let me back into the swing of things...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: (I'm trying so hard not to scream- what a fun game!)
Topic: wondering where I stand

(hmm, I think I'm a bit irritated actually...)

or at least let me come to some semblance of peace- both internally and externally.

...because it seems that I have none, no peace I mean and that is partially my fault because I've been too anxious as of late- of course, it doesn't help when one lives around naturally high-strung, suspicious people does it? -sigh-

It feels as if I am not allowed to have time to myself to do things, and if I try to do so, that I shouldn't be since I should be busy, or at least out of someone else's way- I don't like that at all.

I'm not too happy with the fact that I am saying things in such a round-about way either (maybe, I'll make my new year's resolution something like, "bluntness"? I don't know- I think maybe it should be "more honest and open with regards to myself" -that sounds a lot more like it really)

-sigh-

What do you guys think of whining? complaining?
Personally, I don't like either, whether it's hearing myself do so (see my lack of rantage here?) or hearing someone else do so

I guess it's because I don't understand at times why certain people do what they do (at times, it looks like pure foolishness, but that's what I see...)

I mean, things aren't perfect but there are those who seem to refuse to adapt, and they are so highly irritable (I can understand that- but why burden others with such a thing unnecessarily? I don't get it- yuck.)

;_; sorry me, I just can't seem to do it
I can't seem to say what I want to
and I'm so limited with time and freedom (especially if I just want to get some stuff done on the computer)

but I could just be imagining things
how I wish that I was!

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(yeah, I know ramblings of mine don't make much sense, do they? -anyways, I'll be leaving soon and I've got a room and a physical journal to take care of, but I wish to get more done online soon... ;_;)

I had wanted to post a split-review (subjective/objective) on the trilogy His Dark Materials by Pullman, but it looks like I won't be cranking that out now (funny, I was about to do that first thing when I went online about an hour ago, but I went over to DA and kinda got stuck ^_^;; )

eesh, I'm gone now.

-Daiko~
(pray for me)