Mood:
party time!well well well....the start of the new year is upon us and yet i am stuck on the past. there is no way to escape the past i suppose. it is what shapes you into who you are. i personally am becoming increasingly happy with who i am but still i am haunted by the decisions of the past.
the new year is a time for resoulutions and i am not really sure what to make mine.
there are the typical ones of course-the ones that have been on the list for years in the vain hope that this might be the year that they finally are acheived.
i think that the one that is topping this years list is the need to try new things. i have settled into a bit of a rut and that certainly isn't me. i want to be the one snowboarding down everest...okay maybe not everest, swimming in the ocean, being happy with where i am and who i have become. there is a part of me that isn't sure if i like the person that i am. i know that i do but it is my frienemies. they all expect a certain attitude and reaction to each situation and lately i am confounding them by not giving them the one that they expect. i have decided that maybe feelings are not such a bad thing after all. i mean how horrible is it to admit that you care for someone. granted it rips your still beating heart out when they tell you that they want to be friends but that is something that makes you stronger and the better for it.