Bye Bye Beautiful

Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could
Recall the moments that once have
Retrack the footsteps that brought us to this favor
I wouldn't ask this of you

Good eye, sniper
Here I'll shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all

Run quick, they're behind us
Didn't think we'd ever make it
This close to safety in one piece
Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe
Save us from sleep and what we are

Good eye, sniper
Now I shoot, you run
The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know the end of us all

Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.

The words you scribbled on the walls
With the loss of friends you didn't have
I'll call you when the time is right
Are you in or are you out?
For them all to know

Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down.

Bye bye beautiful
Don't bother to write
Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars
Face step, let down.
Face step, step down
~ Coheed and Cambria

Not That I Would Know, But . . .

Top 10 Reasons Why Rowing is Better Than Sex

10. You can row with minors and not get arrested

9. You do not have to worry about where your oar has been before

8. Two words; "cox box"

7. You can row with up to seven other people at the same time

6. Your oar will never give you an S.T.D. (except crabs)

5. Female rowers give Head races a new name

4. Let's face it, it's not

3. In rowing you have a coach to tell you what you did wrong

2. After a good hard row, everybody is satisfied

1. In rowing, the catch is aggressive, the hands are quick, the slide smooth, the drive powerful, and the oar is always hard

Yippe Skippe Yea
I am so pumped right now! My girls 8 kicked ass today at crew. Kae, this is the part that only Roberto and Jen are going to get - somehow we got started rowing on the square, all 8, and most of the girls in my boat are still basically novices. But they were actually good! The entire practice we worked on the square, they kicked eveybody's bum, and hauled *bleep* the whole way. That was definetely the best practice ever!!! Yea go girls 8!
Finally they found out how to row! And I did good to. Go me!

Fall Leaves
So I was talking to Roberto in governor's school today, and he gave me the address of his website, which is very, good job Roberto, and so I thought I'd update my blog, which I have had forever and have not been using of late.
Recent Updates:
~Excitement! Our last regatta is this weekend! After that I am free! I love crew, but it's like I'm not fully committed to it to the point where I have no time at all, it's like I have just enough time to myself so that I feel frustrated that I don't have enough time. I prefer spring crew. However, my girls 8 did get 1st on Sat. and so I have a cool medal with a witch on it. Definitely worth the trip.
~As soon as crew is over, I get my license! Yea!
~Scholastic Bowl will start soon, very cool. Hopefully we will have an awesome team this year. Lots of sophomores, so an inexperienced team but if they're smart who cares?
~Hello to all my cool peoples in Gloucester from Gov. School. You are lucky ducks to get today off. And I don't even tomorrow afternoon off b/c Mrs. Pettyjohn wants me to stay after and catch up. Yuck.

I think that's all for now . . . bye!

It's Been A While
I know I haven't written anything in a long time. My apologies. Crew started and all my free time went right out the window. In fact I'm typing this in History class (hehehe). So this will be short and sweet.
- I love crew!
- I got into Beta, the induction ceremony is tonight, go me!
- I am going to a regatta this weekend, not to race just to watch.
- More than likely will be rowing in a novice 8.
- My best friend got kicked out school for bringing weed to school. It really sucks. Fortunately I wasn't involved so I didn't get into any trouble. But I miss her like crazy.
- I applied to Governor's School, I am so nervous! It's basically college math and science while still in high school. Interviews are next week. I hope I make it I want this so bad!
- My English teacher is a nutcase. Our last project, turned in yesterday about 75% finished, was horrendous. I hope I get an 80.
- That's all for now. I think. I will get back on again sometime soon!

Unknown Album
I'm sitting here listening to a CD by the band above. It has 5 songs on it, and so far it's pretty good. I wish I could turn it up louder but no can do right now. That's kae, I'll blast it when I get home. Honestly, rock should just be loud! Anyway my nerves are starting to get the best of me. I could not stop blushing today - it was so bad. Everything just made me flush rose. I feel like I'm losing control - of school, of robotics, of my feelings, of everything. Soon spring sports will be upon us and I don't know what to do!!! It's really hard b/c this is going to make or break my year right here. Right now it's up in the air - some good, some bad. A good season could turn it all around. Of course I had a great season in Scholastic Bowl, but something bad could pull that apart too. I don't know, I just wish I had time to sit and think and chill. But no we can't do that. I have applications and projects do. My dad's upsetting me b/c he doesn't want me to do band next year. I love flag and I'm really good at it, but our band director doesn't let anyone who's not in band do flag. Anyway I have so much to do and so many decisions to make. Next time you see Max tell him I like him.

