To Think
Why do you try to live? If you know that your eventually going to meet death, why do your best now? If you know that
your going to have a pointless life, why live now?

"Because we want to live"

Purly, that just it. Humans live to because they need to love other people,
just like the way I live today because I love you....

But does that really mean anything? does it say that we
actually care for the living and make the best of it? what
if we have ever thing we ever wanted.. then what?
we'll just never know.. will we?

Miko's Tired ((my bitchy, ranting, cranky post... you don't have to comment))
The last day of July.. and its the evilest one yet

Ok.. this entire week I have done nothing but babysitting and working out. aka Martial arts. I am
wiped out. I don't want to do any more shit. dON'T BOTHER ME UNTIL MONDAY.. I am just so fucked up.. my body is sore... my head is in mayhem..
and my cousins, uncles and aunts are over... I just wanted to relax this weekend.. I JUST WANT
TO BE LEFT FUCKING ALONE.. FUCK YOU ALL.. NOW I MEAN IT.. JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE UNTIL I FEEL
FUCKING BETTER.. NO I AM NO SANE.. SO FUCK YOU... AND YOU AND YOU! I JUST WANTED TO FUCKNIG RELAX...
its my god damn summer... Did I do what I wanted to do? no.. FUCK YOU MOM.. FUCK YOU DAD.. FUCK EVERYONE
!!!! SOOO FUCK OFF I am so fucking tired of everything.. GOD DAMN IT.. forget it.. I give up.. no more
talking to ppl.. no more games.. I just want to sleep...AWW HELL I'LL JUST SHOOT MYSELF.. I'M
GOING FUCKING NUTS... SO FUCK YOU ALL ONCE AGAIN!ALL I WANT.... IS A GOD DAMN GOOD BACK POPPING..
CAN I GET THAT? NO.... SO LAY OFF.. OR I'LL KICK YOUR FUCKING ASS.

All i did was get up at 10:30.. sore as hell.. then I had to go to another city.. and then work out for like,/br>3 hours.. GDI... I AM TIRED.. FUCK YOU.. AND U WORK OUT THEN... I DIDN'T SAY I WANTED TO DID U?
FUCK NO.. SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.. I WANTED TO SLEEP IN. GDI.. ((once again.. everyone just
fuck off.. I hate the world.)) so then.. after that we had quizznos.. then my dad let us go to an
asian food gift/ food market.. I got some stuff.. then my dad, my youngest brother and I went back home.
.. And I tried sleeping in the car, but it was horrible.. wat a horrible day so far. But I
learned alot of new things for fighting. Then as soon as I got home.. my mom said I had to get ready
for my Japanese meeting.. CAN'T I REST FOR A MINUTE? GET OFF MY BACK... FUCK YOU ALL ONCE AGAIN.
Then we left for my dad's school.. I am so tired.. I had to move chairs from my mom's car and then
like talk to ppl and I was so tired.. acting cheerful.. but I had plenty of sugar.. and
that didn't help my bodys conditon. If fucked it up even more. Jeez.. I feel like shit..
hell I am shit.. FUCK YOU ALL. I don't need your sympathy.. A) you don't care.. B) NO ONE DOES
CARE C) stop fucknig using me D) stop saying you love me because you don't.. ur just saying it
to make me feel funny.

Anyways.. so like they came over.. kinda messes up with the meeting.. but its good seeing them again.. I
hate being smaller.. I HATE ME! FUCK OF I DON'T NEED YOUR SYMPATHY.. o.. and if i'm not online..
then I'm probably walking to a shopping center.. and getting away from my fucking life

I am tired.. you have to understand how much shit
I go through to understand my pain.. altho.. NO ONES SO THATS WHY I AM CURSING AND SWEARING AT
YOU.. so fuck you.
.. ... ... whatwever doesn't kill you.. detrierates your spirit

The Previous Titles Name Relation
Ok well.. I ate asian food for dinner.. and like I lost
my fortune from my fortune cookie.. I wonder where it went. O well.. When I find it.. I'll
post it.

Lost Fortune Cookie
Ok.. so like today I was babysitting.. and it started to rain. SO i didn't get to go swimming today. However I did get to go work out.
Man, it hurts! I need to get ready or tomorrow.. Im sorry if I never came back online. Really I
am, I might be able to get my pictures retaken.. if only I knew what to do... eh.... fuck you all.
.. not all of u.. just some.. and... not the ppl who I talk to everyday.. you all kno who you are
so its aite.

So like I talked to Adrian yesterday.. suddenly I realized.. that I remembered that he was tossing pebbles
at me.. and one landed.. down my shirt.. I have to go kick his ass. Thats just down right
rude..Fucker.. but ANYWAYS. I hope I'll have a good Weekend..

