Chapter 4

After the second practice she went back to her trailer alone. She curled up on her bed until she heard the door open, she sat up and she saw it was Matt. He came and sat beside her. Tears filled her eyes as she turned to face him. “How could you do that? How could you tell him?”

“I didn’t mean to, I just wanted him to know how I fell about you.”

“So he had to find out like that did he?”

“No but….”

She cut him of by placing her finger on his lips. “I don’t wanna know right now.” She then surprised him by placing her lips firmly on his. He gladly returned the kiss, she let his hands explore her body but as he went to pull her top of she broke of the kiss and pushed him back onto the bed and she then laid down at his side, she rested her head on his chest and one hand ran up and down his leg. “We can’t do this Matt, not now, I can’t hurt Jeff anymore than I have, I love him.” He didn’t reply he just ran his hand threw her hair helping her fall into a deep sleep. 

When she woke up she found her self under the bedclothes in just her underwear. She couldn’t remember getting undressed. She lifted her head and looked around, she was surprised to see Matt sitting on one of the sofas. He got up and walked over to her as she rolled onto her stomach. He ran his hand down the back of her head. She closed her eyes as she felt him pull the bed covers back. She knew she wasn’t wearing much but she didn’t care, he got onto the bed a straddled her. He sat on the top of her legs and he placed his hands on her shoulders and began to massage gently. She let out a small groan. After a few minutes of gently massaging, Matt moved his hands down her back but still carried on massaging. Chloe felt him undo her bra, she didn’t know what he was doing but she didn’t really care. Matt lowered his body a placed soft kisses on her back before he felt her starting to turn over. As she did Matt ran his hands all over her. She managed to move her legs enough so she could sit up. She placed her hands around Matt’s neck and pulled him towards her. She brushed his lips lightly, she knew he wanted more but she couldn’t give it to him. “We can’t do this Matt.”

“Why not?”

“Because of Jeff, I know I love you but I love Jeff too and I’m not going to hurt him.” Matt looked a little offended as he climbed of the bed, but she grabbed his hand and stood up and placed her nearly naked body against his, he cradled her in his arms and kissed the top of her head softly.

She managed to get some more sleep after Matt left but it was hard as there were engines revving all night. As she climbed out of bed she went to the counter and pulled some paracetomol from the cupboard and took a couple to try and cure her headache. She had another two free practice sessions that day and she just wanted to get it over and done with. She put on a pair of short and a fire proof t-shirt she had to wear. She then found her racing suit and pulled it over her shorts and tied the sleeves around her waist. As she brushed her hair back into a tight ponytail she thought of what was happening with her, Matt and Jeff. She didn’t want to think about it as it made her heartache, she couldn’t believe that she was going to have a baby, Matt’s baby, but she was with Jeff, or she hoped she still was. She slumped back onto her bed and closed her eyes hoping that all the voices in her head would stop. She didn’t want to see either of them that day, she wanted to put her head down and do her job the best she could, and as good as she knew she could.

As she left the trailer she bumped into Eddie Irvine. They had a quick chat, but Chloe wasn’t really listening to a thing he said. “Clo, are you ok?” he asked as he waved his hand in his face, waking her from her daydream.

“What? Oh, yeh, I’m fine.”

“You don’t look it, so do you want to come to my party tonight or what?”

“What party?”

“The one I just spent the last five minutes telling you about.”

“Right, Ummm, I’ll let you know ok?”

“Ok, I’ll see you later. Bye”

“See ya.” She said as he walked of to his garage.

She walked quickly to her garage and talked to her race engineers, she forgot about all the problems in her love life and she concentrated on her work.

After two great practice performances, Chloe finished second and third. She was told to relax by her boss so she thought she would go to the hotel where Matt and Jeff were staying and try and talk to them, she knew that is was probably a waist of time but she knew she had to do it even if she didn’t want too. She got in her car that had been dropped of by Gilbert Hardy, and headed for the hotel.

As she arrived she saw Matt’s car and she saw him getting out of it. She walked slowly so he didn’t see her, but it didn’t work, as he turned around to go back to his car, he spotted her and jogged over. “What are you doing here?” he asked as he walked beside her at her slow pace.

“I came to talk to Jeff, and you.”

“Talk to me now.”

“No, I’ve gotta talk to my boyfriend, I need to sort this out Matt, I’ve made a mess of everything and it needs sorting out, and that’s what I’m going to do, or try to.”

“I’ll tell you what, Jeff moved into a separate room, he’s now in room 23a. Go and see him and then come and talk to me, I’m in room 16b. You and Jeff aren’t the only ones who need to talk.”

“Ok,” She said as Matt stopped at his room, she kept walking until she came to room 23a.

