This basically sums up how im feeling . . .
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: "World so Cold" by Mudvayne
Topic: Skool

"World So Cold"

When passion's lost and all the trust is gone,
Way too far, for way too long
Children crying, cast out and neglected,
Only in a world so cold, only in a world
This cold
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say, we've done the wrong things,
For way too long, for way too long

Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

burning whispers, Remind me of the days,
I was left alone, in a world this cold
Guilty of the same things, provoked by
The cause,
I've left alone, in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold

Why does everyone feel like my enemy,
Don't want any part of depression or
Darkness, I've had enough
sick and tired, bring the sun, or I'm gone,
Or I'm gone

I'm backing out, I'm no pawn,
No mother-f**king slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything

Backing out, giving up, no mother-f**king
Slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything,

I need to find a darkened corner,
A lightless corner,
Where it's safer and calmer,

I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold


anyways today turned out to be a crappy day, and towards the end it didnt get any better. only until and old friend helped me, and cheered me up. my intentions are never to hurt anyones feelings, but sometimes things dont come out the way i want them to, and its not fair that i then get ignored without giving an explanation. so just for future refrence, anything i ever say, is never meant seriously. and trust me, when i am mad, you'll know.

"Without Limits" starring Billy Crudup
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: "So Cold" by Breaking Benjamin
Topic: Skool
so i have finally watched both of the Prefontaine movies that were made. The first being a gift for Xmas in 2003, "Prefontaine" is the more inspiring movie, where as "Without Limits" is the more hollywood style one. overall i really did enjoy both of the movies, but if i was to pick a favorite id have to say i prefer "Without Limits". so if you're in the mood to watch a good movie, and run, id say "Without Limits" is a great movie to watch. but enough about movie reviews, on with today. well nothing really. the only thing i guess i have to say is about track. well im sorta getting back into running, but i dont think im gonna be at all ready for the meet thursday against Trabuco. i doubt im even gonna touch a sub 5:05 mile, sub 11:20 two mile, and a sub 2:20 800. its gonna be quite possibly the most disappointing meet ive had so far. but then again this year i havent done that good. ive done no better than last year. ive beaten my mile by two seconds, 800 time by two seconds, and i havent officially beaten my two mile time (i've actually gotten two seconds slower). that means that ive got a lot that i havent used so far. my downfall might have been that i overworked my body during the winter break, that i peaked too soon.im not going out this season without breaking 4:54, and that is what i plan on doing this thursday.if it means only running the mile, then so be it. ive got to do what i did against el toro during the two mile against trabuco for the mile. i managed to maintain a pace and i was able to get a kick out of it. i need to feel like i did at Katella, and actualy finish in a really good time. ill be focusing on the mile extensively for the next week. there's only three weeks left till the end of track, and that means that ive got to run harder and faster than ever before. i do not wanna get disappointed this year like i did last year. if i fail again this year. im gonna do XC, but ill be working mainly on speed. and during the winter break at the end of this year, im gonna be doing all forms of cross training and running. next year im going for a 4:35 and under mile regardless of what i get this year. ive got a whole year to train to drop 20 seconds. i can do. just like the greeks say: "Citius . . . Altius . . . Fortius . . ."

