I'm sick and tired of it!!!
Mood:  hug me
Topic: pouring my guts out
I'm so sick and tired of people putting others down. I'm tired of feeling like crap and tired of hurting just because person X wants to feel good about themself. NO ONE HAS ANY IDEA HOW MUCH IT REALLY HURTS TO BE MADE FUN OF OR PUT DOWN. I feel like a revolving door of insults, it just doesn't stop. I try to be myself, like people say i should... "You fucking freak. You idiot. Why aren't you normal?" I'm so sick of it!! why don't i just throw on some abercrombie jeans, get in the comformist line and shut my mouth. At least then I wouldn't get bitched at for WEARING BLACK!! Just because black isnt part of the rainbow doesnt mean that anyone who wears it is a satanic goth reject that should get everyones hatred in a bottle thrown at them. I want to die so bad just because this is ridiculous... watching 1st graders on the bus call each other dumb names, KNOWING that it hurts, and what am I supposed to do?? back hand the kid??? I think not... but still. Why can't i have money dripping out my ears, then I could buy/afford preppy clothes and just be one of the mindless opinionless drones... bye... ASHLEY