out of some MSN adult community.

****As a general rule, of course one should always be suspicious of those who send pics of really attractive women, who are, nonetheless, online at that moment and willing to have cybersex with you. There should always be a little bit of a 'what the hell' floating in the back of your head in that situation, especially if it's Friday or Saturday night... after all, if she's that hot, she should be out at a singles bar somewhere, or in the back seat of some studly lawyer’s Jag. For myself, I've learned to relax; it's quite possible that most or all of the partners I've had cybersex with in the last few years were guys. As long as they aren't local and there is no chance of an actual meeting, I don't care. If they do profess to be local, though, then I want to meet them, and that's when I tend to swing into my full analytical mode... although, as we see above, I can still be faked out for quite a while, even by a wretchedly bad TS, if I really want to think it's for real.

***Another danger sign is the photo that looks a little too well taken. If it looks like professional work, and it's not a yearbook pic or an obvious glamour shot, be wary; this was probably scanned from a magazine or simply pulled off a magazine’s website. As a general rule, if she looks like a model, she probably is, especially if this ‘snapshot’ looks like it was taken by a professional photographer with a thousand dollar camera.

If you start to suspect your cyber-hottie is actually some dorky guy, there are a few tactics you can use to confirm or deny. Beware, though... if you pull any of this shit on a real girl, you'll often offend her to the point where she won't talk to you any more. Women, as a general rule, are really startlingly non-empathic and self centered about sex, especially online, where they can’t actually see you and are therefore less inclined to be ‘socially inhibited than otherwise. They do not care much, if at all, about your male POV, or how many times you've been suckered by male fakers before... the way they look at it, you should just know they're real.

(This is a variation on the old standby that, no matter how baffling her behavior is, you cannot simply ask what the hell she wants you to do. Try that once on a girl and she will never go out with you again, trust me. Women want men to take risks, and what they REALLY want is a guy who can read their mind and do exactly the right thing without hints or prompting... and since none of us are telepathic, this means we often do the wrong thing, and then, she never wants to see us again. Yet they regard it as cheating and disrespectful and just plain wrong to simply ask them, "do you mind if I kiss you?" or "would it be okay if I held your hand now?" Women want us to risk rejection; it reassures them that they're desirable, even if they'd rather swallow a live cobra than let us paw or smooch on them.)

So, if you just have to know if 'she's real or not, here's a few things you can try... but do so at your own risk:

*** Ask 'her' what size pantyhose 'she' wears. Very few men pay any attention to such things, but if you check the rack at your local Walgreen's, you'll find that pantyhose sizes do not come in numbers. What they come in I will leave as a simple exercise for the student. (I could tell you, but bastard scum cyber-fakes may be reading this, and most of them are too lazy to go do the research themselves. You, on the other hand, not wanting to be gulled by any more of these cretins ever again, will doubtless get right out there and look.)

****If 'she's been sending you photos of her, ask if she has a scanner. If she admits to having one, ask if she'll scan her driver's license for you... blocking out all her specific address info and even her last name, if she likes; you just want to see the I.D.

This is as close to sure-fire a way to weed out the he-ladies as you're going to find. There's only one problem with this, and that's that it never, ever works. Real women will be mortally offended, and fakes will pretend to be. Furthermore, your sophisticated boy-girl has exquisitely refined instincts; the instant you ask about a scanner, they will go into full denial mode... NO, they don't have a scanner, NO, they don't have a digital camera, NO, they don't have a web cam, of course not! (The experienced cyber-TS understands that he MUST NOT ADMIT to having access to this kind of technology; if he does, your next step is to ask him for something he simply won't be able to supply, and then the ball game is over... so as a general rule, fake cyber-chicks never have easy access to scanners, digital cameras, or web cams. NEVER. Even if they've just sent you 22 different pics of them obviously taken with one or the other, it doesn't matter, their ex boyfriend scanned those for them, or their scanner just broke, or they just moved to a new apartment and don't know quite where the digital camera is, or their girlfriend took those pics, SHE has the digital camera...)

On this subject, I will note here and now that I have never, in ten years of cybering and trying to hook up online (and occasionally succeeding) encountered, even once, a partner who actually had a digital camera or a scanner and who was willing to, on the spot, present me with actual proof of such (like, taking a picture of herself holding up three fingers on one hand, or something like that). NEVER.

And, while I have managed to actually hook up, I think, three times with women I met online, none of them have ever been all that physically attractive. Once again: in our culture (and in most human cultures) physically attractive women do not need to get with strange guys in an environment where they cannot actually see or be seen by said strange guys. If 'she' tells you she's a babe, and yet, she's on AOL or Yahoo or MSN looking to hook up with some random male she's never met and knows nothing about... ::bzzzzzzt:: there's something wrong with this picture.

However, if you're a geek, like me, you will continue to ignore that, and hey, as long as you're just looking for a jerk off partner online with no real world consequences, go for it. When you get that urge to move things into three dimensions, though... tread warily. Here There Be Woofers. And Very Fat Chicks. And a whole boatload of guys who look a whole lot like you.