The Fun days of Track and Field
Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: "Polaris" by Jimmy Eat World
Topic: Skool
today is just one of those days. its a monday and well ive basically got nothing to do. i hate getting up in the mornings and generally i hate going to skool on mondays. my best classes are over before break so thats no fun. and tomorrow ive got zero period, so you can bet im looking forward to that. its not that bad, i just hate getting up so damn early. well im gonna be moving out of my house around my birthday maybe. theyre gonna be adding a second floor to my house, so that means i wont be moving anytime soon. ill be finishing High School at Capo. well that basically means that for about two months im gonna be living in a one room apartment while the redo my entire house (literally from the ground up). anyways on with today. Physics was first and i found out my test score, and i did really good. i got an 83% so that raises my grade up some. i find out my actual grade on Wednesday, but im pretty sure that moved it up to a B if not a C+.US History was fun, like always. Mulligan is the grestest teacher and he makes one of my favorite subjects even better. the way he teaches is great. and i also love his class cuz ive got a really high A in his class. ive only missed three points in the entire semster so thats good. US History is the only class where i can do no work and still get an A, i like that much. In Math i also got my test grade. i did really well on the test for not knowing the section. i got a 78% on the test, and that is really good for me. hopefully that raises my 44% up to a 50%. if i can raise it another 8% ill be at a D. im just aiming to pass the class with a C, that would make me happy. English was torture. i cant stand to go to that class its just so boring. i try as hard as i can to focus but i cant seem to do it. i dont care, im just in there cuz i have to take it all four years. im hoping next year i will be allowed to take a class thats not so boring, or at least get a teacher whos not such a bitch. but i have a good C in her class. that only leaves track. our workout was really insane today. the 1600/3200 group did two 800M at just faster than race pace. It was pretty good. the first one i got boxed in at the back so on the staright i had to do a little kick to catch up. i ran the first lap in a 73, and then came in at 2:29. we had some rest, then did it again. Only this time i hit 73(i think?) and then a 2:24, so that was good. if i can run faster than that at this next meet, ill be satisified. after the 2 800's we then did five sets of two 300's. the first four were basically normal 300's just go out and run them hard. the next two were run the first 150M really hard and crusie into the finish. the next two were run the first 100 really hard, take it easy on the next 100, and then charge the third 100. the last two were just like the first four, only we were dead by them. overall a good workout, but really hard. i enjoyed it. well as i leave tonite, ive got one picture for my dear DanaBuddies that im gonna be racing on thursday. plase feel free to join in the mocking.

That's for You, Miguel and James!

you guys are finished before it even started

Well its gonna be Another Fun Weekend
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: "Scars" by Element Eighty
Topic: Skool
Well this weekend is gonna be the Katella Relays. And as of this afternoon im running in three events. Some intresting things happened today during track. Apperently Baldini and Springer got kicked off for one reason or another. Today was realy weird. ive been drifting in and out. i was asleep for sometime today and i didnt even realize it. meh its been a really funky day. In track the workout was a ladder. 800,1000,1200,1000,800 running every other 200 fast/slow. it was a good workout. hmm i guess thats it, other than minor minor things happening. as for the events im gonna be doing at Katella, im currently in the 4x1600M, 4X800M, and 4X400M Varsity. hopefully we do good enough so i can get some points there. Tomorrow ill have the final Schedule as to which events im gonna be doing. im also entering the Planner cover design contest for no apperent reason. i guess i just feel like doing something fun, see if i can win. good bye

I am Practically dead from exhaustion
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: "The Abolition of Man" by Thrice
Topic: Skool
sleepy . . . really really sleepy! im pretty much at the point where i am really tired from exhaustion. i mean dead tired. todays track workout was supposed to be 4 sets of 4 200's and i only did the first set before i had to stop. i was barely hitting 35's and i was sprinting and completely dead after each one. thats not good at all. at the rate i was doing them i should have been hitting at least 31. but o well. The sophomores are taking the CAHSEE today and tomorrow. so that means that we get minimum days for today and tomorrow. thats always good. i have to ace my next test and this quiz for wallin in order to bring my grade back up to a reasonable position. i CANNOT fail again this semester. today was eh. nothing fun or important. thats about it. o well. maybe tomorrow turns out more intersting. haha Fighting with trees, you're retarded.

Water Tower and Hurt Feet
Mood:  down
Topic: Skool
Ok So here's the New Motto. Luis gave it to me and ive decided to adopt it as my new Motto. The one i was using previously for my training during the winter break was clean and simple, 'Somewhere in the world, someone is training when you are not. When you race him, he will win.' Well now ive got a racing motto.