Regional + Party
Saturday = SB Regionals
Saturday night = Dad's out of town - party!

This should be fun. Practice today was kae, I hope we win Sat. And I hope Sat. night I get to go out. Maybe to my friend Anton's place, or maybe out w/ Bill. I just say party b/c I'm not sitting at home doing nothing, so it counts. Tim was not in top form today. He's one of our best players, I hope everything is cool. We will get slaughtered w/out him. Friday night I need to get sleep, so I will prob. rent some good movies and go from there.

Next: Call me crazy, but I'm about to go spend $300 on a class ring. I don't know why, I just know this has to mean something real and I want to remember my mistakes and my achievements. Cheesy, huh? Anyway, it's a pretty ring. But $300? I am crazy.

Melancholy
Well, the tournament took six hours. I wonder how long regionals is going to take! But, I'm getting ahead of myself. First off, I woke up at 6:30am. Why is this important? B/c it's too damn early for the world to be awake! But I had to go for my driver's test, so I awoke at the unearthly hour. Yes, I passed - woohoo! And of course my picture looks funky but that's to be expected. I wasn't even nervous at all, I studied and I knew everything, so it was easy.
Next, the tournament. Did I say I was supposed to see Mark there? Well, I saw him. But that was about it. Yep, didn't talk to him at all. I lost my nerve - he was surrounded by all these people and I'm just like no I cannot do this! And I was alone half the time but he ignored me so that's that. And my team also lost, got 3rd place. The sad part is we lost, both times, by 5 points, which is half of a question. When you interrupt you get a 5-point deduction, so that's why it was 5 and not 10. One question! It was ridiculous! So we lost. But we are still season champs, so we go on to regionals next week. Losing sucked. Not talking to Mark sucked. This day was not high on the fun-o-meter. Maybe tommorrow.

Nervous About Tommorrow
Tommorrow is our district tournament. I also get to see Mark again. I am also going in for my learner's test. AAAAAAAGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH! My nerves are fraying fast! I have so much to do. I must bake cookies, watch Jeapordy, take a shower and get pretty, and study for the DMV test. Plus my TV show is on tonight, and I want to be in bed by 9:30. I have so much to do yet so little of a life. I am really nervous about the DMV test and my head hurts. Lunch was really good though. Anyway I hope we do well tommorrow. Two trophies would be great!

A Poem By My Friend Mark - What Do You Think?
You Walk Alone

So long you've watched the sunset while
You walked alone on that silent mile
Wearing only the faintest smile
You walk alone

And so many wait to mourn the day
You left their sight and walked away
And though they prayed and hoped you'd stay
You walk alone

So often they cover your grave with tears
Over the many lonely years
And of all, their greatest fear's
You walk alone

And so slowly you walk along the path
Never wondering of the after-math
And just as the reverent fear God's wrath
You walk alone

So through your many fallen dreams
Through your children's cries and husband's screams
And through that ever greater scheme
You walk alone

Check This Out
https://www.angelfire.com/dragon/henna/journal/
This girl's blog is really good. I think she's British.

Anyway so my friend comes in here to tell me this 8th grader likes me, and I'm like have you lost your mind no way! One, I am debating about the guy I was telling you about the other day and Two, 8th grade? I am a sophmore, interested in seniors!!! Really into Robin, this super hot guy who today I went up to and he didn't say anything and so I said "What, not talking to me?" and he said "I'm not talking to anybody. Maybe someday." So he's hot as a hell and a mystery. Sexy. But for now I wonder.
Going skiing this weekend with the fam and the church. NO FUN for me this weekend! Hehehe and no fun this afternoon, I was supposed to go out with Bill but he had an appointment. So no fun for me! Oh well I will try to enjoy myself anyway. I love to ski!!! And the place has a pool and a hot tub and hopefully hot guys!

