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Chapter 46
“Katrina,” mimicked Brian.
“What are you doing here?”
“Hmmm…Let’s see…I’m standing in your doorway…Coming to see you perhaps?”
“Cute Smart Ass! Come in. I just finished my shower, let me get dressed.”
“Why? Ya look cute in the robe.”
“Brian Thomas Littrell I will tell you better half!”
“OH NO Not that. Please don’t send me back to the big house!”
Brian fell down at her feet. She laughed and stepped over him. Once she disappeared into the bedroom, Brian looked around. The place looked like Katrina. Pictures were everywhere. He wandered over to the entertainment center. He chuckled as he saw the “BSB” collection. She had everything: videos, CD’s, imports. He looked in her CD player and saw all the BSB CD’s inside. Katrina caught him looking at the video in the VCR. It was the Standing Room Only Video.
“Mr. Littrell do you often rummage through other people’s stuff?”
“No. I just confirming what I already know.”
“And what is that exactly?”
“That you are just as miserable as Nick is.”
“Am not,” said an unconvincing Katrina.
“Lying doesn’t become you Kat,” countered Brian. “I know you miss him. You wouldn’t be watching the videos if you didn’t. Also if you two were together you would have the real thing to look out. Though I know he’s not much to look at.”
“What are you talking about? He’s gorgeous!”
“I was teasing, but you certainly came to his defense awful quick.”
“Fine! I admit it. I miss him.”
“And you love him.”
“Brian…”
“And you love him.”
Sighing she said, “And I love him, but it’s not the simple B.”
“Kat baby life ain’t that simple. So what is your point?”
“Brian he thought I could betray him.”
“No he was scared to death that he was losing you. Didn’t matter how, just that he was losing you.”
“But he wasn’t”
“He knows that now. Kat you are one tough customer.”
“Why?”
“Because you demand perfection.”
“I do not!”
“Don’t yell. It’s what you are asking of Nick. He knows he made a mistake. He’s genuinely sorry and has apologized. He’s learned from his mistake, but you still won’t let him back in. I want to tell you what you’ve done for Nick.”
“B…”
“Hush. I’ve watched Nick grow up. It wasn’t easy for him. He is basically a shy person. He didn’t have a lot of confidence in himself when it came to girls. It doesn’t help to have girls throwing themselves at you while professing their undying love for you and they don’t know you. Nick was always reserve around girls.”
“He was?”
“Yes he was. He never trusted they would stick around if they really knew him. Recently, I’ve been trying to figure out what was different with you. The difference was you. It never occurred to you that he was shy. You forced him to talk. Also you treated him like everyone else. You yelled at him. You teased him and everything like you do anyone you interact with.”
“So?”
“So…most girls, heck most people don’t do that and it was the way you were with him that did the trick. He has become more confident. You made him feel like he could do anything, because you believed in him that much.”
“Brian he can do anything.”
“See there ya go again…sayin’ nice things about the guy,” chuckled Brian. “Seriously Katrina, Nick loves you with everything in him. The same goes for you. Don’t let him go Kat. It will be the biggest mistake of your life. Besides you can’t be the Godmother of my child if you’re not with Nick.”
“Brian,” squealed Katrina and launched herself at him. “When?”
“Late fall.”
“How’s Tonya?”
“Perfect.”
“I’m happy for you guys.”
“Thanks. Kat I have to go. Howie actually challenged Nick to a competition on Dreamscape so I could sneak over here.”
“So what you’re telling me Brian is you all think I’m being pigheaded and you think we should get back together.”
“Now would any of us every call you pigheaded?”
They laughed and said together, “Yes!”
After Brian left, Katrina called Tonya at the hotel to congratulate her. They talked for awhile about the baby and everything. Kat had not talked to anyone connected to Nick since Europe. She knew Jane and her mother kept in touch. Dana Morgan told her daughter that they were not giving up their friendship, because of their children. Talking to Tonya made her realize how much she missed everyone.
Once off the phone with Tonya, Katrina watched the video again. She then pulled out all her pictures of Nick. She had bought a photo album to put them in. Her intention had been to put them away and get on with her life, but it didn’t happen that way. As she put the pictures in order she saw her life with Nick, from the beginning to before Europe. Each picture showed how their love had grown. Katrina fought her emotions. She lost the battle when she came to the last set of pictures taken the night before Nick left for Europe.
The Firm had thrown a quiet dinner party for the guys, their families and close friends. Of course, Katrina took her camera. She had taken pictures of everyone. At one point late in the evening, Nick had cornered her, taking the camera from her hands. He pulled her with him to a quiet corner and sat with her on his lap. It wasn’t until Kat developed the roll of film that she realized someone had used her camera to capture the moment.
They had hugged, and then Nick tucked her hair behind her ear. He whispered something naughty to her and she laughed. He grinned at her before pulling her into a kiss. When they parted they stared at each other. The last picture was her favorite. Nick was rubbing noses with her. Sobbing, she picked up the phone and dialed.
“Kat why are you waking me up?”
“Bit how did you know it was me?”
“Because it’s…. 3:32AM and I can hear crying. Who else would call me like that?”
“Fine! Go back to sleep.”
“Don’t make me come over there and kick your ass. Tell me what’s wrong.”
Katrina told her about Brian’s visit and the pictures around sobs. Bit didn’t understand everything she said, but got the gist of it. She waited for her best friend to wind down.
“Kat breathe and listen to me. You are doing this to yourself. You love Nick. You want to be with him.”
“What if it’s too late?”
“It’s not or Brian would have never come to see you.”
Katrina sniffled, “Ya think?”
“I know. The question is what are you going to do about it?”
“Call Sean.”
“OK…why?”
“Because he can get me in rehearsals this afternoon. I can talk to Nick then.”
“Good plan, but Kat do me a favor.”
“What?”
“Wait until daylight to call Sean.”
Katrina laughed, “OK.”
“Coming,” called Katrina as she ran to the door and opened it. “Brian!”
