Bailey Baby
Mood:  hug me
Topic: Mommy Loves You
My Darling Daughter,

Mommy wanted to write you another entry today to finish what mommy started talking about yesterday.

Yesterday mommy was talkng about the reason why mommy doesn't live with you anymore and where she is. Well it seems to me that I did explainas to why I am not living with you but I have not told you where I am. Mommy is still living in town very close to you. I live at Cranberry Resort. It is really pretty here. Mommy lives in a condo, with someone that is very special to her.

Now before I go into who I live with and why they mean so very much to me I should explain some other things to you so that you may understand a little more. Mommy has spent her whole life searching for someone to love her for who she is and someone who would care about her for everything she is and has to give. Mind you I don't have much to give exceot all the love in my heart and soul. I do my best and sometimes things don't always work out the way I plan but I know in my heart I have done my best and there is nothing more I can do.

Now to the best part.....the person mommy lives with is a person who is the one person who really loves me for who I am and is always here for me. His name is Dominic Jacob Andre. Everyone calls him Nick though for short. He is the most amazing person I have ever met in my life. He has this natural smart about him, he is a computer tech. Which means he spends his time working on computers....lol. But he also writes computer codes for call centres and such too. He is really into music and movies and computer things too.

He is handsom and he loves to live his life to the best that he can with no great big expectations. He works hard. He makes me very happy. He always knows how to make me smile no matter how bad I feel. When I am sick he is always here for me. When I am missing you he is always there to hold me close and never turns his back on me.

Now not to say that me and him do not have our moments where we disagree on things but there is one thing me and him will always have and that is the strength to try harder to make things work. No matter what happens me and him have one thing in common and that is the love we have for each other. We have had people try to come between us and have had people look at us like we should not be together but we are always there for each other and we always talk to each other about how we feel and it helps us get through anything that comes our way.

You know something though, your Nanny hates Nick. She has hated him since day one and nothing will ever change that. But you know he means more to me thanthat, and I don't care what your Nanny likes and what she doesn't like. I have spent my whole life trying to please her and not being with people that she didn't like that now is my time to be with who makes me happy and who loves me. And I know in my heart that Nick loves me more than anything in this world. As he shows it every day. I think that you would really like him. But then againyou have met him before when he was at Nanny's house fixing her computer. All you did was smile at him...He thinks you are just the cutest thing ever.

Me and Nick talk a lot about you all the time. Nick asked me the other day if I wanted you backand I told him that yes I did very much so want you back. I miss you so much. I asked him if he would be able to handle it as he is not your father and all and he said that yes he could. And said that if you called him "Daddy" that he would love that but we would tell you when you were older that he was not your father and who your father was.

Ok I think that is enough for now I will write some more a little later. I love you my darling. And I miss you like crazy.

Love Mommy,
Laura