Fuck you bitches
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: oldies music_"Killing Me Softly"
Topic: Kiss What you Miss
they say they love you but do they really mean....they call themselves your friends but is it true...are they? a friend is someone who is always honest with you and would never talk about u when you in trouble or in need or in front of them.They arent called "friends" for the hell of it.You can say youre sorry all you want but it may not change things.I haven't been thru hell with those kinds of friends and i dont need those people in my life.I will drop 'em like mud and step on them.So fuck all you bitches who put me to live in a world of hell and as they say "WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND" so fuck you bitches and watch me do better without you in my life..i hold grudges like a mutha fucker holds down a fight.Fuck you bitches and watch your life crumble down...

The Guy
Mood:  crushed out
Now Playing: Oldies---
Topic: That Special Someone
To That Special Someone:
From me to you:
Each morning i think of you when i wake
Every night you're the last i think of b4 i sleep
I think of you when i am down and it brings me back up
I see you when i feel like hitting rock bottom but i don't
I hear your voice and i want to float up to the gods of light
I care about you more then you may know and i can't tell you
I want to be with you more then you know but you can't see it and you won't
I want you here with me but you won't talk to me and confide in me
I may not be perfect but who ever is
I may not be a godess but i can be real
I may not be ur dream girl but i can be someone u can trust and love
I know you are all those and more for me but i can't do shit
My faith is in gods hands and in your heart
If theres anything between us you already know it and so do I
So i ask of you as a friend and a person
Just please look inside yourself and realize i may be your girl..
'Cause deep down i know and so do you that you're the right guy!!!

I hate carin so much
Mood:  down
Now Playing: Oldies--
Topic: Its hurts to care 4 him!!
Hey, its saturday! Its supposed to be a day of fun and excitement! but its not...all i can do is think about the guy i lost and a freshie who is in love with me< who bought me a $400 10 karrot diamond bracelet and necklace!!> I live each day now thinkin about what i can do about all this and the guy i lost..and i really care about him..< you have no idea how much i care about him> i want to tell him but how do i do such a thing he is 2 yrs older than me and i never cared about someone as much as i care about him...damn i hate this...thinkin hurts too much and its painful to think about him cause i lost him and i don't knoe if he will ever give me another chance...

boys..bad mix
Mood:  happy
Topic: boys r a bad mix
Boys and you..wow wat a mix...
your so sexy and thats a fix...
you mess with them and flirt
when you get mad throw them in the dirt...
You want them serious
but its just a joke....
they fall for you...
and u just pop their balloon...
you're tough and hardcore..
they cant keep up with you...
thats their flaw....
you're not so pure but very true...
hooters and brains...
combined in one...too much to handle
damn what a bum...you are fun..
you are funny and weird...
wat a mix...boys cant get you...
cuz u want them violent and kinky...
damn thats a bitch...jinkies...

kreeped
Mood:  silly
Topic: i'm creeped
my heart beats too fast for me to breathe
my hands shake so badly when your gone
i feel so unsafe with you not with me
i dream of killin spree's
which really aint that bad
cause at some point you may be killing me
i feel the wind takin me away
i feel my pain killing me slowly
i want to hit you sometimes
but guess what you can blow me...
i like you really i do
but when u act the way you do
i just want to scream
and say "screw you"
so if you don't mind you damn jerk
Find a grl who will just blow you away
cuz this grl aint no where near
sleepin with u when u wanna pay....

untitled
Mood:  sad
Topic: untitled
Every mornig i wake thinking of you
Every night i fall asleep and dream of you
I think about you every hour on the hour
I think of you every damn day
I see your face at every corner
I hear your voice all the time
I smell you everywhere
I feel you in my arms
The fact that you arent here with me
Is the reason why i cant deal with shit
You were my hero and my savior
you are the most important person to me
I love you with all my heart
I wish to see you
Deep down i don't want to lose you
So please notice me and look into my eyes
Then you'll see and realize
I care about you and always will...

My sister and friend
Topic: My sister and friend
my sister at heart...
friends forever...
nothin will set us apart...
from sunset to sunrise...
i'm here for you...
my friend and my sister...
what more could i have...
If i am down...
you'll bring me back up...
If i am heart broken...
you'll kick some ass...
we are weird and fun...
my sister and best friend..
You're the only one...
I love you...
My sister and friend!!