Rockin' out
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Skool
its just about done. one more day, one more test. tomorrow i will finally finish all this stupid STAR testing!! no more for the rest of my life! thank you jebus!! so what is there to report? i guess thats the biggest thing i have to say. i have to finish my 3/4 view front and back of my cars. then i got to submit my application for the art contest. ive decided to include a progress picture of it so that people can see how its coming along. im gonna try to draw at least three different models. im gonna need all the luck i can get so that i get some recgonition in this competition. All i really want to hear is someone say that my drawing looks good. that would really make me happy. anyways thats it for today. o and the final south coast league dual meet is tomorrow. its against San Clemente at their course, and ive basically given up on track this year. this is by far the biggest disapppointment in track i have ever had. the worst season ever. i never broke my 2 mile time, and beat my 800 and mile PR's by only a mere two seconds. ya you know that this really pisses me off, and im going to training all summer for a sub 16:00 XC time and all winter really hardcore for a sub 4:40 1600, 10:20 3200, and 2:08 800! o well i hope i dont fuck up in XC this year like i have for the past two years in track! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really didnt like this season.

for those of you who desperatly want to see my art, here are two of my designs. now theyre not all that original, cuz they are based off production cars. but that doesnt hurt. these arent the ones i will be entering into the competition, and these are works in progress.


This is my Lexus IS 300. its modified into a slightly more performance oriented sedan, and the hood has been lifted to accomodate a V8 Engine. the back end had been completely redesigned to add more aerodynamics and high speed stability. the front bumper and splitter cut through the wind and the big front inlet allows the air to get into the engine bay and cool it down. thats about it. the rest is more stock.



This is my interpretation of the Legendary McLaren F1. This car is a second generation concept car. other than adding a front bumper wing and a completetly revised side and back end, this car is still basically the McLaren F1.

6 days . . .

This basically sums up how im feeling . . .
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: "World so Cold" by Mudvayne
Topic: Skool

"World So Cold"

When passion's lost and all the trust is gone,
Way too far, for way too long
Children crying, cast out and neglected,
Only in a world so cold, only in a world
This cold
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say, we've done the wrong things,
For way too long, for way too long

Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

burning whispers, Remind me of the days,
I was left alone, in a world this cold
Guilty of the same things, provoked by
The cause,
I've left alone, in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold

Why does everyone feel like my enemy,
Don't want any part of depression or
Darkness, I've had enough
sick and tired, bring the sun, or I'm gone,
Or I'm gone

I'm backing out, I'm no pawn,
No mother-f**king slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything

Backing out, giving up, no mother-f**king
Slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything,

I need to find a darkened corner,
A lightless corner,
Where it's safer and calmer,

I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold


anyways today turned out to be a crappy day, and towards the end it didnt get any better. only until and old friend helped me, and cheered me up. my intentions are never to hurt anyones feelings, but sometimes things dont come out the way i want them to, and its not fair that i then get ignored without giving an explanation. so just for future refrence, anything i ever say, is never meant seriously. and trust me, when i am mad, you'll know.

nothing but Disappointment
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: "But Home is Nowhere" by A Fire Inside
Topic: Track Meet
the absoulte worst meet ive had in all of high school . . . i dont even want to talk about it

SCL #4 Tomorrow
Mood:  blue
Topic: Track Meet
woo tomorrow is the third to last race im gonna be running this year. and im not ready for it. but i have a good plan that will hopefull let me get a good time. im going back to running all three events: 800M, 1600M, 3200M. im not setting any high goals, but i am setting some difficult ones. for the 800 im aiming for a 2:17 or under. 1600 im going for anything under 5:00. the two mile, im not holding anything back. im aiming for a sub 11:10. well, im also entering an Auto Design Contest thats gonna be held in Huntington Beach on June 5, 2005. first place gets $500, with other prizes for 2nd and 3rd places as well. im gonna do a roadster concept car. for those of you who dont know what that is, look up the Chevrolet SSR, Chrysler Prowler, and Lamborghini Concept S. im gonna do something similiar to the Prowler, but im adding my own personal touches to incorporate the Lamborghini in it, with open roof wheel wells. ill post up a pic right before i send it into the competition. im not really aiming for a first place, but im hoping that i get good recognition, and some comments on my drawing. this is the first time im letting the public see any of my designs so im hoping it gets accepted. afterall, if my designs dont get accepted by the public, what are the chances of me getting accepted by a Car Manufacturer? well i havent showered, and i need to go to sleep so, thats all im gonna write. hasta luego. by the way, im aslo working to try to design my own graphics for future reference. here is my first attempt:

