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"i am the suck."

these are just a few songs that *i* wrote. yeah, i suck at writing songs, but that's ok. they're not all from personal experience, or how i feel... most of them are just words that floated into my head. knock yourself out. :P
    
    
"stupid boyfriend"

he's hung over

yet again

he stumbles through the living room

and steps on his friends

he picks up the phone

dials her number, and prepares to say

'i love you, i do...

but i can't see you today'

she'll get mad

she'll call him names

he'll hang his head

and sigh in shame

he always messes up

he can't do anything right

constantly breaking her heart

and making her cry

he's a pathetic man

her stupid boyfriend

it's friday morning

she knocks on his door

he screams 'come in!'

he's lying on the floor

she greets him with a kiss

he hates sentimental things

never even bought her candy

can't afford a ring

lost his job last week

he's such a bum

but she's oblivious

she's blinded by love

he always messes up

he can't do anything right

constantly breaking her heart

and making her cry

he's a pathetic man

her stupid boyfriend

some day, maybe she'll know

maybe she'll open her eyes

and see him for the jerk that he is

yeah, maybe she'll realize

he always messes up

he can't do anything right

constantly breaking her heart

and making her cry

he's a pathetic man

her stupid boyfriend

he always messes up

he can't do anything right

constantly breaking her heart

and making her cry

he's such a pathetic man

her stupid boyfriend

   
"you kill me"

i die everytime you're near

i parish when i hear your name

i'm always thinking of you

yeah, yeah, i drive myself insane

remember when i said

i could live without you

i lied out my teeth

'cause that's something i could never do

i die when i'm with you

i'm dead when you're not there

i'm screaming tonight

and my soul is bared

when i touch your face

my heart stops, and time bleeds

everytime i hear your voice

i die, yeah, you kill me

if you knew exactly how i feel

i wonder what you would say

would you hold me near

or would you run away?

i can't tell you what's in my head

i can't tell you a lot of things

but i can tell you this

yeah, yeah, you kill me

i die everytime you're near

i parish when i hear your name

i'm always thinking of you

yeah, yeah, i drive myself insane

you kill me

when i touch your face

my heart stops, and time bleeds

everytime i hear your voice

i die, yeah, you kill me

when i touch your face

my heart stops, and time bleeds

everytime i hear your voice

i die, yeah you kill me

you kill me

   
"sleep"

i gotta sleep. i haven't slept in days. i'll hide from reality, i'll make it go away. hiding from it all, even from you. i can't take it right now, i'm telling you the truth. maybe i'll sleep forever. maybe i'll never rise. i could disappear into the never, to escape this world of lies. you don't help matters much, standing there with a grin on your face. i feel like slapping your mouth right off your head, and burying it in a secret place. i wouldn't give it back to you, never in this life. i know where i stand with you; i'm no one in your eyes. and maybe i'll just sleep forever. maybe i'll never rise. i could disappear into the never, and escape this world of lies. i gotta get away... i'm going to sleep now, so kiss my ass goodnight. you can't bother me in my dreamworld, i will be alright. it seems to me that you're oblivious, like you're the one who needs to sleep. so you can wake up and smell the truth, and vent all the dirty secrets you try so hard to keep. and maybe i'll sleep forever. maybe i'll never rise. i could disappear into the never, and escape this world of lies. lies, lies, lies... when i wake, you'll be no one to me. and you'll have yourself to thank for acting so selfishly. so long, get lost, i don't care. just leave me alone so i can go to sleep in my underwear. maybe i'll sleep forever. maybe i'll never rise. i could disappear into the never, and escape this world of lies. goodnight. zzzzzzzz.

