hey, let's wander a bit
Now Playing: nothing really, music isn't coming to mind at the moment. *
it's the start of Lent and I find myself happy and resolved. I am ready to fight and to celebrate this penitential season

before I get into that though, here are some of my online wanderings: Read More...

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*I would like to play something from Pillar later for my friend Brian though, I think he'd love this one song that I'm thinking of... but now is definately not the time.

I'll get going now, but I will pray today that you will stick to your Lenten resolutions- yes, yes I will.

-Daiko~
(pray for me... to find employment somehow... ^_^;; )

It's February
Now Playing: Switchfoot: the beautiful letdown & "Hey Jude"

and it's only now that I type something here.
due to a dead computer at home and limited time at the library seeing me online will be something one won't be able to do so often (at least, compared to before)

anyway... I should be going home soon
dinner is to be served soon here on my side of things
I just wanted to update on my situation a bit
(as well as stop by the library to combat this spat of boredom that I have found myself in)

(a job would be good to get rid of that...)

-sigh- I miss doing digital art with the computer so much... I decided to search for a paint chat, but I didn't find very much: Read More...

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the time I've been through before now has been quite good though, I'd even call it "sweet"

I was surprised to get so much for Christ Mass and my birthday... mildly shocked would be appropriate to describe it.

and I wonder what I can do to give back to my friends since their birthdays are coming up so quickly

I really don't know

I don't know about what I want to do for a lot of things (like Lent, which is THIS WEEK)

help. o.o;;

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

lets GO!! (Daiko is back :)
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: cows go "moo!"

Hello... I haven't written any new entries to this blog since last year, but now that doesn't bother me as much as it used to- I had thought of this blog as something of an important duty before, but now that I look at it, this really isn't- this is just my journal and I am free to use it as sparingly or frequently as I wish. Yay!

Anyways, I am good and at the moment, seem to be doing quite well with my New Year's Resolve- I have been pretty quiet with regards to selling things on eBay and Half.com, but I'll be back there soon enough -happy sigh-

...even though I know my birthday is coming on the 10th, somehow it is still hard for me to believe that I am going to be 21 o.o;; -it seems like it's too soon, but my birthday always comes on time- it's just that this year, I'm not exactly ready- but I can handle this and I don't find it too shocking now (it's still odd to me though)

hm, 2005 looks great so far :heart:
and this is the year in which I will strive to work hard and earn some savings at a great job- I am looking forward to the future for once, and I pray that things will continue to go well (or at least that I will have the spiritual fortitude and full faith to deal with whatever comes my way accordingly)

-sigh- and that's that for now.

online wanderings:
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-Daiko~
(pray for me!)

Oh happy Days~
Mood:  happy

I smile
I have been gifted quite generously today
I went to work as a volunteer over at the VA, and had a pretty good time- it was nice seeing some new faces over there, and there were some fellow people of Filipino decent so that was interesting (especially since I had brought over some shrimp chips for everyone in the volunteer room to enjoy ^_^;; ...)

the mall trip was good
I didn't feel like buying much
and I decided against getting the small sketchbook that was like $4- I guess that's since I don't need one and that I've got some already

on the way home, I thought of something:
PDP- Picture Diary Project
in which I would marry my love of recording my life's details, with my love of art- specifically, sequential art

I love the idea already, I want to start soon, like now- tonight actually, but I'm kinda tired right now from doing stuff today (still want to clean my room too- ugh.)

I found a nice package in my room
it made my day- so full of lovely little things it was :heart:

and... went online and ended up downloading the lovely [Paint.net]
-I'm so tired.
sorry, this is all I can manage for now

ah...
Daiko just goes "blah blah blah" AIM-ishly here:
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later.