A for Yes and B for No
So there's this guy. And he a nice guy, and he's sweet and intelligent, if self-proclaimed a bit reclusive, and he doesn't like the phone, and for the past 3 summmers he's lived on his own working in the mountains. And he's Buddhist and on Scholastic Bowl, though on another team in another town but only a half an hour away. I think I might like him, but I wish he would call me so I might have a better idea of if he was even interested in me at all. It's hard to tell over the internet. I will get to see him though, when we have our District tournament. And actually I've already "seen" him at another meet but didn't talk to him in person. I never get to talk to him as long as I want online. There are a lot of things I want to know. I'd love to just sit down and chat with him, see if there's actually anything there. So I'm working on it. I think I might like him. ??????? How do you figure these things out?

This Is My World
Mikey2k: Fag!
cheyannette: hi sexy. what's up?
Mikey2k: your a fag
Mikey2k: But if you want o know whats really up
Mikey2k: I love my boyfriend
Mikey2k: Did you see the state of the union address last night
Mikey2k: what a joke, I could have given a better speech talking through my ass
Mikey2k: which is what he did
cheyannette: no i did not. you love your bf?
cheyannette: i don't have one
Mikey2k: yes
Mikey2k: I love him
Mikey2k: I love him love him love him
cheyannette: i'm happy for you
Mikey2k: and he's stinky
Mikey2k: heheehe
Mikey2k: he's a stinky bear
cheyannette: kae
Mikey2k: I think my boi jon likes me
cheyannette: i think i like mark
Mikey2k: how do you feel about General Clark
Mikey2k: I think he is sexy
cheyannette: who's he?
Mikey2k: he is a dem running for president
Mikey2k: tsk tsk
Mikey2k: he was the commander of NATO in Bosnia
Mikey2k: he is a four star general
Mikey2k: and he is a hottie
Mikey2k: and I think that he should my presdient
cheyannette: president of your what?
Mikey2k: my country
cheyannette: right. but i thought you wanted to rule the whole world.
Mikey2k: jon and I watched the state of the union address and made fun of all the cooky senators
Mikey2k: This world would never be satisfied under one ruler
Mikey2k: and no man could bare such a burden
cheyannette: jon who?
Mikey2k: jon in guam
Mikey2k: he is so sweet
Mikey2k: whats nice is he's friend with josh too so we all three flirt
Mikey2k: its nice
Mikey2k: share the love!
cheyannette: kae. gay love. got it
Mikey2k: roight
cheyannette: spell right right
Mikey2k: right biotch
cheyannette: i love you too
Mikey2k: I love bois
cheyannette: i like boys too
Mikey2k: alright
Mikey2k: I hate some of the people I know
cheyannette: not me i hope
Mikey2k: Amanda is starting to drive me insane
Mikey2k: I want to die!
cheyannette: well ride the bus
Mikey2k: no
cheyannette: then deal
Mikey2k: I just need her to grow up a little more
Mikey2k: I asked the lunch table if anyone watched the state of the union address last night, thinking for some reason that we might discuss it, but of course not to my surprise no one had
Mikey2k: so she makes the comment . . . were we supposed to watch it cuz its something important to you
Mikey2k: and I'm like no, because you live here for fuck sake
Mikey2k: I understand most people our age don't care, but damn it at least intelligently go about not caring
cheyannette: well i was studying for exams. is that intelligent
Mikey2k: yes
Mikey2k: it just pisses me off that she's so fat and always so ignorant about everything, and oblivious, and greedy as fuck
Mikey2k: I wish I could brand worthless on her head, and she's always talking about killing people because they annoy her, or they are preps, and I'm like you are a sore loser
Mikey2k: just cuz she didn't win little miss cuntina doesn't mean she has to hate the pretty people
cheyannette: i knew it was on at least
Mikey2k: good
cheyannette: so how is Harvard going?
Mikey2k: fine
Mikey2k: SAT saturday morning
cheyannette: personal statement?
Mikey2k: wrote it
Mikey2k: its nice
cheyannette: let me see
Mikey2k: fine . . tomorrow
cheyannette: kae
cheyannette: so i think i like mark
Mikey2k: how long have you know him?
cheyannette: not very long
cheyannette: 2-3 weeks
Mikey2k: give it time
cheyannette: i know
Mikey2k: I though jon was awesome but last night I found out he watches CNN
Mikey2k: lol
cheyannette: haha CNN is cool
Mikey2k: oh and he's a big time christian
Mikey2k: I'm a fox news guy
cheyannette: well i like Channel 24
Mikey2k: yea but I am talking about a news network
cheyannette: and Peter Jennings
Mikey2k: something on 24 7
Mikey2k: eww
Mikey2k: I don't know any sexy news broadcasters
Mikey2k: some sexy world leaders
Mikey2k: Tony blair comes to mind
Mikey2k: and hopefully soon wesley clark
cheyannette: robin herald would be a sexy world leader
Mikey2k: no he'd be a disastrous one
cheyannette: not the point
Mikey2k: blah
cheyannette: you could be the leader and robin the one on all the poseters
Mikey2k: he's not that cute
cheyannette: poster*
Mikey2k: right
cheyannette: oh but so sexy
Mikey2k: I have a more "lead the nation" look
cheyannette: if you worked out
Mikey2k: get over yourself
Mikey2k: go eat a potato
cheyannette: some tight muscles would look great on you
cheyannette: i love potatoes
Mikey2k: I know
Mikey2k: for both
cheyannette: cool
cheyannette: anyway i would make a great world leader
Mikey2k: omg
Mikey2k: internation crisis!
Mikey2k: you'd be the type to have a direct line to the pope
cheyannette: everyonme would be literate and reader a lot
Mikey2k: lol
cheyannette: and much better typers than me
Mikey2k: lol
Mikey2k: the problem with todays politicians is no one cares enough about domestic policy, too much on the international
cheyannette: and they would all shop at Express and
Mikey2k: thats what the state dept is for ... .we need a president who can multi task
cheyannette: super pres
Mikey2k: no adequate pres
cheyannette: that works
Mikey2k: yup
Mikey2k: gosh republicans are dumb
cheyannette: kae
Mikey2k: I hope this whole nation is run down to the ground just so that I can laugh
Mikey2k: I'll become a canadian
cheyannette: i am a liberal. i think
cheyannette: you can get married in canada
Mikey2k: I can get married most places
cheyannette: except hometown guam
Mikey2k: except here, where people are more afraid of happy gay people than they are terrorists
cheyannette: my world would be differnt
Mikey2k: mine would be way different
cheyannette: and we would have automatic spell check
Mikey2k: lol
cheyannette: i love Everwood
Mikey2k: lol
cheyannette: stop laughing at me!
cheyannette: LOL
Mikey2k: damn conservative mountain folk
cheyannette: :-)
cheyannette: who?
Mikey2k: everwood folk
cheyannette: oh well. i like it.
cheyannette: emphram is cute
Mikey2k: well your queer
cheyannette: kae
Mikey2k: emphram is gay
Mikey2k: brb
cheyannette: so are you
cheyannette: kae

