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Chris ChanWell,
I am an eight month old Christian, undergoing a low spiritual time with no
knowledge of when it will end. However, I really enjoyed having a highly
spirited soul back in July 2000. That was during and after my first youth
retreat. This means, for the readers who think being a Christian will mean a
much easier life, lived happily ever after, please cogitate [It
means to carefully think about -Ed.] again. To
some people, being a Christian is like taking away their freedom, at least for
most of the cases I have seen. Shouldn't it be a bit convoluted? [Intricate
or complicated] By convoluted I mean, "What's the catch?" Why
are there so many Christians still? Don't they want freedom too? Why would there
be people spending most of their life serving our heavenly Father--like going on
missions-- never knowing what their future holds? Why don’t they just sit back
at home and watch some sit-coms? Honestly and obviously, I am not a Christian
who has a lot of experience, but I have recognized the moments when the Lord has
held out His hand and helped me. When I felt like the world turned it's back on
me, I knew there would be someone who would be by my side, stated by the Bible:
yesterday, today, and tomorrow. When I mentioned about going through a low
spiritual time, I meant my faith being a cubical graph. [Graph
of a cubical function –Ed.] One moment, I am up a hill, the next, I am
down a valley; one moment I believe, the next, I do not. However, deep down
inside, I still know who is best. The one who knew me before I knew Him. I
am really a person who values school more than anything else in the world. Once
school starts, I care about nothing else other than school itself. I guess it
was just the way I was raised. Due to this reason, I accepted Christ, just last
December. I had a very bad schedule-the classes assigned to me were none of the
classes I wanted. I was very frustrated, and I started praying. My prayers were
answered and I was much more delightful, but even then I was still praying about
my grades. This really has shown that I accepted the Lord for benefits, which
isn't right, and I have realized that it is really supposed to be the opposite.
I've recently found out that all of my prayers have been answered in someway:
ones that are answered right away, ones that are answered three months
afterwards, ones that are supposed to hurt, or the ones that make you say
"I love Jesus." There was so much amazing grace given to me, it is hard to express. When someone asks me "Why do you want to be a religious person instead of being free?" I honestly don't know how to express my answer, but I just know what's best. I really hope that my testimony can convince some of you, at least to be familiar with God. C.C. [Last edited December 18, 2001]
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