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I wonder what you would call me,
What would you define me as?
I'm a she-thang, some where between masculine and
femunine.
Straight as arrows but thought of as gay
Not minding at all
You have some of the silliest reactions
Sometimes.
I like this tandem thread
Dancing along my vibration
Playful and wondering in spirit
Maybe too curious about everything
What's your name? Where are you from?
What's that deep inside of you?
All those colors, light and wings to spread!
Hey toss them books aside and tell me
What your heart just said?
I can hear it from this distance
I can see it in your eyes
I can feel it comming from you
All your tears and laughs and sighs
You don't have to entertain anybody
Enjoy the time the stars demised
And steal a glance out of those depths
OH! an Elf! A Wolf! An Owl! A - whooo! My eyes!
Oh hey you
Dance in the heart beat of the drum
Wake up you sleepy head
Don't shell and hide!
No thorns
To life! To life! Get the frell outa bed!
I wonder what you would call me
What would you define me as?
I'm a shapeshifter
A he? A she? What age? What intelligence?
Is there signs of life? What world is she in?
What side? What kind of Wolf is that?
What blood? What kinder?
Who is that?
Is she twinkie? Is she bunny?
Is she wannabe? Newbie? Hippie?
Or some mystery no one can place?
What's all this mek and mess?
A who? A what? A shrew I shot?
Be what you want to be
Deep down inside
You believe you are something
You want to be true
You look forward to it everyday
The night it will swoop down apon your shoulders
And be yours.
That deep, innermost wish of all wishes
Of who you are
That truth
So many of you desire to cup into your hands
And dream into reality
That is
My friend
Already yours
You are that fine, secret little truth
Like a faeries spark.
I wonder what you would call me
What would you define me as?
I roam in the twilights
I walk between two worlds
Where does she fit in all the social circles?
Where does she place in our square pegs?
Where does she tag or label or church or stand?
What religion does she belong to, what people,
What race or color or flag?
I stand in the circle with my shawl and feather fan
I have no religion, I know only the sacred.
I'm a medicine wheel
I'm a bohemian and tao
I'm an orphan and stray, taken in and warmed by the
Fire
In loving hands.
I wander belonging to no one
And everyone
I'm a Wolf, a Buffalo and a Cougar band
I'm a rainbow
A texture
A shade of gray
Like the way the moon eclipses
Or the time it rains
My friend
Open your mind
Set your spirit free
Soar or flow or fall or break free
Along this tandem thread.
I wonder what you would call me
What would you define me as?
I call myself ChianaGray
WolfDrum
and ElectricWhisper
I wonder what in those names I have said?
Like the way vibration and tone is
What do you call those things?
Like the way lightning strikes, the smell of static
Or Sam Beckette quantem leaps
Moya starbursts
Roses bloom, ocean waves and gusts through trees
The dawn rises
Spirit overwhelms in awe
The depths of the beating drum
Wolf howls the mystical cries
A throaght, a heart, a lung
Vibration, tone and sound
Hear me
Spirit overwhelms in sacred
The things that call
Ears and heart and mind to listen
Come! Gather! Come home!
Touch me
Spirit overwhelms in helpless sensations
To feel so many things, so many depths
So strong
A taste, a sight, a smell, an essance, a texture
From pain to exstacy
Help me
I am electrified
My friend
My name is the sound of thunder.
I wonder what you would call me
What would you define me as?
Do I walk beyond the human
Or am I everything you also have?
What is going on with me
Sometimes some of you are canyons away
I can't even imagine a world without spirit
And some of you feel this must be a problem I have
But how can you touch the flight of them birds
Disecting them to see what kind of brians they have?
Couldn't you be in your science and theory and psychology
A wakend dreamer?
Am I a dream walker?
What is that?
Am I shay or fay, a raggedy rauny?
A Wolf in this human body wondering where
You put the people we had?
Where are you all on this tandem thread?
What do I say?
Where are you?
Can you come out and play?
What am I to you?
Did I get lost some where down this line
While you were all evolving?
Where are you?
Am I the only one this way?
Do we have a name?
Where did you go?
Where have you been?
What am I supposed to say?
Are there no words better
To tell you who I feel I am?
Some name, some place
Some something
Like everybody else has?
Is that something
I really should desire...
And, have you
Thought the same...