Right Now, Dreaming of Tommorrow
Oh to make this dream a reality
To have to hold
My life unmarred
In my open and waiting hands
My sweet perfect life
Of sunshine and roses
With you by my side
And the sunset in the distance
To reach for my stars
And to finally grasp them
To let me live this life my way
It's in my me
And I long to set myself free
But that power is not mine;
Release comes only with time, age, wisdom through the years
You are my light and my angel
You will always be there
But you are not right
For right now
One day it will be perfect
Perfectly beautifully an angel's song
But today I am enjoying my life
Just having fun
It's as I am right now
And you just don't fit
Not that way
I shall hold you and yours in my heart
For all time
But now we are friends
I am in this with you
But you will have to look elsewhere
For that which is not feasible
For right now
I love you
XO XO XO XO

Continuations
Well to continue on, I was never ever goofy before. Basically it means I've changed. I want to know how much I've changed, how long this has been going on. When did I change?!?!? Stupid hot guys who tell me I'm goofy. And so . . .
D)Rick is driving me nuts!!! He is so hot, the best ass I've seen in a long time. He's also really cool and I just . . . there's so many things about him that I like I wouldn't know where to start even if I wanted to go into all that. But he has this pig-faced g/f (or maybe I'm just jealous, some people think she's pretty, I think she's fake) and he seems happy w/ her. I hate this! I wish I could feel free to flirt w/ him, but w/ his g/f in the way I don't, I feel like I'm doing something wrong. This sucks.

To catch up w/ the rest of my life, we are going to Regionals in Scholastic Bowl!!! Woo-hoo! This rocks, I just wish I knew if we had a chance at States. So that's cool, but my grades suck, and I want to go to the Summer Governor's School but I'm not sure I've got a shot at it . . . so much stuff! Really though I'm happy.