I had been searching for a perfect bustier which could be worn on its own - team it up with a pair of tight denim pants that sits low on your waist and a sexy pair of 3 inch heels - and it makes a great ensemble for partying!! LOL

It hasnt been an easy search coz I have very specific ideas how I wanted the design to be. Being well-endowed with a 38DD size mammaries doesn't help to make it an easy search... and after 2 years, I THINK I've finally found the ONE!! LOL

Check out the picture below - it's one helluva sexy piece huh? *wink*

The only glitch is, I need to know if it'll fit me! Well the website said it's a size 38 but I'm not sure about the cup size... so now I'm just waiting for their customer service rep to reply my enquiries.

I got some bit of bad news... well, not too bad... but it's not good either. Apparently, due to some poor planning on a third party, my lil trip in May has to be cut short *sighs*

Oh well...

[pause]

Anyway, is there anyone else out there who's planning for a vacation in May??? LOL. I've got about 5-7 days extra to spend in leisure. So what say yall? Any takers?? LOL

Frankly speaking, I don't know much about Ludacris music LOL - all I know is he's such a sexy badboy!! LOL

Anyway, yesterday, my friend told me that when he listened to "Splash Waterfalls" from Ludacris, it reminded him of ME LOL. So that pretty much prompted me to listen to it, and hell yea - it reminded me of ME too! LOL LOL LOL

Yup, it's that time of the year where you go thru your income statement and report 'em so that the government can send you the "bill" for earning those dollars... LOL

I just did mine... have you done yours? LOL

I've always had this thing for Ludacris since the time he was featured in Missy Elliot's "One Minute Man". I just love his looks, his voice... and he's got this badboy persona that is unlike the others! [Ok I admit I'm being superficial here, liking someone simply for his looks! LOL]

So anyway, last Sunday, there was this repeat telecast of some rap competition on MTV. Ludacris was one of the judges. When the camera zoom in on him, something weird happened -- JD instantly popped up in my head! LOL

Since that day, whenever I saw Ludacris on TV, I'd be thinking about JD - is that weird or what??? LOL. It's as if I'm looking at Ludacris, but I saw JD instead... am I making any sense??? LOL

Anyway, let's talk about something more cheerful... and that would be my sexy lil thug!!! *wink*

We had a long talk about our current situation, took the chance to smoothen out the rough edges (if there's any)... so yea, things are good. in fact, better than before... he's just so sweet, been nothing but good to me and i appreciate that... not gonna take advantage of it [come to think of it - i really should, huh? LOL]

i guess it's all about good timing. if i had known him a few years ago, i bet it would be a totally different story right now LOL. he would probably be busy cheating on me... and i'd be doing the same thing just to get back at him... we would be in this love-hate relationship thing... crazy... wild... topsy turvy... which would be very exhausting mentally [speaking from experience! LOL]

BUT, for now, he's the apple of my eye, the sensuous source of my dreams and definitely the catalyst who accelerates the mischievous devious sultry vixen in me... *wink*

i am just dammm bloody tired of people assuming that because i dont want marriage, it automatically meant that i haven't met the right one -- they said that the right one would change my perception of marriage!

what the hell does meeting the right man have to do with my ideas of marriage??? *frown*

are you saying that only if i'm thinking about marriage, then that has got to be the right man??? if there's no talk about marriage, then no matter how great he is, no matter how suitable he is for me -- he's still NOT the right man???... that's a really STUPID way of thinking!!

why can't people just accept the fact that i love being single?? i'm not bloody interested to be engaged - i can buy my own diamond ring! i'm not crazy about getting married... and i certainly couldnt care less about having babies -- i don't want them anyway!

what i want right now, is to have a good relationship that has all the sensible elements to make it work. that's it!

i'm not sure how to explain my theory about my short attention span but i'll do my best.

first of all, i'm someone who doesnt crave for attention. i can do with minimal attention but that doesnt mean a man should just disappear for a couple of days with no news... coz that will slowly cause me to get used to the idea of not having him around.

and, when he's simply too busy to spend a few moments to communicate with me, he's actually creating opportunities for someone else to steer my attention away from him -- he's giving the chance for another man to present themselves to me. it's okay if the guy is just average. but what if the guy turned out to be pretty cool, and in some circumstances, even BETTER? now, wouldnt that make me more interested in the guy??

and when all these starts to happen, chances are, things will begin to change. what sorta change? well... it's something like this...

1. it will slowly change from passionately hot to lukewarm -- he's still able to correct things and put it back to how it used to be.