   
"dumb e. dick"

i wanna know why you never told me all the things you never told me. like the fact that you're a dick. if i had the chance to demonstrate to you how it makes me feel, i'd beat you with a stick. you're so sexy, and you can be so sweet it blows my mind. i wish you could be that way all of the time. but i wanna know why you never told me all the things you never told me. like the fact that you're a dick. if i had the chance to demonstate to you the way it makes me feel, i'd beat you with a stick. now don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with having fun. you don't know anything about anything boy, you're just plain dumb. you're the poster child for stupidity; you are the king. i think i oughtta get away from you, before your dumbness rubs off on me. and i wanna know why you didn't tell me all the things you never told me. like the fact that you're a dick. if i had the chance to demonstrate to you the way it makes me feel, i'd beat you with a stick. why can't you be rational, why can't you hear me out? i thought that's what this whole boy/girl thing was all about. you're showing me you can't deal with your issues. you need to come to grips, man, before i come unglued. and i still i wanna know why you never told me all the things you never told me. like the fact that you're a dick. if i had the chance to demonstrate to you the way it makes me feel, i'd beat you with a stick.

   
"before the world blows"

what's wrong with the world today? it doesn't make any sense. i'd like to dropkick that person who first said that ignorance is bliss. it's stupidity that makes this world so messed up. i know this, but i can't change it 'cause i'm not powerful enough. i'd fight fire with fire, but i don't play that way. if everyone keeps doing these things, this world will never change. get some water yeah, bring out the hose. put out these fires before the world blows. murder, rape, and violence; crimes from a to z. we need to stand together, ok, and cure this disease. they all want it to change, but they all stay the same. sitting around with their thumbs up their asses, they can't do anything but complain. well if we united, then maybe everyone would see. but i can't do it on my own, it's the whole world against me. i'd fight fire with fire, but i don't play that way. if everyone keeps doing these things, this world will never change. get some water yeah, bring out the hose. put out these fires before the world blows. i turned on the radio today, and what did i hear? criminals running lose in the streets, i can't help my fear. i shook my head, and turned the radio off. it would be so much simpler if all the problems we face would vanish with the twist of a knob. i'd fight fire with fire, but i don't play that way. if everyone keeps doing these things, this world will never change. get some water yeah, bring out the hose. put out these fires before the world blows.

   
"the top of my list"

i wished upon a star tonight. but i know that star will fade, and my wish will never be true. i pleaded with the sky, i begged for you. it seems you don't even notice i'm here. you don't even know that i'm alive. but just remember i'll always be here, and if you change your mind... you can use me, and you can abuse me. you can do anything you please. i'll do anything you ask, i'm just a puppet on a string. you can bend me, and you can break me. you can do anything you wish. i'm here for your entertainment, 'cause you're at the top of my list. you called me just a minute ago, you said you needed some advice. i tried so hard to help you out, but i was dying inside. i wanna tell you i want you, but i just don't have the guts. just always know this, 'cause i mean it so much... you can use me, and you can abuse me. you can do anything you please. i'll do anything you ask, i'm just a puppet on a string. you can bend me, and you can break me. you can do anything you wish. i'm here for your entertainment, 'cause you're at the top of my list.

   
"invisible girl"

am i invisible?

can you even see me?

it feels like i'm not even here

feels like i'm nothing

i just want you to notice me

just want you to know

there's nothing i wouldn't do

nothing i wouldn't go through

i'd do anything just to make you see

anything just to make you believe

make you believe i'm real

'cause to you, i feel invisible

i blew you a kiss

you didn't blink an eye

i wonder if i look as small

as small as i feel inside

you're everything to me

i look up at you, and hold my breath

waiting for you to see me

waiting for you to vanish this emptiness

i'd do anything just to make you see

anything just to make you believe

make you believe i'm real

'cause to you, i feel invisible

is it so much to ask

for a simple little smile?

but you remain emotionless

and i'm waiting all the while

i'm still waiting, and i don't know why i bother

to you it doesn't seem to matter

it seems i'll be invisible

seems like i'll be invisible forever after

i'd do anything just to make you see

anything just make you believe

make you believe i'm real

'cause to you, i feel invisible

i'd do anything to make you see

anything to make you believe

make you believe i'm real

'cause to you, i feel invisible

   
"(you never come around me) with your silence"

silence surrounds me

my broken heart bleeds

i squeeze it like an orange

a feeble attempt to drain the sorrow from me

i fill up a glass

bright red love

rejected love, you don't want it

why can't you be my someone?

