Day before Thanksgiving
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: WIND BENEATH MY WINGS
The day before Thanksgiving. I don't have my boyfriend, I'm stuck on this ship, and I have no family coming to see me. Could it possibly get any worst? Yes, it could. I'm 2 months pregnant and the food here sucks terribly. It might be okay tomorrow but I doubt it.
I'm so ready to see my boyfriend again. He always would rub my stomach before we go to sleep. I love him so much. We are currently engaged. I'm beyond ready to see him again. To hold him in my arms, kiss his lips, rub on his chest, all those things. I never realize that I would ever think about someone as much as him. Now I'm here worring about him. Wondering what he's doing or how he is? I'm so worried. Every night I sleep with his jacket on just to have something or his close to me.
I'm so lonely on this ship without him. He's the only reason why I've been here as long as I have. He was the reason why I came back all of the times I came back. To see his smile, hear his voice, look into his eyes. Everything made me feel alot better. It made me forget about the things I was going through. Just to hear him for a few minutes. He made me laugh no matter how bad I was feeling, he always put a smile on my face. I miss that now.
He is truely the sunshine of my life. I'll be glad when he get situated so we can make everything final. And live out the next chapters of our life. Now I have a child to think about. I have that to look forward to. That is what keeps me going everyday. It keeps me ticking. I even eat now not cause I want to but have to. Breakfast is kinda hard to eat sometimes.
I love my man and the child that he gave me. And waiting for our child to get here and knowing that we'll be happier ever after once everything get finalized pushes me through the day and brings me closer to the day my baby will be in my arms again.