GRRR! I'm so frustrated! Why can't things be simpler than this? Love, yes LOVE! I think about not having him in my life, and it's misery. thinking that I might never see him again, kills me inside. I'm waiting to be with him. I have dreams about the day when we can finally give this thing a try. But it seems more and more esch day that this will never work out.
He has no idea that I wanted to cry the whole time I was on the phone with him because it was like he saying goodbye.