THE INEVITABLE DISCLAIMER

By generally accepted social standards, I’m not a likable guy. I’m not saying that to get cheap reassurances. It’s simply the truth. I regard many social conventions in radically different ways than most people do, I have many many controversial opinions, and I tend to state them pretty forthrightly. This is not a formula for popularity in any social continuum I've ever experienced.

In my prior blogs, I took the fairly standard attitude: if you don’t like my opinions or my blog, don’t read the fucking thing.

Having given that some more thought, though, I’m not going to say that this time around, because I’ve realized that what this is basically saying is, ‘if you don’t like what I have to say, tough, I don’t want to hear it, don’t even bother to tell me, just go away’.

And that’s actually a pretty worthless attitude. It's basically saying, 'I don't want to hear anything except unconditional agreement and approval'. And that's nonsense. This is still a free country… for a little while longer, anyway… and if you really feel you just gotta send me a flame, or post one on my comment threads (assuming they actually work, which I cannot in any way guarantee) then by all means, knock yourself out.

Unless your flame is exceptionally cogent, witty, or stylish, though, I will most likely ignore it. You do have a right to say anything you want (although I’m not sure that’s a right when you’re doing it in my comment threads, but hey, you can certainly send all the emails you want). However, I have an equal right not to read anything I don’t feel like reading… and I’m really quick with the delete key… as various angry folks have found in the past, when they decided they just had to do their absolute level best to make me as miserable as possible.

So, if you don’t like my opinions, feel free to say so. However, if I find absolutely nothing worthwhile in your commentary, I will almost certainly not respond to it in any way.

Stupidity, ignorance, intolerance… these things are only worth my time and attention if they’re entertaining. So unless you can be stupid, ignorant, and/or intolerant with enough with, style, and/or panache to amuse me… try to be smart, informed, and broad minded when you write me.

Like it? Hate it? Hit me with your best shot.


NOTICE

There is such a thing as a social contract. Even among bloggers. And I pay attention to it.


 

WHO IS THIS IDIOT, ANYWAY?

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ROBERT A. HEINLEIN, MARK EVANIER & ME: Robert Heinlein's Influence on Modern Day Superhero Comics

KILL THEM ALL AND LET NEO SORT THEM OUT: The Essential Immorality of The Matrix

HEINLEIN: The Man, The Myth, The Whackjob

BILL OF GOODS: The Words of A Heinlein Fan Like Nearly Every Other Heinlein Fan I've Ever Met, But More Polite

FIRST RAPE, THEN PILLAGE, THEN BURN: S.M. Stirling shows us terror... in a handful of alternate histories

DOING COMICS THE STAINLESS STEVE ENGLEHART WAY!by "John Jones" (that's me, D. Madigan), & Jeff Clem, with annotations by Steve Englehart

JOHN JONES: THREAT OR MENACE!

FUNERAL FOR A FRIENDSHIP

Why I Disliked Carol Kalish And Don't Care If Peter David Disagrees With Me

MARTIAN VISION, by John Jones, the Manhunter from Marathon, IL

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THE OMNIVERSE TIMELINE

World Of Empire Fantasy Roleplaying Campaign

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Universal Maintenance

Universal Agent*

Universal Law*

Time Watch

Endgame

Earthquest

Earthgame*

Warren's World

Warlord of Erberos

Return to Erberos*

ZAP FORCE #1: ROYAL BLOOD

Memoir:

In The Early Morning Rain

Short Stories:

Positive

Good Cop, Bad Cop

Leadership

Talkin' 'bout My Girl

No Good Angel

No Time Like The Present

Pursuit of Happiness

The Last One

Pursuit of Happiness

Return To Sender

Halo

Primogenitor

Alleged Humor:

Ask A Bastard!

On The Road Again

Meeting of the Mindless

Star Drek

THE ADVENTURES OF FATHER O'BRANNIGAN

Fan Fic:

The Captain and the Queen

A Day Unlike Any Other (Iron Mike & Guardian)

DOOM Unto Others! (Iron Mike & Guardian)

Starry, Starry Night(Iron Mike & Guardian)

A Friend In Need (Blackstar & Guardian)

All The Time In The World(Blackstar)

The End of the Innocence(Iron Mike & Guardian)

And Be One Traveler(Iron Mike & Guardian)

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AMAZONIA by D.A. Madigan & Nancy Champion (7 pages final script)

AMAZONIA (Alternate Draft 1)

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AMAZONIA (World Timeline)

TEAM VENTURE by Darren Madigan and Mike Norton

FANTASTIC FOUR 2099, by D.A. Madigan!

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ULTRASPEED!

Help Us, Batman...

JLA Membership drive

Don't Leave Us, Batman...!

Ever wondered what happened to the World's Finest Super-team?

Two heroes meet their editor...

At the movies with some legendary Silver Age sidekicks...

What really happened to Kandor...

Ever wondered how certain characters managed to get into the Legion of Superheroes?

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