well....
I really just want to slit my wrists right now... It proabaly doesn't help that I'm reading Prozac Nation, which always manages to get me a little more depressed than I usually am. It hurts, this feeling of no one really wanting you... No guy wants me, my parents are sick of me, really, no one is looking forward to seeing me back at school.
I am unwanted.
I hate being so angsty. I really hate most of myself... I don't hate that I'm one of a kind, but I do hate that I'm such a freak that everyone is intimidated by me.
why do people tell me I'm beautiful, but obviously I'm not beautiful enough to get a date, or pretty enough to be persuded by a guy. I'm still single. Really, I've never been in a real relationship. I doubt I wil for a long time. I'm just still waiting. Oh, there's another thing I hate: the fact that I'm always waiting for my life to change. Because I don't know what to do to change my life. No one has evr bothered to tell methat secret to changing my life so it's something I like.
So for now, I guess I'm just going to wait for my future to show up and life will be good....
But yeah, I still hate myself...
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