Chapter 5

Chloe was crying in her trailer, she thought she was going to die from a broken heart, and she wished she would.

She didn’t hear anyone come in but she looked up to see Matt leaning over her, he stood with his hands on his hips. “You didn’t come to me.”

“I’m sorry, I…I ju…. st couldn’t.” she struggled to get out in between out bursts of tears.

He dropped his hands and then he dropped to his knees. “It’s ok.” he reassured her as he ran his hands through her hair.

He placed his hands around her face and looked into her eyes. He couldn’t stand to see the pain in her eyes. He wanted to stop her from hurting.

He moved his fingers gently down her cheeks wiping away her tears. He lent down and placed his lips gently on her skin, he stayed there for a second before removing his lips but only to replace them again on her skin. He felt her fresh tears fall to his lips, he placed more soft kisses on her skin before he lifted his head and again wiped the tears from her face.

He again lowered his head but this time his lips met hers, she flinched back but he lent closer to her and placed his lips on hers, softly but firm, he kissed her, she tried not to kiss him but she gave up and his tongue made it way into her mouth, as he pleased her mouth she moved her arms from across her chest to around his neck.

After feeling he had made her calm down he removed his mouth and lowered it to her neck. As Matt’s tongue ran up and down he neck Chloe couldn’t help but think of Jeff, what if he knew what she was doing? But then she thought to herself that he told her that he didn’t care if she fell of the face of the planet, so she pulled on Matt’s hair encouraging him to carry on.

He slid his hands under her and untied her top, followed by her lacy red bra, he tossed them on the floor and turned his attention back to Chloe’s lips, as he recaptured them in a passionate kiss, he ran his hand down her body and undid the button and zipper on her trousers, he left her lips and moved down her body, as he did he pulled her trousers off her legs, he reached her skimpy red panties that hid her womanhood, he pulled them down like a wild animal let of it’s leash.

He ran his tongue along her clit then sucked at her wettened flesh softly, she let out a load moan and arched her hips.

Matt removed himself from her and got of the bed, he removed his shirt and his trousers to reveal his erection making a huge bulge in his tight boxers. Chloe sat up as he removed them, she reached out and placed her hand softly around Matt’s erect shaft, she saw him smile as she did, very gently she pulled ever so slightly making him move towards her, he knelt on the bed and laid Chloe back onto the bed, he again stood up and went to get something out of his trouser pocket. “A bit late for that.” He heard Chloe say from the bed. He then dropped them and went back to the bed he again knelt over her, but as he did he inserted a finger into her, making sure she was ready for him, she shuddered all over as he moved his fingers in and out of her.

He knew she was ready for him, he removed his finger and in one quick movement Matt’s huge shaft was inside Chloe’s cunt. He pumped into her at a steady speed. He arched into her and began to pump faster.

He sat up and pushed down harder on her, pushing himself further into her every stroke. She reached for Matt’s hands and placed them on her breasts, he squeezed them and gripped at her nipples making her cry out, but as he released them, but she placed them back encouraging him to carry on, he squeezed again before Chloe arched and let out a load groan, Matt pumped faster into her as her orgasm filled her body, she grabbed Matt’s hands and squeezed them as he pumped faster into her, she felt her self being to come again.

A minute later Chloe and Matt arched at the same time, their orgasms shattered as Matt’s semen filled her in hot spurts. Matt let himself fall onto Chloe’s breast and began to suck at the nipples. As Chloe regained her breath, she began to realise what she had done and what she was doing. She accused herself of being a selfish slut who didn’t deserve to live and didn’t deserve to have a baby.

She pushed Matt off her and sat on the edge of the bed, she put her clothes on as quickly as she could. She stood up and looked at Matt asleep on the bed. She turned away from him and went to the cabinet and grabbed as many boxes of paracetomol, aspirin and any other sort of drugs she could find. She stuffed them in a bag along with two bottles of water. She then grabbed her car keys and ran out of the trailer.

As she ran to her car she ran straight into Eddie Irvine, as the tears ran down her face she tried to apologise but everything she said came out jumbled, he said something to her, she didn’t know what and she just mumbled something back at him, he was concerned, he grabbed her arm, causing the bag in her hand dropped to the floor, he saw the drugs lying on the ground. “Chloe what are you doing?” Is what she thought she heard him ask.

“Ending it.” Is what she said in reply but she didn’t know how it came out, she threw all the drugs back into the bag and struggled free of Eddie’s grip. She ran off. He saw her get into her car. He ran to his car and followed her. He grabbed his mobile from his pocket and rang his team boss, Jackie Stewart.

“Jackie, it’s Eddie, look you need to go and tell Frank Williams that Chloe has gone awol and I think she gunna do something stupid, she got loads of tablets and stuff and she’s not making any sense. She’s driving her car and I’m right behind her, I’ll tell you where we end up, just go tell him to get some help.”

“Ok, just let me know where you go A.S.A.P.”

As he hung up Chloe turned of the road and into a hotel car park.

As she ran out of her car, he quickly parked his and got out running after her, he caught her as she was near the fire escape. “Chloe, what are you doing? What’s wrong?” He asked as he grabbed the bag of drugs from her hand.

“Let me go, please let me go.” She begged as she tried to break his grasp on her arm.

“NO!” he shouted but she kept struggling. He tried to grab her other arm but as he went for it, she slapped him hard across his cheek, he instantly let go a placed his hand on his stinging cheek. She couldn’t get passed him to get her bag so she ran up the fire escape with tears flowing down her face, she was short of breath but she made herself keep going. As she reached the top of the hotel she stepped of the fire escape and walked slowly to the far edge of the building that looked over the car park.

