By Me

This is where I try to get all creative, and write some half decent poems and stuff. Just to warn ya, I suck so try not to laugh too hard. Thanks.

Here's a poem I tried to write (notice the "tried"). I know it sucks shit, but I can't write poems, okay? It doesn't rhyme, and it probably won't even make sense to anyone... it's just me asking questions about why my life is the way it is.

Why?
Why do I do this too myself?
Get myself stuck it situations I don't want to be in
Then I explain myself, but no one understands
Why does no one understand me?
People judge all the time, but they don't understand
Why doesn't she want to be my friend anymore?
What did I do wrong?
Am I not as good anymore?
Why can't that one special guy be mine?
It hurts to know I'll never get him
Why do I pretend I love someone I don't?
I'm just gonna hurt him
And everyone will be like "that bitch"
Why did I do more than I wanted?
Now I'm dirty, disgusting, and don't know what to think about myself
Why can't I ever be truely happy?
Why do I always have this saddness deep inside me?
Why can't the world revolve around me- for only one day
Just so I can feel special too
Why?