the trick is to keep breathing
well things havent gotten much better but since i fake my happiness it doesnt really matter. after saying i would never talk to kate i did. i said fuck it, ill give her another chance. stupid me, i thought ppl could change. my fault. brad still comes first in everything. im trying to stay away from her but i cant help it.

idk i just miss the old kate. i miss my old friend. the one who didnt put sex drugs and alochol before her friends. it was fun for a while, doing all those things, but now i wish it was just like it was before. like last summer. its too late tho, i already know that.

summers been pretty boring. oh as for the family theyre not much better either. i do what they tell me and nothing more. yay just how i wanted to spend my summer. i even rather have a job, it would at least guve me something to do. next year i am definatley working everyday like 10 hours a day just so i wont have to see anyone. trust me it would be a lot more fun. im actually looking forward to scool, besides the whole waking up early part.

anywho im done bitching for now. besides i dont want to talk about it anymore.