"Without Limits" starring Billy Crudup
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: "So Cold" by Breaking Benjamin
Topic: Skool
so i have finally watched both of the Prefontaine movies that were made. The first being a gift for Xmas in 2003, "Prefontaine" is the more inspiring movie, where as "Without Limits" is the more hollywood style one. overall i really did enjoy both of the movies, but if i was to pick a favorite id have to say i prefer "Without Limits". so if you're in the mood to watch a good movie, and run, id say "Without Limits" is a great movie to watch. but enough about movie reviews, on with today. well nothing really. the only thing i guess i have to say is about track. well im sorta getting back into running, but i dont think im gonna be at all ready for the meet thursday against Trabuco. i doubt im even gonna touch a sub 5:05 mile, sub 11:20 two mile, and a sub 2:20 800. its gonna be quite possibly the most disappointing meet ive had so far. but then again this year i havent done that good. ive done no better than last year. ive beaten my mile by two seconds, 800 time by two seconds, and i havent officially beaten my two mile time (i've actually gotten two seconds slower). that means that ive got a lot that i havent used so far. my downfall might have been that i overworked my body during the winter break, that i peaked too soon.im not going out this season without breaking 4:54, and that is what i plan on doing this thursday.if it means only running the mile, then so be it. ive got to do what i did against el toro during the two mile against trabuco for the mile. i managed to maintain a pace and i was able to get a kick out of it. i need to feel like i did at Katella, and actualy finish in a really good time. ill be focusing on the mile extensively for the next week. there's only three weeks left till the end of track, and that means that ive got to run harder and faster than ever before. i do not wanna get disappointed this year like i did last year. if i fail again this year. im gonna do XC, but ill be working mainly on speed. and during the winter break at the end of this year, im gonna be doing all forms of cross training and running. next year im going for a 4:35 and under mile regardless of what i get this year. ive got a whole year to train to drop 20 seconds. i can do. just like the greeks say: "Citius . . . Altius . . . Fortius . . ."

Skool tomorrow
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: "Binge" by Papa Roach
Topic: Weekend Fun
wee just like the title of this post, skool tomorrow and im not looking forward to it. ::sigh:: well thats life and it must go on. ive had one of the better times so far this year sleeping this spring break. three times i went to sleep very late and i loved it. but it was only the last three days. but i slept in till noon the final days of break. just as im getting used to the vacation thing, skool has to begin. i cant wait till this summer . . . wait no im in summer skool, so im stuck in skool for an extra month . . . grrr thats not kool. well tomorrow im not going to track practice, that really sucks. i need to start running again. ive got to go to the dentist at 2:00 tomorrow so that really sucks. i hate the dentist. my birthday is also coming really soon, and usually nothing but good news comes with it. first off its on May 19th, so only a month later itll be summer vacation.:D secondly my older brother's birthday is on the exact same day, so that is really kool. i cant wait till my 17th birthday. im hoping it turns out really good. well for thos of you actually taking time to read this nonsense dont forget May 19, 2005. if you need a refrence point as to when that is, just keep watching the Star Wars III movie trailers. it comes out the same day as my birthday. well skool tomorrow so thats gonna be fun. laters

