The sun above is hurting my head
Justin is here. He says hi. We went to a wedding yseterday. It was a Jewish one. Good times. Only that we left during the reception. Lo got back yesterday. around 11:30.....havent really seen her since. Her last official WEEK!! :( I got poison ivy. As well as a ticket. Because Some redneck's trailer got in the way of my car. Fuck trailers.












FUCK TRAILERS!!!

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Yesterday, Lo took me and Justin out and took pictures of us. They look ?stunning? Ill try to post some asap. Today we sang for the athletic banquet, and just as we started to sing ?stormy Weather? it started to storm. And downpour. Really downpour. Like flash floods. And There I was, without my cellphone, in my red sparkly dress, in the pouring rain, with fogged up glasses, looking in vain for a red Subaru. I was a damsel in distress, but superman I guess didn?t want to get wet or something because my ass was defiantly outside for a while. But all that matters now is that Im in my comfy pjs snug and warm. On a more serious note, I think I figured out why I come off so ?blunt? and ?promiscuous? and ?weird? when it comes to my relationships. I caught myself thinking today as I watched Justin?s car pull away ? Damn, Im starting to really like him. Maybe we should break up.? and then I thought ? WOA! Wait why do I always think these kinds of things? Why do I feel that if I start to really like, even love, somebody, that they will automatically break my heart?? and then??.Kevin. I compare every guy to Kevin. I think that every realtionship will turn out like that one, and that I will have to endure another painful, heart wrenching, drug induced summer. And that?s not the way to be. I should not be scared to love. Yet, there is still slight doubt in my mind. The inevitably will happen. No one, or hardly anyone, ends up marrying some person they dated in high school, and usually couples might not want to be friends if they break up, so there really is no happy ending. As soon as I start dating someone, I think to myself ? I wonder how this will end? so I try in vain not to get to attached to the person by submerging myself in other aspects of life. But even so, I still may fall. One glance, or smile may do it. But it usually happens when I start to think the guy isn?t interested anymore. All he has to do is glance at some short skirt, or talk about how hot some chick is, and I immediately start liking him so much more ( asshole effect) . I think its because I start to want to be in the center of his attention, not some other chick. But then again I start to think the words of Justin B. ? I don?t go into a relationship thinking of how it will end. I just think how good its gonna be.? And I agree?.but wouldn?t that make me naive? Maybe its because I think too much. As Daniel says , ? Its all Drama Kate, its all drama.? God im tired.

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Its been a while since I?ve been online. And a lot has happened. First off, last Friday I crossed to the ?other? side. I attended a Lacrosse game!!!! :-o Secondly, on Saturday, we got in a car wreck. Lauren t totaled her mustang??.We were taking turns driving around Earlysville drying off?. ( we were in our bathing suits) and we picked up Liz. While on our way back to Lo?s house ( luckily she was driving) this asshole in a box-on-wheels ( Element) decided to run a stop sign. Lauren ( traveling at a speed of 45 mph) swerves to miss him, but inevitably, the inevitably happens. We ?t-boned? right into him and landed in a ditch. Since I was laying down asleep in the back ( with my seatbelt on) I went soaring, but hit Lauren?s seat and banged my leg on liz?s seat. Lo?s head hit the air bag and then her seat. Liz?s hand was hanging outside so it got messed up. Long story short, mom got there before the ambulance could be called so she took me to the hospital. ( Justin was waiting there) with a concussion and some seat belt injuries and horror stories from the Texas chainsaw massacre stuck in Moi YED. I got a cat scan and some x-rays, and slept at home for the night?..with Justin J Lo got some head x-rays, and Liz got a wrap thing. We are still sore as hell, and lo has a gargoyle bump. Thirdly, Justin got to ?take care of me? the next day?.and?well?take care of me her did. ;-) Lo and I went car shopping for like 5 minutes and the decided we were hungry and got some food. Justin came over Tuesday morning and um?.?took care of me?. and now im ready for SOLs

long time, no write
Well, Cabaret is said and done....and it was...by far....the best show AHS has EVER out on. Even if i was a prostitue. Eh. Im not going to write much journals anymore...I am going to try to get back to poems. Life is confusing....and trying to write it all out is stressful. SO yes, from now on free verse poems.




so much drama.//chilll youuurr baalllsss people

Oh and the Day is blue, and Im sitting here just thinking about you
Its monday Morning and Im at home. That camp made me sick. So now I cant go to school and take the tests I had to or learn those dance moves. OH well, i need to sleep. Im so tired. Last night I had a dream that Kelly bought me and sea foam green 1978 chevy....but it was sparkly. That really sparkly. nad then me and lauren drove it into the mall...but lots of smoke started to come out of it so they made us leave. Butinstead we went and tried on suits. cause were so hardcore. After this I plan to walk the dog and then Im out. Staying home also means I get to drive the van to school. yay. My throat kills.. Mom says it was all that mold. which it peobably is. well its off to zzzzz........if you guys check this during lunch, tell ms. Nyce I need the review assignment!!!


leeeeeehhhhhhhhts nawwwwwwwt fahhhhhhhhhhight, that is wheeeeere you'll Fiiiiiinnnnnnndddd these...