She knocked on the door and was surprised to see an older man standing there. “Ummm, is Jeff here?”

“Yeh, sure come in.” he opened the door wider as she walked past. Jeff was sitting in a chair in the corner of the room. He quickly got to his feet as the three of them stood in silence for a moment before any one spoke. “Well, aren’t you going to introduce us son?”

“Oh, yeh, sorry, Chloe this is my dad, dad this is Chloe Stevens, my girlfriend.”

“It’s nice to meet you Mr. Hardy.” Chloe said as he kissed her on the cheek.

“You too, and please call me Gil. So you must be the one my son has been going on about the last few weeks.”

“DAD!!!” Jeff said as he blushed slightly. Chloe laughed causing him to turn a slightly deeper shade of pink.

“And what exactly has he said about me?” she asked still giggling.

“Well, where do I start.” He began before Jeff cut him off.

“Ok, that’s enough.” He said turning more red than pink.

“Awwww, my poor baby.” She joked as she slid her arm around his waist. He put his loosely around her shoulder.

“Clo, what did you want?” he asked abruptly.

“I wanted to talk to you, it’s important.”

“Well, I guess that’s my cue to leave.” Gil said as he shook his son’s hand and kissed Chloe on the cheek. “See you both later.” He said as he shut the door behind him.

Jeff straight away dropped his arm and pulled free of Chloe’s arm.

“You wanna talk, so talk.” He said as he walked away and sat back down in the chair.

“It’s about what happened yesterday. You never let me explain properly and I just want you to know the truth.”

“The truth is that you fucked my brother and now you pregnant with his kid. What else is there to know?”

“You need to know how much I love you. You need to know I never meant for this to happen. You need to know that I never ever wanted to hurt you.”

She walked over to where he was sitting and kneeled in front of him. “I never wanted any of this to happen. You have to believe me.” She tried to hold back the tears but she couldn’t, they rolled down her face.

“I don’t know if I can believe you or trust you after this.”

He caught her eye but looked away quickly. He stood up to get away from his crying girlfriend. She got to her feet and tried to stop the tears, but she couldn’t.

“Jeff please.” She begged as he had his back to her. “I want you to know why what happened happened.”

“Look, I don’t want to here it!!!!” he shouted with a quivering voice.

“Well, you’re going to!!!!!!!!!!” She shouted back. She walked up to him and pulled his arm so he turned around, she was surprised to see tears in his eyes. “After you left the flowers outside my hotel room, me and Matt came back to the arena to find you so I could tell you how much I love you. But, you jumped Matt in the corridor, then when I tried to pull you of him you just threw me against the wall. That scared me Jeff, I never thought you could be like that to your own brother, and me.”

“I never meant to hurt you.”

“Well, you did” she yelled back and then she continued. “I couldn’t believe that a few hours before you wanted me to be with you and then later you were throwing me against the wall!!! How did you think I felt? When I see the blood coming from the back of my head, and knowing that is was the guy I love that did that to me. After that I went to see Matt, I felt guilty about what you did to him. And we well…”

“Fucked!!!” he shouted as he walked away from her again.

“No!!!!!!! We made love. There’s a big difference Jeff. After what you did to me I needed someone to love and comfort me, Matt did that, and I did it for him.”

“So, you’re more or less blaming this ALL on me?”

“No!!!!!!!!!!” she shouted back at him as her turned to face her.

“You are one manipulative bitch!!!! At this minute I couldn’t care less if you fell of the face of the planet!!!!!!!!!!!!!” he yelled at her.

“You don’t mean that, please say that you don’t mean that,” she begged as more tears streamed down her face.

“I do mean it!!!!!!!! Now, just get the fuck out of my life!!!!!!!!!!” he screamed as he turned his back to her.

“Please Jeff, Please”

He didn’t answer. She began to get short of breath after crying so much. She slowly backed out of the room. Jeff never moved. She shut the door and lent against the wall. She fell to the floor crying she buried her head in her knees. She wished she were dead.

Matt sat around in his room waiting for Chloe, but she never came. He headed out of the door and as her car was gone from the parking lot, he decided to go to the circuit.

As Chloe left, Jeff laid down on his bed and broken down into tears. He didn’t want to say those things to her, but he didn’t know how else to react, he knew he had hurt her much more than this situation had hurt him, he could see it in her eyes. She looked as if he had just ripped her heart in two. He couldn’t stand to see her cry, and he knew he was the one that made her. He loved her and he wanted to wrap her in his arms and tell her everything would be ok. But, it wouldn’t. He knew that. He felt his heart aching, he loved her, and he never wanted to be apart from her. He cried into his pillow and tried to forget everything but it wasn’t working. She was his heart, he knew that, even though they hadn’t known each other for a month he knew that he couldn’t love anyone more. 

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