She placed her feet right on the edge and looked down. She could see Eddie’s distinct bleached hair shinning in the light from the hotel lobby.

Eddie grabbed his phone again, he dialled 911 and told them that there was someone on top of hotel ‘Rouge’ and he thought she was gunna jump. As he hung up, he shouted up to her. “Chloe, come down, just get away from the edge. Please, just stand back!!” He then continued to shout until the car park began to fill with police cars, an ambulance and two fire engines.

“I don’t deserve to live, I don’t deserve a baby, I only deserve to die.” Chloe said in her head over and over again. She looked down the eighteen-story building to the ground, police officers had filled out the car park and some firemen hand begun to inflate a massive airbag beneath where she was standing. She lifted her head to the sky and began to talk to it. She didn’t believe in God but she was talking to her mum. “Mum, I made a mess of things, I know, there is no other way out, you have seen what a bitch I have been, so you know I only deserve to die. It has to end like this, mum, it has to, I’m sorry. It’s the only way”

An Irish voice coming from behind her distracted her. “It’s not the only way Chloe, just step away from the edge please.” She moved her head to see that Eddie had made his way up to the roof.

She laughed. “If only you knew, if only you knew!”

Eddie was confused, she was standing on the edge of a fucking building, threatening to jump, but yet, she was laughing. “Why, is this the only way?” He asked as he took a step towards her.

“If you come one more step this way, I’ll have to take one forward.” She said as she lifted her leg and dangled it over the edge.

“OK, OK!!!! Just put your leg back on the edge.” She didn’t. “Chloe, please, put your fucking foot back on the edge!!!!!!!!”

She laughed and replaced her foot. “What do you care what I do? When did the great Eddie Irvine give a shit what anybody else did?”

“I don’t think you’re in the right place to be having a go at me.” He snapped back at her, then he realised that that wasn’t going to help. Chloe lifted her leg once again and dangled it over the edge.

“Does this scare you?”

“Yes, please put your foot down and step back.” For the first time in years Eddie actually was scared, he knew he could have stopped her from getting up there if he wasn’t such a wimp about being slapped.

“The great Eddie scared!!” I’m impressed.” She said as she turned 45 degrees and walked along the edge.

“Doesn’t it scare you?”

“Yes, but I’ll tell you what scares me more, the fact that if I don’t jump, I’m going to have to give up my job and become a stupid little nineteen year old slapper with nothing to do but get fat.”

“What are you talking about?”

“I’m pregnant Eddie. That’s what scares me.” She told him as she walked back along the edge. She reached her original spot and leaned forward.

“CHLOE!!!!!!!!!!” she heard a different voice shout from behind her, it made her jump and she wobbled on the edge.

She tried to balance her self but she carried on wobbling. After about half a minute, she managed to get her feet back under control. She then turned her head around to see Jeff starring at her with tears down his face.

“Chloe, please get back, please.”

“What the fuck do you care what I do?”

 Out of the corner of her eye she saw Eddie shake Jeff’s hand and slap his shoulder as he walked back to the fire escape and climbed down.

“I do care, you know that.”

“Who got you anyway?”

“Your boss rang the hotel and they told me to get up here. But Chloe please get away from the edge.” He begged, he took a small step closer to her. She again began to walk along the edge, but she was blinded by the light of a helicopter that hand begun to hover above them. “Don’t do this Clo, please.”

“So, I can’t walk around up here. Maybe do a bit of flying if I feel like it?”

“Chloe, please get away from the edge”

“But earlier you told me that you wouldn’t care if I fell of the face of the planet. Well you’re getting your wish!! But instead of falling off the planet, I’m going to be falling towards it, and if I’m lucky, I might die a nice painful death!!!”

“NO!!!!!!!!” he said as he wiped fresh tears from his eyes.

She turned back to face the car park. She again dangled her leg over the edge.

CLO!!!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!” he shouted and without thinking her ran to the edge. “SHIT!!!!! Clo, get back please step back. I love you, I didn’t mean the things I said, I was upset, I love you please don’t do this.”

She turned her head to see him directly behind her. “Try and stop me, and you don’t love me, how can you love a slut who fucked your brother?” she shouted at him above the noise of the helicopter. She shuffled her feet forward so her toes where over the edge.

“I’m not gunna let you do this.” He said as he stepped up onto the ledge. “If you jump, I jump.”

“NO!!!! This is my problem, your better off with out me, just let me do this.” She begged him as he shuffled along the edge, so he was standing right behind her. He wrapped his arms tightly around her waist to try and stop her jumping.

“If it’s your problem, it’s my problem too. I love you more than anything in the world, if I have to jump off here to prove that to you, I will. So, if you jump, I jump.”

She struggled to try and get him to let go, he wouldn’t he just tightened his grip. “I love you Jeff, I always have, I always will, even if I’m not with you.”

“You will always be with me, you are always in my heart and you will always be by my side, I’m never letting you go.”

He felt her trying to turn in his arms, he loosened his grip, and she turned around a starred into his eyes. She let the streams of tears fall from her eyes. Jeff retightened his arms around her. She let her head fall onto his chest. He breathed a sigh of relief. He moved his foot backwards and down until it met the safety of the roof, he then lifted her of the edge and stepped down with her still in his arms. He then lifted her head and looked into her eyes, she was hurting and he knew he caused it, but he knew that now, he would always be at he side to stop her hurting anymore. She buried her head into his chest, she felt the cold rain that had begun to fall hit her skin, she shivered, Jeff lowered his head and closed his eyes as he held Chloe’s cold, wet shaking body in his arms.

Chapter 6

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