Practice Hard. Race Even Harder!

after that disappointing mile race, im gonna need to run a sub 4:55 at katella this weekend. and im not gonna be happy if i dont even get into the sub five group.This weekend is gonna be insanely fun. and im not gonna hold anything back, ill just have to go out there and race smarter. Im running for sure the Varsity 4X800M and 4X1600M. i wouls also like to runa third race, but ill check out how things are going later on this week. Damn it i stayed up till 3:10 AM finishing homework on sunday night, and i woke up at 7:30 to go to skool. it was boring, i turned in all assignments. ive decided to do all my homework from now on no matter what time it means i have to go to sleep. we finally did watertower the tneire way after the longest time. it was great. and a 300 sprint for a final kick in. today has been an ok day, but im just really exhausted. adios.

Last Minute Change of Plans
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: "Revenge" by Papa Roach
Topic: Skool
It's finally arrived! Do or Die time. Tomorrow is the day that ive been anticipating since January. Here how it works out. Ill be running my First Event, 1600 M Varsity, at 1:05. my second event is at 2:50, the Varsity 400 M. My Final event is going to be the 4x400 M Varsity which is at 9:05. four months! if i cant get under 5:05 tomorrow then all four of those months would have gone to waste. Its finally here. RISE AND SHINE, ITS RUNNING TIME!!! 4 minute club, Its about time you let me in!!

Boy doesnt it feel good!
Mood:  celebratory
Now Playing: "Between Angels and Insects" by Papa Roach
Topic: Skool
well today went really good. it went by a lot faster than i had expected. auto design was over really quickly, and physics was a ton of fun. Math was actually quite unexpected. the test wasnt as hard as i had thought, but it doesnt mean i did good. i definitately did not do better than a 47% but ill have to make up for it with the next quiz next wednesday. i should get a perfect, but you never know. fifth period i came home. i had to get some papers signed, and then i ran back up to skool. i think i should have walked, cuz i spent forty mintues doing nothing. i took a little nap for like fifteen minutes out on the track. the workout was also pretty easy. four 1000's and two 300's. the final 200 meters in the 1000's were supposed to be a kick, so that made it even funner. i was dominating, even tho i was on the grass on the inside of tha track. well other than that its nothing else. tomorrow is gonna be even easier, since its a 2,4,6 day. the semester is coming ever so close to ending. and i cant wait till this saturday. i should be doing pretty ok in the meet. 5:05 and under and ill be satisified. hasta luego.

I am Officially Screwed!
Mood:  rushed
Now Playing: "Born with Nothing, Die with Everything" by Papa Roach
Topic: Skool
This is not good. i really need to get around to studying. i have a math test tomorrow and i dont even know anything in the chapter! thats gonna suck for me. cuz that means i have to stay up tonite trying to learn it. o and i also need to finish a shirt design. on top of doing my homework for math and physics. dont forget i need to shower. tomorrow is gonna suck, and i am not looking forward to it. Track is also gonna be diffcult. 1000's and 300's tomorrow! man im am officially screwed!

whooo another day gone by
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: "Otsegolectric" by Static-X
Topic: Skool
Well today was very mellow. i didnt do anything other than sign up for the job shadow day thing. i figure why not waste a day by going down to a local car dealership and spending the day there. Track was also very slow and boring today. We did 10 400's but we had to start at 15 seconds slower than race pace. 75 + 15 = 90! thats really slow. but like usual we cant keep pace and went faster. i think we ended up getting a 78. that wasnt good. well we had to reduce our times slowly after that. so we started at 90 and went down from that. our final three splits were really unexpected. it was supposed to go 74,72,70, but instead we went 72,71 and then dane did a 67 and i did a 71. that was not supposed to happen. but other than that it wasnt that great of a workout. well ive done nothing else that matters other than take a stupid little test. bye bye.

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