2. when it went from lukewarm to cooling -- he'll need to do some massive damage control [of course, as long as there's nobody else who showed up and try to take his spot... LOL]

3. the moment the situation went from cooling to cold - thats the end folks -- no amount of kissing up to me would make me want to continue the relationship.

i have been so wrapped up in beyonce's cd that i had somewhat "forgotten" about my actual favorite type of music... and that is Bollywood/Hindi songs!! LOL (not sure which word to use to describe to you guys)

i guess it's about the words they used and the rhythm that they produced. the words, are usually very beautiful and the rhythm are addictive - when you hear it, you could feel it building up inside... and it just makes you wanna dance... and dance... and dance...

if it's a happy love song, you'll have this big smile on your face and your body will be so relaxed while moving along with the music.... if it's a slow jam, it'll linger in your head and you'll definitely be cosying up to your significant other... and if it's a dance track, you'll want to sweat it out on the floor! LOL

plus, i've always loved traditional/cultural dances... so, yea!

the one thing that indian/malay/indonesian/chinese traditional dance have in common is those very graceful movements and yet, if it's done properly, it can be so sensuous... for real! LOL

It's the day when I wake up fashionably late, stay in bed all day watching tv, and do nothing but eat, eat, eat AND eat! LOL. But I just realised that it's going to be 1st March tomorrow and I have not even made my flight reservations! LOL...

So here I am online, trying to check out the rates, see if there's any changes coz Northwest Airline is always coming up with all these special discounts. Not that I'm trying to be cheap, but hey if you could save a few hundred bucks, why not right??

And, I'm STILL waiting for those items that I had ordered for JD to reach me *sighs* If it doesnt reach me, then how am I to send them to him??... This whole International Delivery crap is such a hassle!!

... and it turned out to be a call from the SAME person whom I had dedicated the song to!! LOL

It sure is nice to hear from him after a few days... I knew I missed him, just never realised that I've missed him THAT much! LOL... I guess absence DO make the hearts grow fonder *smile*

"INDAH" - AGNES MONICA

...this is dedicated to the one who's on my mind... you know who you are *smile*

fyi - this is not one of those corny slow jams... this is actually a dance track, upbeat tempo with a lil hint of r&b... so cool! i can imagine myself dancing on the floor to this song LOL

berikanlah cinta untukku sayang ku
pasti kau tak pernah kan menyesal
seindahnya bunga sakura disana
tak kan seindah kisah cintaku

sekian banyak hari kulewati denganmu
tak ada hari yang terindah
ingin berdua saja
tak ada lagi pengganggu
seperti dunia milik kita
mesranya....dengan mu... berdua...
galau malam ini

indah kau... terindah untuk mu...
terhangat cium mu... ternikmat... berbahagia
berikanlah cintamu untukku sayangku
pasti kau tak pernah kan menyesal

seindahnya bunga sakura disana
tak kan seindah kisah cintaku
indah kau terindah untuk mu terhangat ciummu
ternikmat berbahagia

seindahnya bunga sakura disana tak akan......

what it means in english [i'm not that good in my own native language, so... the translation may not be as smooth but i do try to make it as accurate as possible LOL]

give your love to me, my dear
you will definitely never regret it
as lovely as the cherry blossoms over there
it will not be as lovely as my love story

no matter how many days i had spent with you
no other days could be lovelier
wish we could be together
with no distractions
as if the world is ours
so close... with you... just us...
let's get crazy tonite

you're lovely... loveliest for you...
your warm kiss... most delightful... so fortunate
give your love to me, my dear
you will definitely never regret it

as lovely as the cherry blossoms over there
it will not be as lovely as my love story
you're lovely... loveliest for you...
your warm kiss... most delightful... so fortunate

as lovely as the cherry blossoms over there, it will not be...

On February 12, I had posted an entry about this. I decided not to pursue the matter because I felt things like these were pretty 'transparent', it's his words against mine, and mine against him. There's no right or wrong. And, I didn't want to put JD in an awkward spot - between a woman he's trying to date and his friend.

Anyway, yesterday, FOURTEEN days later, I received a note from the friend again. He wrote this long paragraph about him "dont really care" about the whole thing. So why bother to write me that note if he truly didn't care? (contradicting, dont you agree?)

Also, he labelled me as "childish" and commented on the way I chose my friends. What has that got to do with the other?? And he's convinced that I'm trying to sow discord between him and JD. Why would I EVEN want to bother myself doing stupid stuff like that???? *raised an eyebrow* (A woman should never ever try to cause a rift between her man and HIS friends).

It's not as if I'm telling tales here nor did I exaggerate. All I did was inform JD about what had happened. It's the right thing to do! Can you imagine what would happen if his friend claimed that I were the ONE who was hitting on him? THAT would be disastrous!

My 'childhood sweetheart' asked me to change his title to 'ex-lover' LOL

Ya know, I never really think of him as an 'ex-lover'. He's more like my 'ex-playmate' -- someone whom I play with, laugh with, joke with, get crazy with... We never did any of those lovey-dovey stuff like the regular couple would, coz we spent most of the time trying to get back at each other LOL

Anyway, he said any title including the word 'ex-lover' would be fine so I suggested 'confused frontin ex-lover' LMAO!!!

... so before VS' server start to mess up again, I think I should just quickly place my order LOL