No More Track
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: "Million Miles" by Fuel
Topic: Skool
well i've dropped track. that means ill only be at skool now until lunch, then i leave. i wont have to stay till the end of sixth. YES! well thats good. ive got nothing important really. Might end up going to Six Flags the weekend following my birthday. so that will be lots of fun. ive really gotten into a state of depression lately. i havent done much, lately either. but ive been having somewhat of a good time. this weekend was actually ok. i went to a family get together, and towards the end of it was when everything started to get really fun. I also managed to watch the Formula 1 GP in Spain. Raikkonen won, with Trulli and R.Schumacher in Third and Fourth, so i was happy about that. McLaren and Toyota both managed to do really great. Mclaren caught up to toyota a bit, and Raikkonen moved all the way up to 3rd in the drivers championship while Trulli stayed in 2nd. Toyota is in Second for the Constructors championship with 40 points, and McLaren is in third with 37. well thats about it for me at the moment. Im gonna be running on my own instead of with the team for the rest of the skool year, and i doubt it that im going to many summer workouts. im basically gonna be gone all the month of August cuz my family wants to go on vacation, so i probably wont be going to Mammoth, and im gonna be (hopefully) working to get some money, only ill definetaly stay with this job. so i guess thats about it. no more XC. hasta luego.

The End of It All
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: "Down Inside of You" by Fuel
Topic: Track Meet
"Everyday is all the same
Take the pleasure with the pain
Things that you put me through
Never is enough for you

So I'll fly
Find another life
I know somewhere it's right
So why can't I forget you"

Well thats the end . . . Track 2005 has ended, and well ive got nothing to say about it. Whatelse is there to say? i sucked, and i had a very crappy season? two in a row, and that doesnt make me happy whatsoever. i ended the season with never getting an official 10 min 2 mile. SHIT! that really pisses me off. i was able to get a 10:48 2 mile, but that wasnt in an official race. well now it looks that im going into my final senior year with the following times:
400: 57.0 (Irvine Invitational 2005)
800: 2:14 (SCL #5 @ SC 2005)
1600: 4:57 (Katella Invitational 2005)
3200: 11:04 (Irvine Invitational 2004)
3-mile: 16:49 (SCL #4/5 @ Park 2004)
this summer and all during XC season im training extensively. im not slacking off one bit. starting at the very end of May im going to being training for XC. im not going too indepth into what ill be doing but for a base training, i wont be running with the team. I'll be going to a few select athlete led practices, and morning practices with the coaches alternating with the afternoon for when there is no Morning. ill be doing more weight training this time around, and lots more distance, with some strength/endurance. starting in June 2005, im training for Track 2006. I WILL ACCOMPLISH THE FOLLOWING!!:
800M: sub-2:08
1600M: sub-4:40
3200M: sub-10:25
3-MILE: sub-16:00
This time around, im fully researching everything, so that i can accomplish these goals. im hoping that training a little differently, and not as hard during the preseason, will benefit me.

South Coast League Finals
Mood:  down
Now Playing: "Won't Back Down" by Fuel
Topic: Track Meet
Well the 2005 Capo Valley Track and Field Season is now officially over. and i must say im deeply disappointed. My times are as follows going into the 2006 Season:
400M: 57.0 -2.2s from 2004
800M: 2:14 -3s from 2004
1600: 4:57 -2s from 2004
3200M: Still have one shot at beating my PR, tomorrow
im not too happy, i should have been into the 4:40's and high 4:30's. now that means that next year i have to work even harder. biggest disappointment in track thus far. well my final XC season is about to begin, so im not really gonna care for that. thats about it. i just have to run the 3200M final tomrrow. well i hope i can get a good time.

