Endgame
Author: Kevswitchau
Pairing: EW/DM
Genre: RPS
Rating: M
Warnings: language, angst.
Disclaimer: This never happened. I don’t own the actors. I don’t know the people involved. This is all a figment of my imagination.
“Dom. Dommie, don’t...please don’t go, she didn’t mean
it...really. She doesn’t know anything
about this. About us. Please...”
Dom slammed the door
behind him.
He loved Elijah. Loved him. But he
couldn’t do it any more.
He knew she wanted the
best for Lij. He was her son, and it was
her job to protect him, Dom knew that.
He knew that’s what
made her say those things.
But there was
something else. Something that made him
stop and think...something that made him leave.
Perhaps she was
right. Just perhaps...
So he left.
It was the hardest
thing he’d ever done. But this time it
was for real. This time it was for
good. He’d see if Mack would put him up, then he’d find his own place. Or he’d go home. As far away from LA as
possible.
Home sounded great
just about now.
It wasn’t Lij’s fault. Dom
knew that. He was young, and it was all
so huge. He needed someone to look out
for him. To protect
him. To make sure that everything
went right...went smoothly.
But he also needed
someone to love him.
Not because he was a
star, not because he was Frodo Baggins, not because
he was idol of hundreds of screaming teeny-boppers or the biggest thing since
sliced bread....
But because if you
caught him at the right moment when he didn’t know you were looking at him, his
face looked a little weary. And sad. And lost.
Because he whimpered
just slightly in his sleep, and because when he hugged you, sometimes it felt
like he was drowning, reaching for someone to save him.
He needed someone to
love him because his kisses tasted like smoke and cloves and laughter, and Dom
had never kissed anyone who had tasted that good. Never.
And perhaps Dom needed
to love him. Because together they were
good. It had all been good.
But that was finished
now.
A lot had been said. A lot
had happened. And Dom had reached
breaking point.
And perhaps she was
right.
The first time it
happened, Dom knew that she had a hand in it...her and
that publicist bitch. He didn’t know
what she said, but he had a pretty good idea.
He knew because Lij became distant.
Jittery.
He was distracted whenever they were together. And Dom knew.
He knew that they’d read him the riot act. And he was furious. Furious at them for
interfering. Furious
at Elijah for allowing them to manipulate him. Furious at himself for not
seeing this coming sooner.
Elijah had sobbed when
Dom told him he was leaving. When Dom
had confronted him with his actions and told him to choose what was
important. To choose what mattered.
But it was hopeless.
Dom knew what Elijah
would choose. Lij had no choice. He was confused and trapped. He’d signed his soul away on that goddamn
dotted line, and there was nothing...nothing
he could do about it.
For the next three to
five years he was theirs. Their puppet. And
that bitch pulled his strings any way she wanted...with his Mother’s blessing.
So Dom told Elijah he
was leaving. He felt evil. He felt like scum. He felt every tear that Elijah cried like a
slap in the face. But he had to pull
back and think of himself for a moment.
Had to look at what this was doing to him. At least that’s what he
told himself.
This was a game he
couldn’t play. Not any more.
Elijah had sobbed and
held Dom’s hand and begged him...pleaded with him not to go. Not to leave.
Then Elijah had told
Dom he loved him. More
than anything. More
than ever. And that had been
it. Dom had stayed.
The
first time.
That first time he’d
decided to play their little games, confident that he’d win. Love always won, didn’t it? That’s the way it
was in the movies.
Then it had been Franka.
It was all a
ruse. Another game. A game set up because they had been too open
with each other. Too
in love. They let their guard
down at some awards show and someone had caught it on camera.
Fucking
cameras.
Oh man, Then the shit had
hit the fan.
It was simple,
according to the Studio. Elijah needed
to find a girlfriend or they’d cut him loose before the damage got too
bad. They were adamant. Immovable. After all, they had millions invested here.
That was all that mattered. The money. What Elijah wanted, what he needed, didn’t
exist. He was no more than a commodity.
And then there was his
mother.
