Right now I am in the middle of a meeting for the webpage design team for Robotics. BORING! Mr. V is going on and on about many things that I don't understand and since all I do is the calendar, it really doesn't matter anyway. But I think I should know it. So I'm going to try to pay attention
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Not working. Kae. So I am crazy busy with Scholastic Bowl and our Christmas concert and I, like everyone else, need money to pay for Christmas gifts! I had better get at least $20 in cash for Christmas b/c I have some serious debts to pay off.
BTW, an update on Bill: He is acting like he doesn't know I'm alive. He's acting like he doesn't care at all. I have tried twice to see him and he keeps forgetting. And I also didn't call him, b/c I was tired of calling and never getting to talk to him, so I hoped he would call me instead and we could have a conversation, just about anything I want to talk to him so bad, but for two weeks I didn't talk to him at all. He's made me cry and I'm sad and upset but the reason I know this is still worth something is b/c I can't be mad at him. I'm not mad at all even though I should be and I have every right to be but I can't get mad. I don't know why. I love him, as a friend, and I want to talk to him and have him here for me, but he isn't and it just makes me sad. I want to tell him that I need him to be with me as a friend and a friend only, I don't want anything else right now, but he is one of the only people with enough brains to get me and to appreciate everything that I am. I need friends like that. And he's not here. The next time I cry about this I am going to call him and tell him it's his fault. And he's not getting his Christmas present until I'm happy w/ him again. What do you think? What should I do?