Days Work
Ok so like i was babysitting as usual.. then like the Mom was nice and took us all((herself, kids, and I))
to the swimming pool.. over in a differenct county. It was so cool. It had a water slide..
that was pretty tall, which the water on the slide was much warmer then the water in the pool.
The pool was surprisingly cold. I frooze my ass off. Then like... uh... the gurls((the gurl that I
baybsit and her friends were also there:: gasp::
**shock**))so like.. I showed them all my like 3 in. platform shoes that I wear 24/7.. and like..
I got a pretty good tan in.. Like after 30 min. of the front side.. I turned and laid on my stomach
to get the back side tan too.. u want a nice full sided tan u kno.. so like... I kinda fell
asleep there.. Then we left aroud 3'o'clock.
It was all good. I put on my shirt I got on from Papaya.. a store in St.louis..
(( sigh* How I miss it so))

So then I came home.. took my dog on a walk.. Like I remembered the day I last sw a friend of mine.. Adrian
ya..((pity me)) so I was like wtf.. why not just go say hi.. instead it turned out to be an hours
conversation.. and I got sculded.. o well.. thats life... THEN... um... I'm not going into
detail of my conversation.. its personal.. and not everyone that knows this blog needs to know..
so... then.....

I came home..taking Gia with me((a punishment)) and then a friend called.. it was my friend Tiana. I knew
her since 6th grade, but I lost contact with her since 2 years ago. Such a lnog conversation..
since this is gurly stuff... I don't think anyone would care
so I'm not ranting on it.

Then I like ate... not alot of food.. I think I'll try not
to eat as much so I won't gain weight for the tournaments coming up.. I need to get faster
and lighter.NO COMMENTS PLEASE. SO then like... after working with the kids.. I actually started
working on the desging with the White Kitten Goddess, and the follow up of Pink Bunny Goddess.
I'm a little etchy on the Bunny.. I dunno what to do with that one.. o well.. I'm stil planning it.. But the White Kitty Goddess is going to be good.
Now if only those ppl who I gave the Yuna pics to can be better and give them back to me asap.. or
somethin.

I need to go to bed eariler.. I'm getting sleepy.

To DATE
well.. its also another time for me to rant on about stuff I want..I 'm taking my kids that
I babysit to swimming.. i want a new swimsuit.. the only problem is... I NEED TO IND ONE THAT i
like.. so i dunno what to do.. I wonder if my mom will be able to take me back out to get a new one..
so then... like I'll try to manage.. or somethin...

I've had this cosplay planned for a while.. but a White Cat costume.. first I wanted it to be like Kasumis
from DOAX.. but then I came up with the idea of a Kitten Goddess... don't ask where the heck I
got that idea.. bc I dunno where I got it from.. ANYWAYS... I'm going to work on that this costume.

So when I came home from work.. I always go see my dog.. but this time.. she smelt like pee.. so I washed
her again.. with the hoose.. damn dog.. BEHAVE U FOOL. i took her out today I dunno why she did that...
ANYWAYS... shes all clean and pretty.. i gave her a hair cut.. very cute!

WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU U ASS HOLE!
SORRY.. demo.. but... i have someone to pick on from the forums.. I never really
had a problem.. but this is just plain imbarassing..

U ASSHOLE ROT IN HELL U DORK

OK.. get my gist.. if u want to learn fluent Japanese you have to pronounce the words..
and when u write it.. thats even better.. but if you write it like this.. then.. ur a complete
moron. what the fuck are you thinking? EVERYONE who knows basica japanese conversational
skills knows that KONNICHI WA IS!!!!! HELLO.... not fucking konniti wa.. WTF IS THAT SHIT! i'm
sorry.. but u made yourself look like an asscracker.. an aznwannabe.. what we call u is now.. ILYA!
and sometimes that guy is annoying.. but I give that name to you,.. and now Ilya from my school
is now name Devin... you fool..

Cosplaying to the Max
Right now. I have finished the YUna costume..
sadly i didn't make it in time for the contest.. and now I might go work on my Rikku inverted costume
or my new idea of white kitten.. anyways.. when I get the pic from a friend... I'll post
it on its own page.

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Thinking
my last year of high school. Then the last days.. they'll give me the sending. ITs so sad
to see us go. I don't want to leave... some ppl there. I want to do so much but now.. i'm out of
time. this BITES THE CROTCH LIKE THE MAILMANS BUTT!

SOMETHIN NEW

this costume I will post up tomorrow. I hope u all will like it!