i scream at your picture

your silence is deafening

another heart put on a shelf

to carry cuts and bruises eternally

your silence

your blindness

i'm drowning

you never come around me

with your silence

i look into your eyes

deep puddles of blue

i wonder what lies within them

what's inside of you

those eyes hold something

behind them i find

the one i yearn for

i wish i could make you mine

i can do nothing

i hate this

i'd die a thousand deaths

for one little kiss

your silence

your blindness

i'm drowning

you never come around me

with your silence

open your beautiful eyes

part those soft lips

say something, please?

touch me with your fingertips

set me on fire

with your words

fuck it, nevermind

i'm ill, and i need to be cured

i could never have you

i can't get inside your world

but i'd give anything

just to be your girl

your silence

your blindness

i'm drowning

you never come around me

with your silence

your silence

your fucking blindness

please come around me

with your silence

   
"an ode to being human"

i rolled out of bed today

with a lot of things on my mind

i went around in circles with myself

but not one answer did i find

and then, i was thinking about this time when i was a kid

i fell, and scraped my knee to the bone

and i didn't get even one stitch

there's a scar on that knee, it'll never go away

it's a constant reminder

a momento from that day

sometimes i feel like i could cry

sometimes i can smile and laugh

sometimes i get angry when i think of things that happened in the past

although sometimes i feel confused and alone

i know i can make it through

they say it just takes time

but waiting is the hardest thing to do

when i get impatient, sometimes i get a little mean

i say things i later regret

but everyone does that, it seems

i don't want to be like everyone, i hate making mistakes

i know no one is perfect

but they say it's what practice makes

sometimes i feel like i could cry

sometimes i can smile and laugh

sometimes i get angry when i think of things that happened in the past

i try to see the good in every bad

i try to see the right in every wrong

i even laugh when jokes aren't funny

to make others feel like they belong

but still...

sometimes i feel like i feel like i could cry

sometimes i can smile and laugh

sometimes i get angry when i think of things that happened in the past

sometimes i feel like i could cry

sometimes i can smile and laugh

sometimes i get angry when i think of things that happened in the past

i guess it's part of being human

   
"the hated cheerful guy"

he's as sweet as pie

but they don't notice his personality

only looking at his attire

thinking that's all there is to reality

they laugh at him to his face

they smirk and sneer

making fun of him when they don't understand him

it's how they hide their fear

he's chasing rainbows

in a dark starry sky

everyone knows

that he's kind of shy

he just smiles all the time

he's the hated cheerful guy

he waves to those girls in skirts

with ribbons in their hair

but they go on with their gossip

pretending he isn't there

they think they break his heart

but it doesn't phase him

he bounces away with a smile

he's not into them

he's chasing rainbows

in a dark starry sky

everyone knows

that he's kind of shy

he just smiles all the time

he's the hated cheeful guy

he's almost famous

that happy dude they despise

he doesn't care what they think

they can spread around their lies

he'll take the whipping

take it like a man

and through all the beating

he'll be wearing a grin

he's chasing rainbows

in a dark starry sky

everyone knows

he's kind of shy

he just smiles all the time

he's the hated cheerful guy

he's chasing rainbows

in a dark starry sky

everyone knows

he's kind of shy

he just smiles all the time

he's the hated cheerful guy

the hated cheerful guy

   
"your loss"

you come around here

smiling like everything is fine

i know i'm not blind here

take your lies to another place and time

you're a menace to my world

and you giggle like a school girl

trying to tell me what is right and wrong

take a hike, ride a bike, this is my goodbye song

you've fucked me senseless

with your words

and you say it's me

who is absurd

oh no, i don't play that game

oh no, i won't let you make me go insane

everything is not right, everything is shit

and you didn't even bother to help fix it

i've had enough, i'm about to blow

your fake smile is wearing thin, just thought you should know

you're all over me, with your eyes you molest me

don't even look my way

you've fucked me senseless

with your words

and you say it's me

who is absurd

oh no, i don't play that game

oh no, i won't let you make me go insane

why are you still here? i told you it's over

and you're crying like a little girl, you can't use my shoulder

get out of my life, and take with you all of your ignorant thoughts

and don't call me in a week or two, i'm gone, game's over, your loss

you've fucked me senseless

with your words

and you say it's me

who is absurd

oh no,i don't play that game

oh no, i won't let you make me go insane

    
    
    
    
    

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