-Daiko~
(is having a Merry Christ Mass :heart: )

I am resolved quite happily...
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Daiko wants to draw and use art supplies!
Topic: bits and pieces

okay, I understand that I have given the impression that I have been sad/depressed lately (which wasn't exactly wrong, but I haven't said everything about that...) so I may as well give an update to where I am emotionally

and so, as I see it, things look good and are good

I've been getting out of the house recently and volunteering some of my time over at the near-by Vetrans Administrations Hospital, and it has been wonderful (- T-T okay, there are still some icky things that drive me crazy, but I accept that I don't live in a perfect world... or at least, I'm dealing with that) ...yeah, it really has, I love doing stuff especially when I get to do stuff for people and make them happy *little girl voice: I like helping! :heart:*

Actually, that above statement isn't correct
I will fix it: I LOVE helping!! :Heart: there~

and and annd~~!
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I've been to the Mall two days this week!
-it is true that there were a lot of people there today trying to get their Christ Mass shopping done, but I was so happy to be there (especially since I spent most of my Mall time in the lovely store known as Waldenbooks where I read lots of good manga~ ee!)

so yay.

yay for surface scratching too
because that's all for now
(I'm tired and I want to go to bed early, I have a package to send tomorrow, and I need to get up around 6:20a Eastern or earlier- that also includes my brother @.@;; ooh.)

-Daiko~
[the other side of the journal...]
(pray for me...)

let me back into the swing of things...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: (I'm trying so hard not to scream- what a fun game!)
Topic: wondering where I stand

(hmm, I think I'm a bit irritated actually...)

or at least let me come to some semblance of peace- both internally and externally.

...because it seems that I have none, no peace I mean and that is partially my fault because I've been too anxious as of late- of course, it doesn't help when one lives around naturally high-strung, suspicious people does it? -sigh-

It feels as if I am not allowed to have time to myself to do things, and if I try to do so, that I shouldn't be since I should be busy, or at least out of someone else's way- I don't like that at all.

I'm not too happy with the fact that I am saying things in such a round-about way either (maybe, I'll make my new year's resolution something like, "bluntness"? I don't know- I think maybe it should be "more honest and open with regards to myself" -that sounds a lot more like it really)

-sigh-

What do you guys think of whining? complaining?
Personally, I don't like either, whether it's hearing myself do so (see my lack of rantage here?) or hearing someone else do so

I guess it's because I don't understand at times why certain people do what they do (at times, it looks like pure foolishness, but that's what I see...)

I mean, things aren't perfect but there are those who seem to refuse to adapt, and they are so highly irritable (I can understand that- but why burden others with such a thing unnecessarily? I don't get it- yuck.)

;_; sorry me, I just can't seem to do it
I can't seem to say what I want to
and I'm so limited with time and freedom (especially if I just want to get some stuff done on the computer)

but I could just be imagining things
how I wish that I was!

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(yeah, I know ramblings of mine don't make much sense, do they? -anyways, I'll be leaving soon and I've got a room and a physical journal to take care of, but I wish to get more done online soon... ;_;)

I had wanted to post a split-review (subjective/objective) on the trilogy His Dark Materials by Pullman, but it looks like I won't be cranking that out now (funny, I was about to do that first thing when I went online about an hour ago, but I went over to DA and kinda got stuck ^_^;; )

eesh, I'm gone now.

-Daiko~
(pray for me)

"...hop, skip, jump- do whatever you do~"
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Spirit fm Share-a-thon/blog hopping game/save me!

Okay, this morning I was wandering online as I often do and I found myself at my friend Brian's blog and I happened to see this entry which then lead me to this nice-looking place, and the most recent entry led me even further down the rabbit hole

and so, that was fun~

-Daiko~
(pray for my brother that he passes this semester!!)

I must remember that winter gives way to spring
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Winter in my Soul [not a song, but it is my inner state]
Topic: wondering where I stand

things have been hard for me lately, and I felt at times that I had more than I could handle, but God thought otherwise...

I'm struggling to type
to articulate my feelings
(almost as usual)
but I am enjoying the process this time
(though I can't get it all down on paper or typed out here in the blog)

It's not even winter yet- at least, not officially (though it does feel that way in many other places) but the winter solstice will be taking place on the 21st of this month -if I'm not mistaken that is. So, it is still autumn, and it is so HOT here in Florida, but I've been so cold lately- I don't think that this makes complete sense, but I have been scared as of late so that must be a part of the reason why I've been so chilly...

it's been something like winter in my soul,
a time where hearing from God is hard for me to do and to experience- not because I have told Him to go away or anything, but because I've allowed myself to drift from Him and to be preoccupied with such petty things, and serious worries- I hate it, I hate it, I hate it

I want to remember...
and I want to improve
I want to improve so badly
and I want things to be good
but I can't let those things make me worry
I can't let myself, and my good intentions be turned away to evil purposes (and I do mean "evil", I wasn't overstating my case).

