Drunks...
Mood:  sad
Topic: Bad News
I was sitting on the bus today and looked out the window, just to see a new "generation" of drunks to be. They've come so far that they hang out with the crowd behind the liquor store, but still new enough to look "normal", like anyone else i.e no torn, dirty clothes or things like that... But they're still more real than the friend I mentioned before. Even though you can't say that he's just a social drinker any more. He's just a sweet guy gone wrong. Or at least that's what I'd like to think...

While he was still hanging out with me and my friend he seemed to be okey, but since we've stopped hanging out it's gone completely overboard. I know we can't be there to babysit him all of his life, but still, you do feel a bit guilty. Like there's something more you should have done...

Dammit!
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Lady Soverign
Topic: Everyday life
I went into the big "city" to get my mp3-player back. When I finally got there after over two hours on the bus, they told me that they didn't find the problem. Somehow I managed to talk them into giving me a new player instead, so that was good.
Then went to have a bit to eat, me and a friend of mine, his gf and his brother. Lately I've ended up spending more time with his gf than with him, which I don't mind since she's a great girl, but still, it's kind of funny :) We went and had a look at some shoes, and then off to a secondhand store where I got some nice Barry Manilow vinyls.
Finally, back to their place where we played a game called Buzz or something like that, somehow she managed to beat me every frickin' time. Next time...hehehehe...

Whining...
Mood:  hungry
Now Playing: Kanye West - Gold digger
Topic: Bad News
This is the third week without proper food. It's starting to get to you, but at least you'll loose weight ;)
I don't think I've ever had this small an income. What annoys me the most is that I can't afford to have friends any longer. Everytime you're supposed to meet you go for coffee, a drink, shopping or something else that costs money. And even getting to where they are costs money.
I'm so fed up with myself right now, always having to be the downer, "No, I can't. I don't have any money" and feeling like I'm begging my friends for money just by saying that...Sigh...

Poor people?
Mood:  incredulous
Topic: Tv
I was watching that Morgan Spurlock-show "30 days", and it was about them, he and his girlfriend, living on minimum wage for a month. It didn't look that hard though. In a day they both had jobs, and a place to live (in New York). Maybe I should move there, here I have neither...*sigh* If it wasn't for the fact that they had to pay about 1000$ for a hospital visit and some band-aid, I would!

New dec.
Mood:  lazy
Topic: Books
I read a book by Helen Fielding, "Olivia Joules...", which is a bit like the Janet Evanovich-books. To me it's a more different detective story than Fadeout anyway. Maybe I should write about that instead, the new detective novel, for my stupid essay. I dunno know. What do you think?

...
Mood:  don't ask
Topic: Bad News
...and I've also had a tooth ache all day. And it's definitely the tooth this time. Sigh.

In a second...
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: Ethan Hawke - I'm nuthin'
Topic: Bad News
It's so strange how two weeks of fun and happiness can be erased in just a single second. Suddenly I've lost my trust, my confidence, myself basically. I'm once again blah. I'm Nothing. An insignificant blob in the universe...or at least one hell of a drama queen ;)
I'll admit, I'm tired, hungry and not feeling well, but still...

They want me to take some stupid class. For a year! I might as well move there when I'm still at it. What am I going to do there, by myself?? It's against everything they've said to me so far (for years). Suddenly there's not a worry in the world, like there never was. They're such hypocrits! And forget about studying, that's apperently impossible now. What if I'd gotten the help when I asked for it the first time, then it wouldn't have been so impossible. Thanks for nothing guys!

I need a holiday. Maybe I should call in sick for a while...

Happy...
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Du gamla, du fria.
Topic: Good News
...birthday Sweden!! ;)

Stupid
Mood:  smelly
Topic: Everyday life
This is stupid. I'm so longing for some fish, some nice plaice or whatever it's called, salmon or even some smoked mackerel. I think I need some Omega 3 - acids. I do eat some sea food, and it feels stupid to just eat those. Either I should go back to eating just veggies (which would probably be the best and easiest choice) or try to start eating fish.

I'm popular!
Mood:  special
Topic: Everyday life
They rang me again, from some other place and wanted me to work for them. Too bad I can't afford to do it though. I'd have really liked it.