Thought
I have a shadow inside that hides
Can you imagine
It's a side I wouldn't let anyone get near
And so it recessed, or I'm just here
Maybe it's a character from a story
I have yet to tell
But all the fears kept inside
Were legitimately instilled
I never fit in any of the labels
But many tag them on me anyway
Because it's comfortable to believe
When your mind is set
But I don't have to be anything
I don't have to understand
I don't have to live in your reality
It's enough that I have mine
Heretic, heathen, tralk, weird, idiot
Wannabe, halfbreed
And we don't know ... about quiet people
I never quite seem to fit the shape
Pardon me while I defy the mind set
I'd like to question your entire structure
Based on what you believe about everything
The way you teach, socialize, material importance
Excuse me for being anti - social
But I think you're upside down
Don't you think it could hurt a life time
Determine parts of my shape and shade
If you said I was too stupid
Too quiet
Too profound
Where do I fit in your world, what color is your sky?
Because I really think you got it all wrong
And I ache and mourn and cry
The part inside me so well protected and locked away
I left them way behind
So there are worlds shade unlike you, yet the dictation
Is like a disease dismantling mankind
Oh but it's this and that and rock and roll
And videos and television
We'll just look at anything but deep inside
Excuse me but I think you're so wrong
Everything pays the price because of what you want to see
Over what is
Look at the science if you don't believe me
You level entire mountains flat to the ground
Pour sewer into creeks
And gawk in wonder at how much faster nature is
At regrowth in volcanic eruption
Compared to the side you cleaned
You idiot
And while your standing there pointing your finger
Standing righteous in all you believe
I sit watching everything
My loves, my believes, my passions and worth
Turn into shadows like me, getting with the times
Cut down like the trees
Hiding like elves from the progress of a hard wind storm
Killing this earth
And you say
There must be something wrong with me
Though I try very hard not to judge at all
And accept even this part I've hated the most
About you
I was my Earth mother's feral child, a Wolf among man
But my nature never slaughtered a sheep
I just get painted that way
Instead I'd like to show somebody something
... if they're there somewhere
There's always someone wiser, kinder
Who might even explain it to me in a better way
That my own english cannot compound
Sometimes the Lion can come down from the mountain
A Ram
And I don't have to be, anything
I don't have to understand
Over all, it's learning ground.
I just wish there could be enough left when you're finished
Stomping around
To remember these things I value so dearly
Out of the shadows and dancing in such ways
You would have thought they should have been
No longer around
Once illegal or denied in one time or another
How many repeats does it take?
Man's suffering is his darkness
And he rises and falls swallowing down his persecutor
Until he has become the oppression
Patriarchal
Truth
The feelings behind me
Come with silence
The absolute discipline
Of self control
Is having no control at all
Only the focus
Like an arrow to place
Set
Like a dance
Akido
The feelings behind me
Come with silence
Where emotions so great
In their time
They consumed me, withdrawn
Unyielding sorrow, lonliness
The needs for comfort, nurture
And the snarel of fangs flashed
Raged in cages of tormentment
Like an unusual torture
The feelings behind me
Come with silence
From mental, emotional, sexual abuse
Neglect endured
With choice to believe in good
Nature, heritage and writing
My solace
Pushed beyond the confines
Of thought, spirit and emotion
The feelings behind me
Come with silence
Where I cried each night to Father Creator
Do something with me, teach me
Show me the truth
And the world shook and turned upside down
That day I prayed
And he handed me to my Godess
Great Mystery
The feelings behind me
Come with silence
And where I go in the journey
To heal and grow in spirit
In all I learn from Father and Mother
Great Mystery, the Universe
Even to the verges of insanity
The feelings behind me
Come with silence
I come back with my stories to tell
My comforts to give
My things to teach as I embrace
And wipe the tears of others
In those places Wolf has been
The feelings behind me
Come with silence
What Does It Matter
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If two men fell in love
If two women were gay
If one spiritual being
Was bisexual
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If the laundry is not done
Your hair is a mess
And the car broke down
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If she says not tonight
Or he says forever
If tears fell from pain
And roars snapped in anger
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If two he hug deep and warm
If two she hold hands
Never to be lovers
Yet never deeper as friends
What are these bonds
To the universe
Does it matter?
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If one is poetic
And the other thinks its stupid
If one is romantic
And the other thinks its bunk
If one is a dreamer
And the other thinks life
Is much more serious than that
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If your color is white
Black, yellow, red
Or brown
If your race is them and there
Or genetically everyone around
What is your roots if they're
Just your feet on the ground?
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If you have to stand alone
Before you can have any sense
Of together?
If you have to introspect
Deep beyond profound
Before you can see
Look out
And know where is now
Or here
Or get it together?
And so much richer
Or fresher
Or tolerable
Those realities outside
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
Why does it matter
If you are whatever
In freedom and healing
In friendships and bond
In intelligence ratings
In person or online
In living or dying
In elements, plants
Animals or human
Or sentient beings
Beyond
If you are spiritual beings
And love is unconditional
What does it matter
To the universe
At all
My sisters
And my brothers
Following your hearts
As if you were one
Dohiya
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