what the heck......
Mood:  incredulous
now i am confused beyond all measure. i thought that dom and i had reached this great happy place where all we were was just friends. what the hell. so i go out with brandon on monday night since he and i haven't hung out just the two of us in forever and Dom and a couple of his friends are out there. so dom and brandon play this retarted bowling game for a while. after a while dom and one of his friends decided that they are going to the rock and that me and brandon should come along so i get drug out there. while we are at both bars dom is buying me beers which is confusing me since that is something that he just doesn't do. oh well anyway.
so we are out at the rock and sitting there while him and his friend are playing pull tabs just talking and laughing like old times. brandon told him about the list and the rating system and that he was one of the top three but only a 4.5 out of 5.
so he is thinking about leaving and asks me if i am going to follow him. that in itself just shocked me to no end. so i ended up going to his house and having great sex. wow...it was more than just sex and that is what he told me last night. he told me that he is confused too. that really doesn't help me much. i was honest with him and told him where i am so i don't know if that does me any good. we'll see i guess.
i told him that i have three categories of friends. there are the ones that joke around with that i know nothing is going to happen like brandon then there are the ones that i occasionally mess around with like tom but i still know where i stand with and then there are the ones that i have no frieken clue like him. he said that he would say but him in the category where we occasionally mess around but it went further than that. bloody hell.
what do i do? i know that i love him and i can't tell him that unless i never want to speak to him again. he will run like hell if i say that but at the same time it is like what i told him. i dont' want to be the pushy girl but if i don't i end up staying confused and in this wierd place and i don't like that.
i told him too that i had finally gotten to the place where he was just a friend and then this happens. now i am back where i was two months ago. okay i am back to the confused place that i was two months ago.
grrrr......