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So. I just got back today from this camp RYLA which is sponsored by Rotary Club. Long story short, it was like school ( or one bis SCA meeting) on a weekend. Previous to that week was tech week, so I was running on nothing, and to top it off, we had to get up at 6:30am and go to these seminar type lecture things on how to be a good leader and communicator. Lots of big bugs.and mold...and unhealthy food. Mom had to hook me up to a oxygen tank ( she was the camp murse) because I forgot my inhaler. That shits chill. Justin came over as soon as I got back. He just left. We looked fo9r my cat in the cieling....he non-chalantly did my homework for me....ran out in the rain...ate dinner.....and did a whole lot of.......nothing. Hes so great. Yeah I know your reading this. And if so you must be in that class you get bored in, so I'll keep it long. im oh so tired must sleep......i might sleep before he gets home....then I wont be able to call him and find out if he died or not. Sucks.

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Its lunchtime and Im here with Liz and Lauren in the media center at school. I approached them to see that they were both writing in their online journal, and because I am a conformist I decided to do the same. I just filmed my speach for SCA, it will air next week, and Me and Shawna both did terrible. She kept laughing nervously and my hair was in my eyes. we both lost our voices, and therefore sounded like ms. Nyce, only butchier. Tech week has been terrible but not as bad as last year in the sense that I am not as busy. The main thing that agitates me is that I have to be there, doing absoloutly nothing :::coughs green mucous and everyone stares:::
but sitting on my ass wearing fake eyelashes. That hurt. A lot. hahah lauren is writing about me and Justin. I can tell becuase she starts pounding on the keyboard really loud. Speaking of which he has helped me get through this week so much easier. He has come to all my rehersals. Its great to have something so much easier on the eyes than a whole bunch of ugly people wearing scary makeup, bright blood colored set, and one fat angry women. (speaking of Ms. Cunningham, I am suposed to be rehearsing a scene right now but um. woops.) I value my long lunch too much to go practice. HE GAVE ME HIS RINGGGGG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh yes indeed. I am wearing his bling-bling around my neck, and its giving me a bruise. ahem, love tap. He is so amazing. nice makeup Liz. Hahahaha. insert action. " you are the skinniest Fat Kid I know" ( thanks Lo) UGGGGG AAAhhh I have to go to this Happy people camp sponsored by the Rotary Club this weekend!!! I GET NO REST !!! AND NO LOVIN FROM JuSTIN!! ::::::RAGE::::::: ::Kills self::
my lungs hurt.

Lauren is really pissed off. Whitney's shoulder hurts. Liz wants an abandoned face. Addi is with Chris. Lauren is not wearing a bra. I need to go. Food calls.

Lower Pain:::::
Eisley...Good Band

Parade was today. I was screaming out random insentives in a German accent to confused and sweaty crowds. Although the German was pointless, because Sally Bowels is clearly English. My throat now kills from it, and the concert's attendee's ears are at my mercy tommorow. Speaking of tomorow Uncle Tony is comming into town!! He wil be very upset to know i havent gotten my boom stand yet, but hes chill. I kind of wants Justin to meet him, but I dunno. He's going to church with me tommorrow which is kind of funny because we meet at a Synagogue. I spent almost all today with him again. "::::TECH WEEK"::::: the very words strike fear into my soul. And its only a day away. No social life, no sun, no fun, no work done, just the painful and grueling excerises of lines, costumes, makeup, and blocking. Ick. Daniel made this wonderful graphic the other day. Its like a collage of pictures, like Tj made Lo a while back. But Im embarresed to put it on the website, maybe ill put it in another blog or something sometime later. Well, my "strawberry" is in immense pain so I must depart.

Haw.
Im in chorus class right now, and Mrs. Mo isnt here so were just chillin..umm freezing....in this room. SO Justin surprised me yesterday at practice but Danny hates me so he left. He came back though. It was fun. He's great. Today was Jeff's funeral so a lot of people are not at school and then yesterday practice was useless. Tomorow is the Dogwood parade and since Jess isnt going to be there they want ME to be here. Like dress up as Sally Bowels and walk a mile. In a feathery boa. and a top hat. I will be so hot. Well practice is about to start but all we are going to so is rehearse music for Sunday. We are performing at Elks Lodge.

Being Hot in Hawtlanna
Haw. Went to see Yellowcard and Something Corperate with Justin and Lauren on Friday. It was .....nice. The best part was pinching random guy's asses. One dude thought his friend did it and started bitching him out. My new hobby. Then went to Battle of the Bands at CHS with Justin on Saturday. Freshman bands suck. Andrew's band screamed a lot, and one band's name was something like "punk Rock" or some shit. Justin's friend's band was good, but I left early because I was ass tired. We like hung out in the parking lot 10:30 and like did nothing....and I shook my leg a lot. ;-)