His Mother manipulated
him like she always did, pulling every fucking trick in the book. She played the ‘Family shame’ card. She
played the ‘Religion’ card. Finally she had played the ‘Ungrateful brat- look at everything I
sacrificed to get you where you are’ card, and that had been it.
Lij couldn’t handle
the guilt. Lij could never handle guilt.
Good old Catholic guilt. Won out every time.
And she knew just how to use it.
And so it had been Franka...who had agreed happily. After all, she was after an agent and a break
in the
Dom knew it was fake. He knew from
the beginning. But he couldn’t help but be hurt by the photos.
The interviews.
The stolen kisses and ass-gropes that just happened to be caught by an
ever watchful pet
photographer and leaked to a voracious press.
But then it went too
far.
These things always go
too far.
And one night Elijah
didn’t come home. He just didn’t come
home at all. And Dom had sat there, in
the darkness, crying into his tenth beer, telling himself it was all for
show. It was just a game. But the next morning when Lij had come home,
with last night’s clothes on, reeking of stale booze and her perfume, a hickey
on his shoulder blade, Dom had known that the game had gone too far. All he had to do was look into Elijah’s eyes,
and he knew.
And so he’d left.
For
the second time.
That time he actually
made it out the door and to a motel. He’d
spent one night tossing and turning . But when he’d opened the door the next
morning, expecting room service, and had seen Lij standing there, his hair in
disarray, his eyes red and tears still fresh on his cheeks, his resolve
crumbled.
Elijah was lost.
He was lost.
And Dom held him and
loved him and showed him the way home.
And he thought that if they stayed down and lay low, there would be no
more games. No more reasons for them to
jerk on the puppet’s strings. Perhaps he
would win this time. Quietly. Without fanfare. What the studio didn’t know wouldn’t hurt
them, right?
Wrong.
Well, not technically wrong, because the studio
had nothing to do with this morning. The
studio had nothing to do with why he was hailing a cab and tearfully giving the
driver Mack’s address.
This was all her
doing.
Mommy
Dearest.
Bitch.
It amazed Dom how a
Mother could have such a hold over her child.
Her adult
child. And how she clutched onto
him like a Rottweiler with a bone.
Couldn’t let her meal ticket get away now, could we?
Sitting in the cab, he
wiped at the tears on his cheeks and laughed bitterly.
He’d left without turning
around. Because he knew if he’d taken
one look at Lij’s face, he’d have to stay, and this
would never end. He’d spend the rest of
his life apologising for being in love, and he just couldn’t do that. He shouldn’t have to do that.
What a difference a
few minutes makes to your life.
This morning they’d
woken up in each other’s arms. Dom never
got sick of the feeling of Elijah pressed against his body. The little boy smell of his tousled hair.
The tiny sigh of contentment he made when he felt Dom kiss the back of
his neck.
Dom had leaned over
and whispered ‘Good Morning’ in Lij’s ear.
Elijah had sighed Dom’s
name as he turned towards him, and kissed him.
They’d made slow, languid, lazy love, both still half asleep, each so
familiar with the other’s body that they knew where and how to touch and stroke
and kiss, and when the came together, they’d stayed locked in eachother’s arms, breathing in time, waking up slowly.
Until the door had
flown open, and Elijah’s Mother had stalked in.
She’d glared at them,
and Dom felt a brief silvery flash of fear wash over him. He had never seen such powerful hatred, such
disgust on anyone’s face before. Elijah
had struggled to disentangle himself from Dom, before sitting upright and protesting
that she had no right to barge into his room.
She’d rounded on him,
screaming that as long as he was under her roof, he’d shut up and do what she
said, no questions, no arguments. Dom
had been tempted for a moment to ask her whose money had actually paid for ‘her
roof’, but the look of fear and shock on Elijah’s face had shut him up. It wouldn’t do Lij any good for Dom to get
into it with his Mother- especially when she was being this unreasonable.
Elijah’s mouth had
shut like a trap, and he’d glared at her, his eyes filling with tears. Then she’d turned on Dom.
“And get your filthy
limey faggot ass out of my son’s bed and out of my house.”
