A Tribute to the boy that got my heart and ran. I love him with all my being and wish him the best in all he does. These songs, as a friend said it, have been made "Gay Ok!". Not all the lyrics are true, but he understood what I was saying. I hope he is well and understands that I still love him, no matter how badly it hurts for either of us to let go. I hope I can be with him someday, but I doubt that will happy. I can only wish him the best and hope all is well for him, dispite his current situation.

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Standing At the Edge of the Earth

I knew that this moment would come in time
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly
I know you're coming back so why am I dying inside
Are you searching for words that you can't find
Trying to hide your emotions but eyes don't lie
Guess there's no easy way to say goodbye

So I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that someday you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping for someday

Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say
I don't want to let you leave this way
I want you to know that I stand right by your side

And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll...

I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday

And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll...

I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back to me
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday

Waiting for someday Believing in someday Praying for someday, I'll be...
Longing for someday Clinging to someday Cherishing someday, I'll be...
Thinking of someday Dreaming of someday Wishing for someday, I'll be...
Living for someday Counting on someday Knowing that one day...

I will see you

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No Holding Back

[Verse 1]
Got somebody he's a beauty
Very special really and truly
Take good care of me like it's his duty
Want you right by my side night and day

[Chorus]
No lettting go No holding back
Because you are my baby
When I'm with you its all that
Boy I, am so glad we've dated
No letting go No holding back
No holding Back no
When I'm with you it's all that
All that

[Verse 2]
They say good things must come to an end
But I'm optimistic about being yours
Though I made you cry by my doings
With Ryan but that
Was back then

[Chorus]
No lettting go No holding back
Because you are my baby
When I'm with you its all that
Boy I, am so glad we've dated
No letting go No holding back
No holding Back no
When I'm with you it's all that
All that

[Bridge]
Really appreciate you loving me
After all that we've been thru
Really appreciate you loving me
All times

[Repeat Verse 1]
Got somebody he's a beauty
Very special really and truly
Take good care of me like it's his duty
Want you right by my side night and day

[Repeat Chorus Till Fade]
No lettting go No holding back
Because you are my baby
When I'm with you its all a that
Boy I, am so glad we've dated
No letting go No holding back
No holding Back no
When I'm with you it's all that
All that

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This one isn't a song, it is a story of how our relationship became what it was. It's from ancient Babylon.

The two grew up together and learned to love each other. But their parents
forbade them to marry. Their houses were side by side and the only thing that kept the two apart
was a wall that was shared between the houses, like a duplex. There was a little chink, big enough for
words to get through. The two young people discovered the chink and through it they were able to
whisper sweetly back and forth, Thisbe on one side, Pyramus on the other. The hateful wall that
seperated them had become their means of reaching each other. "But for you we could touch, kiss,"
they would say. "But at least you let us speak together. You give a passage for loving words to reach
loving ears. We are not ungrateful." So they would talk, and as night came on and they had to part, each
would press on the wall kisses that could not go through to the lips on the other side.

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Love Me When I'm Gone

There's another world inside of me that you may never see.
There's secrets in this life that I can't hide.
Somewhere in this darkness there's a life that I can't find.
Maybe it's too far away or maybe I'm just blind, maybe I'm just blind.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.
I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared but you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone
When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin.
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.

Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.

Everything I am and everything in me.
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be,
Ill never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there,
So love me when I'm gone.
(Maybe I'm just blind)

So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
Hold me when I'm scared and love me when I'm gone.
Everything I am and everything in me,
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be.

I'll never let you down even if I could.
I'd give up everything if only for your good.
So hold me when I'm here right me when I'm wrong.
You can hold me when I'm scared, you won't always be there.
So love me when I'm gone, love me when I'm gone.

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My Whole Life Has Changed

Oh, hey...
Oh, yeah, oh, yeah
To you
Mmm...mmm...mmm...
Oh, yeah, babe My whole life has changed
Since you came in, I knew back then
You were that special one
I'm so in love, so deep in love You make my love complete
You are so sweet, no one competes
Glad you came into my life
You blind me with your love, with you I have no sight Boy, you open me, I'm wide open
And I'm doing things I never do
But I feel so good, I feel so good
Why it takes so long for me finding you This is my story and I'm telling you
It's not fiction, it's surely a fact
Without you right here having my back
I really don't know just where I'd be at My whole life has changed (My whole life has changed)
Since you came in, I knew back then (Ooh...oh...)
You were that special one (You were that)
I'm so in love, so deep in love You make my love complete (You make, make my love
complete)
You are so sweet (Oh, oh), no one competes
Glad you came into my life (Ooh...)
You blind me with your love, with you I have no sight I analyzed myself, I was buck wild
Never thought about settling down
But all the time I knew I was ready
But not with all my friends around But boy, I put you first now (I put you first now)
You made me, helped mold me (Helped mold me, baby)
Turned me into a man, I'm so responsible
And I owe it all to you My whole life has changed (My whole life has changed)
Since you came in, I knew back then (Oh, oh)
You were that special one (You were that special one)
I'm so in love, so deep in love (Oh, oh, oh....) You make my love complete (You make my love complete)
You are so sweet, no one competes
Glad you came into my life (So glad you came in)
You blind me with your love (Blind me, baby), with you
I have no sight {God has blessed me} God has blessed me, baby
Boy, He was good to me when He sent you
{I'm so happy, baby}
I'm so happy, I'm so happy, baby, oh, yes, baby
{Share my world} Come and share my world, baby,
oh...whoa...yeah. yeah
{I'm so in love} I'm so in love
I'm addicted to your love, baby, yeah... My whole life has changed (Oh, yes, I am)
Since you came in, I knew back then (Ooh)
You were that special one (You were that very, very
special one)
I'm so in love (You were that very, very special one),
so deep in love You make my love complete (You make my love complete)
You are so sweet (Yes, you did, baby), no one competes
(No one competes, oh)
Glad you came into my life
You blind me with your love (Come on), with you I have
no sight My whole life has changed (My whole life has changed)
Since you came in, I knew back then (You made a
difference in my life)
You were that special one (I knew you were that
special one)
I'm so in love, so deep in love (When I first laid
eyes on you, babe) You make my love complete (You make my love complete,
darlin')
You are so sweet, no one competes (No one competes,
baby)
Glad you came into my life (No one, no one)
You blind me with your love (No one), with you I have
no sight (Come on) My whole life has changed (Oh...whoa...whoa...whoa...)
Since you came in, I knew back then

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If You're Not The One

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my husband?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I