Well, thats it . . .
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: "Somewhere I Belong" by Linkin Park
Topic: Track Meet
well whats done is done . . . and it looks like im ending the 2005 track season with a 4:57 mile, 2:14 800, and 11:06(officially) 2 mile. not what i was expecting out of myself. i know i could have gotten into the 4:40's in the mile the sub 2:10's half-mile and at least a 10:48 two mile. well this summer im training slightly different. im doing more distance, and more controlled speed, with more strength training. im hoping that i can finish my Final XC season with a time in the 15's. but it doesnt seem possible if i cant even break 11 mins in the two mile. League Prelims are tomorrow, with the 3200 Final on Friday. ive got one moer chance at breaking all of my PR's but i couldnt even hold a 5:00 flat on a treadmill. i only went 3/4 of a mile before succumbing to the imense pain that i experince from running. and sometimes i think that maybe im not meant to be a runner. todays workout has me thinking that way. it was a set of 12 striders, but when i was supposed to be at around 170HR i was at 200! and i know it wasnt cuz i was tired exhausted or anything. i can complete the workout, and it seems that i get really tired afterwards. at the final HeartRate check i was in at 220!! i know that is probably a little off, but thats what i clocked myself at. everyone else was barely at 180-190. few were into the 200's, but mostly everyone was at 190. it makes me think that maybe im not meant to be running at the pace that i do. if im obviously 20-30 beats per minute higher than everyone else, i should slow things down. but thats how i have been running. could it be that im not supposed be a runner? maybe im not supposed to be fast? but yet here i am, 3rd Fastest Runner for Capo. and ive always been a better runner than some of my peers ever since i started back in 7th grade. at first, i couldnt hold it. it would just exert too much pain. but i built up a tolerance, and well ive grown accustomed to it. but i dont think its a good idea to be running with a HR of 200 everytime. and mind you this was only striders! i cant even imagine what a real workout would be like. or even a race! i think i just might rethink what sport ill be participating in. I guess running just isnt my thing.

16 days!