I want the Spring
and I want my hope to flourish

I need to remember that I need help always
from God and from good companions
I need to remember my limits
and that it is painful for me to try to do too much

I would like even more help
and I am learning to be more specific in what I ask for so that I can recieve it well

I want to have my brother by my side
for him to be able to continue college and to do well this semester-

-sigh-

I'll just say that for now.

-Daiko~
(pray for me...)
(do you care to commission or support Daiko?)

"today, today, today..."*
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Begging You to be my Escape [RelientK]
Topic: wondering where I stand
Today looks nice somewhat
I was able to recieve a lovely gift from my good friend Cassandra (and that brought some cheer to my downtrodden heart, so I am quite grateful...) also, I gave my friends the gift of chocolate so that was nice as well...

(unfinished stuff here.
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Why is it that Advent and Lent are so similar to me? It seems that at these times of the year that I go through quite a bit of suffering- I am wondering... if this is the way that things should be- actually, I'm not sure of it at all

All I know is that I will do what I can with the very little that I have, and that God will help me (He is so trustworthy)

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more stuff from today:
I've been attending classes on Sumi-e painting as of late, and I always pass a small office bulding that is dedicated to the commercial art business (or so it appears) unfortunately for me, I don't seem to be able to stop-by the place and get all the contact info- so all I see as I'm on my way to where my classes are held is the sign on the building and I can't even catch their domain name properly! -it's been quite irritating, and all I can say is that it is something like "megadistic.com" ;_;

in my atempt to find their website today, I ran across this: Megadigit.com and Megadigital.com

the latter is little more than a place for the company contact info rather than a real interactive informational website, but the former looks most excellent (I can't understand Spanish though, so I would have to avail myself of an online translator if I wanted to read what the artist had to say)

-sigh-

ah, I almost forgot to mention that when I went to Megadigit.com I found this link in a pop-up ad ... ;_; I so wish that this was a true good job opportunity for me, heaven knows that I really could use something like this *cries*

(-.-;; I'll see about fixing this entry up more later- for now, I'm going to see about doing some job applications or whatnot.)

-Daiko~
(pray for me?)
(care to support this poor student?
take a look: commission, support)

Okay, I'm ready now
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: Begging you to be my Escape [Relient K]
Topic: wondering where I stand

to post that is.
I wasn't writing lately because I found myself unable to say much since I've been going through quite a bit mentally and emotionally, but I found some precious solace in talking to two trusted, and wonderful friends (Ashley and Cassandra)

-sigh-
I know, I didn't say much of anything with regards to Thanksgiving, and I'm not sure if I have much to say for that holiday really- I did have a good time, and eat good food and get out for a bit, but it was rather quiet this year- hence, my reticience to put words down on this subject.

hmm...
with regards to blogging, I'm not exactly sure of where I want to go (and that applies to the other areas of my life as well) I know that I created this blog with the intention of talking about God (and to Him) along with covering how I am in my spiritual life, but I find it hard at times to write on that- also, I know that there are others things in my life too that don't neatly fit into the initial plan I had for this blog. I am wondering if I should have more than one blog that I update regularily... I could call it "Artist in Training" and use it to put up my ramblings on art and links and such, but I'm not sure if I want to do that- add more tasks to my life since I've got enough as it is (and this blog would get so much sparser too -I don't think that that would be so good).

I would like suggestions please.

(and oh, the end of this college semester is coming up for me and my younger brother- I am doing okay, but I know that he and I could both really use A LOT of serious prayer so that we can finish this term well and get on to a good next sem... so, HELP!!)

today's browsings and stuff
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-Daiko~
(did what she could today
but she still is a bit tired and empty
pray for her
and her family.)