1st day of Sept
Mood:  irritated
Now Playing: korean drama -beautiful days - ya sok-
1st day of another mth.
so much to say.so much to think.
sighs.

met up wif ksheng today.he's still as tall as ever.
n i'm like a dwarf beside him.arghs.this is bad bad!
hahas.pls shrink?lols.
he's still so bubbly!hehehs..like the way he is..hahas he n michael sumhow really tok the same!duuno y oso...

saw so many ple at the comp fair.alvin still selling his cameras.i guess he've been doing tt for yrs..hahahas..lols* saw adeline selling computer.hahahas..damn funny..

saw my god brother..after so long!damn..dint see his brother.*my elder god brother* dint see him for a LONG time arghss!!!missed him..all the late nite mahjong days..taking my dad's fav car for a spin ..
those were the days..now he's married.to be a faithful husband.really wonder how he manage to settle down..reallY!typical play boy.making his mom all worried abt his life..etc..well now he's got brenda my god sister in law?is tt wad u call tt?lols.sigh gee.time flies!!!
28th sept my godbrother-kaiting will be off to cambridge to study.wish him all the best!


tmr's econs test..dint really touch..hahahas.i'm super dead!lols.hahahas..oh well..toking to darryl now..he's hella craze over auzzie brands..from industries to tsubi to wadever!!darryl stop!hahahas ure tempting me..to shop.arghs..not fair,not fair.best thing he has the gucci dog-tag tt i always wanted...stupid..!!!!
really counting down to HK....2 and 1/2 wks..

hope my daddy's fine.=)

stresss
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: another song from STAIRWAYS TO HEAVEN OST
really loVEd the SBS Korean Drama Stairways to HEaven!the story line again i muz stress..iTS GOOD
cos u have alot of mix emotions watching tt..hehes..
n choi ji won is damn hOT!hahahas she's pretty!!hehes.

jus had a econs revision mcq..my goodness.i realised i dint study the rest.cos i jus focused on the long question...arhgs..DIANA!!!!wadd are u doing..hahahs...oh well.jus studied a little n my dear fren tan kwangsheng called.!hahahas.

gee toking abt ksheng,its been hella long since i last spoke to him,caught up wid him.everyones busy i guess..it was really nice toking to him again!
the army etc..made him his life more busy,more kanchong more etc..glad to hear tt he's preparing for his upcoming army race.god bless him!hahahas...
i think i muz becum less naggy if not i"ll end up like him n michael...lols..hahahas..
oh well.really hope to see him soon!!

sighs.alot happened these 2 days.dont wanna mention it.all i can say in wadever times mus thx god,mus pray!n i'm going hang on tight with god.cos i'm gg to kp my faith STRONG.i wont let him go.cos i really need him to teach,guide me in life n i know he will create miracles!n continue to bless me!hehes=)

exercise?
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Ave Maira(Rebecca Luker) -Stairways To Heaven OST
finally i put on my track shoes and run...n etc..hahahas..gEE!hahahas its been 2 yrs since i last ran...
3yrs since i last ran for comp etc..
gee..time flies!!!!!!!!

missed those days running to the physio...getting treated with different doc..n having big problems wid mr leslie over the claims etc..haahas.*stupid*
the days where we cheered from the josephians all the way to the victorians..hahahas..(cos most of them ended up in vjc lols*) seeing them cry and feeling happy for them..seeing how their team unite as one..WAY TO GO!!!!!
those training days @ NIE when i did my first 3ple jump n long jump,hitting the first qualifying mark during training....those were really those days..
really wished can exprience it once more..sighs..
TURN BACK TIME!!!arhgs...
looking back at all these ..are jus memories..memories ..memories..tt i wld jus sit back and have a gd laugh at it...hehes..=)

this is the start of the week..a long long wk ahead.Friday's the econs test.sighs.SO MUCH to study arghs!!!n muz complete Operation Management's assignment.sighs!!!
plus gotta work.really looking forward for my next driving lesson!!cos its AUTO CAR>.whahahahas=Ppx

god pls watch over me during the wk .

sch's starteddddd
Mood:  energetic
heehhs sch's started...
all the stress..all the assignments are BACK!
arghs!!!!!god help me!!!see me through..

next fri econs test.4 solid chapters.
managed to study the essay qnts only...the MCQ are
still hanging there..hahahas~...
i think ill continue tmr...

n yesh! i missed e SBS drama..stairway to heaven.my all time favourite!!!!!!!!!!the story line is gd...
the venue of the plc where is screened..LOTTE WORLD>.gosh!!!!my favourite....!!dying to go there...all the rides..the ice skating...roller coaster....horse rides...aww****..better stop..before i"ll start sulking why im still stuck in the poor singapore..hehehes...

but nvm!gg hk disneyland next mth!muahahahahahah~

its been a week....
Mood:  blue
its been a week.....since the squabbles..the shoutings..the everything...sighs..
and nth seems to be happening...
nvm..i"ll continue to pray and hope for a mircale to happen.....n kp tt faith in god going...
cant doubt god's faith...

had dinner with aunt sophia n mummie today...it was gr8..hahah we sat @ the hK care @ upper east coast road for 5hrs!!8.25 -1230am oDdImagine tt.gee,the adults can tok ALOT...had lots of sharing..n prayer..thank god for the time of sharing..
listened alot..and learnt alot...
best thing..aunt sophia taught me a declaration prayer!hahahahhas~yeahs..so funnn!!hehehes.

gee...the past wk..rushing n rushing of HR assignment..gna break down..~next wk is rushing n rushing or OM>..which i know nuts abt..god save me..