Well, thats it . . .
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: "Somewhere I Belong" by Linkin Park
Topic: Track Meet
well whats done is done . . . and it looks like im ending the 2005 track season with a 4:57 mile, 2:14 800, and 11:06(officially) 2 mile. not what i was expecting out of myself. i know i could have gotten into the 4:40's in the mile the sub 2:10's half-mile and at least a 10:48 two mile. well this summer im training slightly different. im doing more distance, and more controlled speed, with more strength training. im hoping that i can finish my Final XC season with a time in the 15's. but it doesnt seem possible if i cant even break 11 mins in the two mile. League Prelims are tomorrow, with the 3200 Final on Friday. ive got one moer chance at breaking all of my PR's but i couldnt even hold a 5:00 flat on a treadmill. i only went 3/4 of a mile before succumbing to the imense pain that i experince from running. and sometimes i think that maybe im not meant to be a runner. todays workout has me thinking that way. it was a set of 12 striders, but when i was supposed to be at around 170HR i was at 200! and i know it wasnt cuz i was tired exhausted or anything. i can complete the workout, and it seems that i get really tired afterwards. at the final HeartRate check i was in at 220!! i know that is probably a little off, but thats what i clocked myself at. everyone else was barely at 180-190. few were into the 200's, but mostly everyone was at 190. it makes me think that maybe im not meant to be running at the pace that i do. if im obviously 20-30 beats per minute higher than everyone else, i should slow things down. but thats how i have been running. could it be that im not supposed be a runner? maybe im not supposed to be fast? but yet here i am, 3rd Fastest Runner for Capo. and ive always been a better runner than some of my peers ever since i started back in 7th grade. at first, i couldnt hold it. it would just exert too much pain. but i built up a tolerance, and well ive grown accustomed to it. but i dont think its a good idea to be running with a HR of 200 everytime. and mind you this was only striders! i cant even imagine what a real workout would be like. or even a race! i think i just might rethink what sport ill be participating in. I guess running just isnt my thing.

16 days!

Chillin with old friends
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: "A Million Miles" by LostProphets
Topic: Weekend Fun
nothing better than kicking it with a friend who you havent spent time with. its been two months since i had seen this friend, and it had been a good two years since we had done anything before then. and everytime we hang out time just seems to fly by. that was kool, cuz all we did was hang out at the mall, and fool around. there were a few good stories believe it or not that came out of that. well on friday night i managed to finish updating the Capo Valley Cross Country Website. Chances are if you got here, then you already saw the XC website. but if by some miracle you happened to miss the link, its Http://CapoValleyXC.50webs.com
heres the thing, you cant put www. right in front of the CapoValleyXC thing. otherwise you wont get sent to the website. its a little weird i know, but youll get used to it. at least its better than the incredibly long ass one from last year. just a refresher heres the URL (note: this link is no longer active, so dont be a dumbass and try it)
Http://www.geocities.com/ScionRacer2000/XC.html
now which do you prefer? ya thats what i though. anyways check out the XC website it has some important dates on there. well ive dont nothing else of importance today. so i guess ill leave it at that.

Monday Morning!

No matter what I do . . .
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: "P5hng Me A*wy" by Linkin Park
Topic: Skool
I hate Alg. 2/Trig. its retarded and i dont see the purpose of learning half the crap on there. like the stuff that was on the test we just took. that i dont see being applied to real life situations. and i really dont see how that crap is gonna do me good when my career involves mechanics and cars. i see some of the other stuff, like the Trig and geometry, being applied into the everyday mechanics of my career, but not when you have to use pointless formulas to solve for some series of numbers, and you have to fidn the Xth number in the series!! when am i gonna need to find the Xth number in a series?! ya its really stupid. but its just anger that im venting for me not passing the class so far. everything is oky dory. Physics is good, US History is good, English im not sure, and Autodesign is ok. track meet on wednesday was actually a littler better than what i was expecting. its still nowhere near what i should have been running this season, but i cant be mad with my performance from the last meet. of course i dont know why on earth im running so slow, when i really should have been into a 4:40's for the mile, 10:30's for the 2 mile, and 2:10's for the 800. i got 2:14(New PR!) in the 800, 5:04 Mile, and 11:31 2 mile. jeez something went incredibly wrong with my training during the winter. i was supposed to be really good this season. but i guess i should be focusing on how i can improve for next season. two seasons that i completely tanked in track now . . . my senior better not suck.