For a moment, Dom had
been speechless. He’d known she didn’t
like him. They’d never exchanged more than a few words
in the past, his polite and friendly, hers terse. Cold. But he’d never experienced her fury. He never thought she’d...
“What?” The word had tumbled from his mouth
involuntarily.
“You heard me. Get the hell out.”
Dom had looked over at
Elijah. The colour had drained
completely from his face, and he was staring at her, open mouthed.
“Mom?”
She never took her
eyes off Dom,
even when she’d told Elijah to shut up.
Dom had reached out for Elijah’s shaking hand..
“Don’t look at
him. Don’t touch him. Get up, get
dressed and get out.”
“Now hang on a
minute...” Dom had managed to pull his boxer shorts on under the sheets, and he’d
climbed from the bed.
“You think he really
loves you? “ She’d laughed, a harsh, humourless sound.
“He doesn’t love you, he doesn’t know what love
is. He had a nice girl. But you ruined that. You think that he’d even look at you twice if
he wasn’t trying to piss me off? You
think he knows what he wants? What he needs?”
Dom had tried to think
of something to say, but couldn’t. He
couldn’t answer her. This was so
unexpected.
“And you? You’re nothing without him! You think you have
the career ahead of you that he does? Look at you. Of course you don’t. He’s got something. Something special. He could go all the way to the top, and you
know what’s stopping him?”
She had walked right
up to Dom so she was standing face to face with him.
“You. You’re
the millstone that’s going to drag him to the bottom where all the other
Dom had realised at
that point that tears were streaming down his cheeks. His hands had been shaking. And all he could think was that Elijah should
be saying something. Anything. But he wasn’t.
“Lij?” he turned
towards the bed, but Elijah wouldn’t look at him. Wouldn’t meet his eye. Couldn’t stop crying.
“Don’t talk to
him. He’s got nothing to say because he
knows I’m right. It’s over, Dominic, do
you hear me? If you loved him, if you really loved him, you’d walk away. You’re nothing good for him. You’ll ruin his career...do you think he’ll
thank you? Do you think when all he can get are bit-parts in B-Grade TV shows
because he’s that fag that used to be a big star so they hire him for the
novelty value, Do you think that he’ll
come home to you every night and thank you
for ruining his life?”
Dom hadn’t been able
to hear her anymore. Not all of what she
was saying anyway.
Was she right?
Was he being selfish ?
He knew what the
Industry was like. Despite the few Sir
Ian’s out there, there were thousands more who came out and disappeared into
the
“You know I’m right,
don’t you?” The question had cut through
the fog, and he’d looked up at her again.
“Don’t you?”
Dom had looked back at
Elijah crouched on the bed, curled into a ball.
All he’d wanted to do was go to him and hold
him and stroke his hair until he stopped crying. All he’d wanted to do was grab
him and shake him and scream at him to stand up for himself. To stand up for them.
But he hadn’t done any
of that.
“Lij?” It had
been a whisper. A
plea. But he’d received no
answer.
He’d silently dressed,
packed his bag, and walked to the door.
She watched him like a prison guard.
“You’re doing the right
thing for him, Dominic.” He’d heard the
satisfaction in her words. He still
couldn’t find his own voice. Couldn’t say anything.
Couldn’t say goodbye.
She’d turned to Elijah
and ordered him to get dressed. There
was no emotion in her voice. She could
have been talking to the television. She
reminded him that they’d arranged a meeting today to discuss a script. She’d read it and approved. Always in control.
Elijah had stumbled from the bed and pulled his jeans on.
Dom had walked to the
door.
“Wait!” It had been Elijah, but Dom hadn’t
turned. Even when he
heard her order Elijah to stay where he was. It was too late. It was all too late. Dom felt empty and cold. He felt like he might throw up.
“Dom. Dommie, don’t...Please don’t go, She didn’t mean it...really. She doesn’t know anything about this. About us. Please...”
Dom slammed the door
behind him.
‘Game over.’ he
thought dully. ‘You win.’
-Kevswitchau
2002
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