Title: Maybe.. Just Once
Pairing: Kev/Nicky, AJ/Brian
Author: Jules
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Rating: Im'a say R... don't understand that NC-17 stuff
Disclaimer: If the first part never happened... then this part sure as hell never happened... Just something I came up with while in an elevator and ran with it...
Chapter 17~AJ~
Why am I letting this happen? This can't be happening. He's only doing this because he's upset, it's not really me he's kissing, it's her. But it feels too good. As much as I don't want this, I do want it. I know I'm going to regret it later, in the morning, but right now I don't fucking care. So I do what comes naturally, I kiss him back. His mouth tastes so good. He's kissing me with such effort, such passion and I moan. "Bri..." As my mouth opens his tongue slips in and it's even better than anything I've ever experienced. His tongue is thrusting in and out of my mouth, and every so often he bites on my lower lip.
"PLEASE!" I think that's me. At this point I can't tell who's moaning what, who's doing what. I need to get his shirt off of him, so I roll him over so he's on top of me and I pull on the hem of his shirt. He understands what I'm trying to do, so in breaking the kiss he helps me out and throws it across the room.
SHIT. He's propped himself up on his arms and is looking down on me with the most intense look on his face that I've ever seen. I'm so mesmerized by his stormy blue eyes that I barely register him rocking his crotch against mine. I can feel his cock rub mine and I groan loudly, wanting to feel him on me directly. Not with our boxers between us. I reach up and pull him down for another kiss, rolling on top of him in the process. I want to taste more of him, all of him.
Slowly I begin to suck and lick my way down his jaw to his neck and further to his chest. I can tell he's enjoying this because he's got a firm hold on my hair. I'll be damned if I'm gonna rush though. I want to enjoy this, might never get the chance again.
God..his nipples taste so good. And the way he moans my name is like music to my ears. There's nothing more I want to do than hear him yell it out as I'm making him cum. "Alex...please...don't tease me." I knew what he wanted me to do and I made my way down farther. Slowly I pulled his shorts from his body and let his cock spring free. I couldn't help but stop and admire it. Even his cock was beautiful. Thick and strong, the head a purplish hue covered with pre-cum, an indicator of how turned on he was. "God Brian... You are so fucking beautiful." I look up and see his head is thrown back and his eyes are shut tightly. Smiling I run my tongue over the tip of it and see him shudder. That only makes me want to taste him more. Smiling I cover my mouth over the enlarged head, tonguing the slit and rolling him around in my mouth. Fuck he tastes like nothing I've ever known before and I can't help but completely deep throat him. I'd swallow him whole if I could.
"Please Alex. Make love to me. I need it so bad. Make me forget about everything... Just make love to me."
As I heard him say this I stopped. What was happening hit me like a ton of bricks and I couldn't move. Was he doing this to forget Barbie or because he wanted to? Wanted me? I wasn't sure and couldn't go through with it. As much as I wanted to, I wasn't going to put myself through that much heartache. When... If we made love, I wanted it to be because he wanted me. I want it when his heart and his mind is free. Call me a romantic fool but this was important to me.
"I can't do this Brian." I couldn't stop the tears from falling from my eyes. And through those tears I saw him sit up and pull his boxers back on and sit up. He looked confused and hurt.
"You don't want me? You don't want this?" I could hear the panic in his voice and I wanted to reassure him that it was me, not him.
"Oh Brian. I do want you. I want you more than you'll ever know. Oh my God. Can't you feel how much I want you?" I ran his hand over my erection and saw him bite his lip in wonder.
"Than why are you stopping?"
"Brian... Do YOU want this? Do you want me?" I had to ask. Find out for myself. I waited while I saw him think about it. He was taking too long and I had my answer. "Exactly. You are with Barbie... Leigh." I corrected myself quickly as I saw him wince at the nickname I'd given her. "In the morning you'll regret everything that's happened and I don't want to be something that you regret. I deserve more than that." And with that I got up off the bed and reached for my pants.
"Stay. Please. We'll just sleep." His voice had no emotion and it made me turn to look at him. I could tell by the look on his face that he was telling the truth. We'd just sleep. Fine. I got back into the bed and lied down next to him, careful that I didn't touch him.