wooo . . . so much for spring break
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: "Cold" by Crossfade
Topic: Weekend Fun
weeeeeeee . . . spring break is officially over as of this morning. and i can confidently say i did absoultely NOTHING! sunday night i went to the gym with my mommy, and i ran on the treadmill for 60 mins and completed 8 miles at a negative split pace. it started out at a 7:34 pace for the first twenty minutes, then sped up to 7:00 for the next twenty minutes and managed to hold out a 6:40 pace for the last twenty minutes. it was fun, but probably a bad idea, cuz i could not run the rest of the week. monday morning i did go to practice. i woke up twenty minutes late, but living so close i ran there. so that was my warm up. the actual workout was 8 400's but i did six then an 800 to finish with the team. that was the last time i ran, so im not gonna enjoy running tomorrow. tuesday i got a haircut so that was good for me. then i can sumarize the rest of the week. Sleep, TV, playing with Mikey, eating. thats all i did this spring break. i did manage to draw up one version a car that i gotta do for zero period. thats about the higlight of my spring break. tomorrow is gym in the morning hopefully. so come monday im gonna have lots of fun stories to tell everyone. haha right . . .

Toyota Grand Prix in Long Beach
Mood:  surprised
Now Playing: "stories" by trapt
Topic: Weekend Fun
wee today was a big change of plans. first off i slept all morning so me going to the beach was a no deal. well my parents got home pretty early. a whole lot earlier than expected. but whatever, it meant that i got to go to the Grand Prix race in long beach. it was pretty kool, even tho we got there around 3:40. we got to see the final fifteen minutes of the drifiting competition which was kool. there was a few cars in that, including two Truenos, a Supra, a Viper, a GTO, a 240sx, and an S2000. one of the truenos crashed into the barrier where we were, and the crowd went nuts. the 240 SX turned out a doughnut in front of us so that was really kool. after the drifting competition, we went into the convention center where there was a little autoshow. that was fun and i saw a few kick ass cars including a Lamborghini Diablo. well about an hour later i stepped outside to see the trans am practice. all that was in that were Mustang Cobras i think four, an SVT f150, and a focus. it wasnt as fun as the drifting, but it was kool to see cars going by fast. well as we were leaving we saw the bubba gump shrimp. so i decided to take a picture with him. it was a pretty fun day. it also helped that i got $192 worth of tickets for free. it was kool cuz the whole day was free. one of my better days.



doing doughnuts during drifting. its really intense.

Spring Break is finally here!!
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: "she loves me not" by papa roach
Topic: Weekend Fun
ok so major updates are needed. i think im gonna run this down day by day starting from the last day i updated.

FRIDAY April 1, 2005
Nothing really happened this day. it was very mellow and the track practice was a pathetic 20 min run to the watershed and back. o and it was april fool's day, but nothing happened.

Saturday April 2, 2005
My Parents left for my younger brothers soccer game up in san bernandino. i stayed at home and watched the F1 race that i had recorded. it was a great race with Toyota and McLaren-Mercedes doing an amzing job. Trulli got 2nd, followed by Raikkonen in third, Schumacher in Fourth, and De la Rosa in Fifth. it was a great day to be a toyota fan, and Honda sucked again. haha they didnt get to finish another race. haha i love this sport.

Sunday April 3, 2005
again parents left for San Bernandino. i again stayed home, but luckily my brother came home earlier that day from work, so we kinda chilled for the rest of the day, sorta sleeping and such. it was great followed by intense Mario Kart: Double Dash!! mayhem. i love that game. its seriously the most fun game you can play with my brother. and my baby brother whose 2? years old, actually knows how to play and the highest ive seen him get is second place overall in 50cc. for a little toodler he's a really good mario kart player. and yes he does get an ocassional first place win.

Monday April 4, 2005
Skool Resumed and they changed the time on me. its fine cuz i still woke up. it was advisement week, so i set up my senior year schedule. basically im hoping my scheudle looks a little like this next year:
0.Economics
1.English lit
2.AP Stats
3.AP Physics
4.FREE PERIOD
5.FREE PERIOD
6.X-Country
if i does look like that i would be done at break on pretty much everyday. track workout was pretty intense. it was a tempo followed by intervals followed by relays. not very easy to do.

Tuesday April 5, 2005
well it was mellow. same ol' crap as usual, but i missed zero period, and i woek up really late. thats not good. but i did get my federal tax return so that made me happy. i am now $55 richer!! track was mellow, a nice little recovery run.