through out the wk,i saw god's grace,god's works..in my life..n i thank god for tt..
n i drew closer back to the lord..thanks to all tt happen n my favourite books,daily pslams and the purpose driven life...i"ll nv forget those books...


yawn**

sighs..sighs..sighs..
Mood:  sad
sighs.its been the 4th day in the row tt we've been screaming and quarrel..sighs.i duno when is this every gg to end.....

sumtimes i wished thing dint happend tt way..i dint do alot of things.sighs.but i know they are all too late..he totally hates me to the core..the words i dun like u anymore..i dun have feelings for u anymore...i dun wanna tok to u anymore..it really did hurt me alot.sighs...i duno..i made a fool of myself infront of him by crying ...n crying...like a cry baby..sighs..duuno....the words he said were very hurting.n all..duuno..sighs.god...help me...
i really dont want this to end with him....really..cos he's really a special guy...to me..

i tried to say i'm sry.it looks like its not working.i dunno...god..hELP me...i duuno wadd else can i say..i cant slp for nites.......i duuno...he wnt back on his word...sighs.i really dunoo..god,can u pls enlighten me??cos i really dont wanna lose a guy like him..........sumone hus hard to replace....

im hoping n praying for a miracle to happen....
i think i better slp............

my b'day !~
Mood:  bright
happy bday to myself ..happy bday to myself..
yawns* having 2 sessions of driving..really regret booking so many sessions..hahahas..cos this yr i'm having bday with my darling!hehes.wonder wadd 's his plans..

had keith to buy me stupid wan tan mee n many other junk food.i was damn full n slpy when it came to my 2nd session of driving..hahahas...the teacher gave me extra stamp for my test routes..hahahs..for bday..n let mi off early cos i told him i had a impt aptmt!hahahas...thank you sir!hehes..

darling wanted to go sentosa to tann..etc..but i dint want to..cos its like so hot!!!!!!n i'm trying to avoid the sun to get fairer..lols..n i'm not a beach person..cos jus dont like it..duuno why..hehes.mad bah...since he cant decide where to go n getting all stressed up plus frustrated on where to go..i decided to stick on his plan..since he wanted to go..n i dont want to see him unhappy..cos i will be unhappy!i"ll do wadever to make him happy cos i really want him to be happy!!!hehes so i"ll be off to sentosa ltr..hahaha

really wonder wadds he present for me..muahahahas.

gee i really love him to the MAX!!!!!

finally found!
Mood:  happy
i'm so happy!i've found the love of my life!he's name is jireh!hahahas..damn happy!!gg bonkers..lols

finally!after searching high n low for the past for 4yrs!yes!god thank you!!im really happy.

gee i cant slp..tts why i'm writing this blog though im really dead tired...hehes
but its worth!eheshs.cant wait to see him tmr...n i would nv want to say goodbye to him cos i dont want to lose him..not even on the fone will i ever wanna say goodbye..ehehs..*so bad rite?*

finally the exams are .OVER!
Mood:  spacey
finally 1st semester's exams are over..n i have 2mths to play first..b4 my heart starts to race again!hahahas.wry abt results.wry abt 2nd sems's exams..ahahas...
oh well.HECK!its over..hhahas.

dint write this blog for 3mths !hahahas..too lazy..or jus say cant be bothered.hahahas..i'm a mad person hu laughs non stop..muahahhas..
life's been bored..with work,sch,driving.
gum tou tong!!!!arhgs.

hahaha HK disneyland is opening on 12th sept.i'm gg back to plaY n whack all the rides..hahahas..managed to pull sumone to play wid me all the rides..all day long..muahahahas.plus..erica will be gg with her kido>>hahahas...really looking forward to it..cos its oso mummy's bday...

recently read and heard alot of news abt sammi.hais.poor girl.living in world of hell from all the paparazziS..wished those pple would jus give her a bREAK!even if she's sick,dying of cancer,jus simply taking a break from everything..dont haf to over do it mah..wish her all the best.hope she's fine!

duuno wadd else to say.......

sighs!
Mood:  not sure
its been nearly a wK!hais.nth had gone better.
he's baCK!i'm still quite sad.i duuno wadd will happen in the coming wks,coming days.cos he really means quite alot to me.

alot of pple told me not to think.but i duuno why i cant help it.but i really wish i could mt up with him soon..cos i really wanna see him again.gee..this sounds
desperate....*No choiCe*i hope i can end it.but if best..of course i want him!

haven been myself lately.been very very moody.
upset abt everything in my life.jus living my days like a person hus gna die liddat..hai.i really hope i really cheer up soon.no more buts n er.

been thinking alot too.thinking over the past yrs n my current.man!I sound like a fool and a clown..it really feels so yesterday!hahhas.can really have a gd laugh abt everything!=)
but i do thx god tt i made good lasting frens along the way.cos after wadd i've been/gone thru..it made me see the real picture of things and the real facts of things.hehes.really thx god for chelsea.she made me the person hu i am now.e determination,the support.thxs gurl!really appreciate it though ur presence may not be physically there but everything counts!u go gurl.
the guys i was with..the guys i liked.everything.i wished tt sum could turn back time..sum wont.hehes.contra person!geez.diana wadd on earth are u thinking n wad on earth are u doing??
but i really hope i do get a good guy this time round like wad erica said.i MUST lower my expectations and not expect too much.let nature takes it causes..n see how things go..hais..god..HELP ME!!!!我真的很想找一个好的伴.....有是我好好喜欢的..

咳...

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