No matter what I do . . .
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: "P5hng Me A*wy" by Linkin Park
Topic: Skool
I hate Alg. 2/Trig. its retarded and i dont see the purpose of learning half the crap on there. like the stuff that was on the test we just took. that i dont see being applied to real life situations. and i really dont see how that crap is gonna do me good when my career involves mechanics and cars. i see some of the other stuff, like the Trig and geometry, being applied into the everyday mechanics of my career, but not when you have to use pointless formulas to solve for some series of numbers, and you have to fidn the Xth number in the series!! when am i gonna need to find the Xth number in a series?! ya its really stupid. but its just anger that im venting for me not passing the class so far. everything is oky dory. Physics is good, US History is good, English im not sure, and Autodesign is ok. track meet on wednesday was actually a littler better than what i was expecting. its still nowhere near what i should have been running this season, but i cant be mad with my performance from the last meet. of course i dont know why on earth im running so slow, when i really should have been into a 4:40's for the mile, 10:30's for the 2 mile, and 2:10's for the 800. i got 2:14(New PR!) in the 800, 5:04 Mile, and 11:31 2 mile. jeez something went incredibly wrong with my training during the winter. i was supposed to be really good this season. but i guess i should be focusing on how i can improve for next season. two seasons that i completely tanked in track now . . . my senior year better not suck.

Rockin' out
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Skool
its just about done. one more day, one more test. tomorrow i will finally finish all this stupid STAR testing!! no more for the rest of my life! thank you jebus!! so what is there to report? i guess thats the biggest thing i have to say. i have to finish my 3/4 view front and back of my cars. then i got to submit my application for the art contest. ive decided to include a progress picture of it so that people can see how its coming along. im gonna try to draw at least three different models. im gonna need all the luck i can get so that i get some recgonition in this competition. All i really want to hear is someone say that my drawing looks good. that would really make me happy. anyways thats it for today. o and the final south coast league dual meet is tomorrow. its against San Clemente at their course, and ive basically given up on track this year. this is by far the biggest disapppointment in track i have ever had. the worst season ever. i never broke my 2 mile time, and beat my 800 and mile PR's by only a mere two seconds. ya you know that this really pisses me off, and im going to training all summer for a sub 16:00 XC time and all winter really hardcore for a sub 4:40 1600, 10:20 3200, and 2:08 800! o well i hope i dont fuck up in XC this year like i have for the past two years in track! SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really didnt like this season.

for those of you who desperatly want to see my art, here are two of my designs. now theyre not all that original, cuz they are based off production cars. but that doesnt hurt. these arent the ones i will be entering into the competition, and these are works in progress.


This is my Lexus IS 300. its modified into a slightly more performance oriented sedan, and the hood has been lifted to accomodate a V8 Engine. the back end had been completely redesigned to add more aerodynamics and high speed stability. the front bumper and splitter cut through the wind and the big front inlet allows the air to get into the engine bay and cool it down. thats about it. the rest is more stock.



This is my interpretation of the Legendary McLaren F1. This car is a second generation concept car. other than adding a front bumper wing and a completetly revised side and back end, this car is still basically the McLaren F1.

6 days . . .

This basically sums up how im feeling . . .
Mood:  sad
Now Playing: "World so Cold" by Mudvayne
Topic: Skool

"World So Cold"

When passion's lost and all the trust is gone,
Way too far, for way too long
Children crying, cast out and neglected,
Only in a world so cold, only in a world
This cold
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes
Then watch them drift away
Some might say, we've done the wrong things,
For way too long, for way too long

Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

burning whispers, Remind me of the days,
I was left alone, in a world this cold
Guilty of the same things, provoked by
The cause,
I've left alone, in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold

Why does everyone feel like my enemy,
Don't want any part of depression or
Darkness, I've had enough
sick and tired, bring the sun, or I'm gone,
Or I'm gone

I'm backing out, I'm no pawn,
No mother-f**king slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything

Backing out, giving up, no mother-f**king
Slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about
Anything,

I need to find a darkened corner,
A lightless corner,
Where it's safer and calmer,

I'm turning away.
Away from the name
(Calling your names)
Away from the stones
(Throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

I'm running away,
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
Away from the space
(Hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(Calling your names)
Away from the games
(F**king head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold


anyways today turned out to be a crappy day, and towards the end it didnt get any better. only until and old friend helped me, and cheered me up. my intentions are never to hurt anyones feelings, but sometimes things dont come out the way i want them to, and its not fair that i then get ignored without giving an explanation. so just for future refrence, anything i ever say, is never meant seriously. and trust me, when i am mad, you'll know.

nothing but Disappointment
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: "But Home is Nowhere" by A Fire Inside
Topic: Track Meet
the absoulte worst meet ive had in all of high school . . . i dont even want to talk about it