Wednesday April 6, 2005
It was Intern Day, and i went to Family Toyota and worked with them for a bit. it was pretty fun, cuz i got a couple freebies, and i got to miss all my day of skool. and i skipped track practice and slept till the next morning. it was lots of fun.

Thursday April 7, 2005
the third South Coast League Meet was on this day. it was against el toro and i didnt end up running the 800. i really dont think it would have made much of a difference, cuz i still ran a 11:11 two mile. the first meet i ran faster than that and i ran the fastest mile and 800 ive done in any dual meet. but o well i guess it just means i have to run even faster next meet. as far as my mile goes, i ran a disappointing 5:15. i was on my pace but died off in the end. so for anyone keep record, my best times are as follows:
400M - Irvine Invitational 00:57.0
800M - SCL #1 2:15
1600M - Katella Invitational 4:56
3200M - SCL #1 11:06

those dont really mean my bestest times, just the best times ive hit in the season so far. i beeter bring all of those down after spring break.

Friday April 8, 2005
Jersey Jam! it was ok, not as many people went as i expected, but then again it was a three dollar dance. Clayton apperently didnt end up going due to sickness and Ryan ditched me. a few people did go including Heather, Jackie, Melissa, Kendall, and Doug. so it was still somewhat fun, but not as fun as i had hoped it would have been. well spring break is here so that means lots of sleeping. well im hoping to accomplish some things this break, like learn Chapter whichever were on in time for a wuiz the wednesday we get back for math. hmm other than draw several cars for auto thats about it. Track Practice on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at 8:30am led by Clay's dad. well tomorrow i might be going to the beach with clay and mcguan so i guess thatll be fun. and heather wants to go to the beach on the saturday she gets back, so a week after tomorrow. well tomorrow ive got things to accomplish and figure out so ill try to wrtie again real soon. not a whole week will go by that im certain of. adios.

three weeks from today!

South Coast League #2: Capo @ Dana
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: "kill" by Jimmy Eat World
Topic: Track Meet

Today was the Dana/Capo Dual meet. just like last week only this time we were away at Dana's course. i ran the same events as i did the week before. but what makes this race intresting is that i have friends that go to Dana, and its fun to race against them. lets start off with the first one. Miguel. he ran the 1600/3200 today. Hes a JV runner cuz its harder to make Varsity for Dana.so i didnt actually get to race him in the mile. but that didnt matter cuz i still beat him. he ran a 5:05 while i ran a 5:00. and thats not a good time for the way i was feeling. and its pissing me off that im not running sub 4:50 yet!! i should be but im not, so thats pissing me off. im gonna take this weekend and the rest of the week to workout and build some more speed. i have to get a 4:50 mile against el toro!! now lets avert the 3200 meter race for right now, cuz its run last. my second rival at Dana is James. he too runs JV bu only he runs the 800/3200. hes faster than me in XC, but hopefully i can beat him next year. well the 800 race i was doing great, but a Repeat of Aliso Niguel from freshmen year happened. i died 150 meters to go!!! it pissed me off cuz i was with Marc and John. but o well, i better do better in it next week. Sadly i lost to James in it. i think he got a 2:11 while i got a 2:17!!!! grr not happy with that whatsoever. now the ever popular 3200 race. as you can tell, im completely dead from running the 1600 and 800, so its pretty much set that ill lose to james, after all hes the faster distance runner. but miguel, i dont think i should have lost to him. but i went out too stupidly, and ran like a freshmen. i died with SIX laps to go. i was completely tired, and all my energy had vanished! all there was to do was just sputter to the finish line, cuz i would not drop out of a race, no matter what. and thats excatly what i did. ever so slowly, i came in at an emberassing 11:30. one of my worst races ever. my first split was a 5:20 and i slowed down by excatly 50 SECONDS TO A SHAMFUL 6:10!!! i have not run a 6:00 mile in a race since . . . freshmen year! so now the challenge is on. Next week against El Toro i WILL be getting a sub 4:55 mile, and a sub 11:00 two mile. right now im thinking of not running the 800 meter race to conserve energy, but its very unlikely that i will. but my goal for the 800 is 2:12 for el toro, if i run. well thats about it, see ya laters.