Title: Maybe.. Just Once
Pairing: Kev/Nicky, AJ/Brian
Author: Jules
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Rating: Im'a say R... don't understand that NC-17 stuff
Disclaimer: If the first part never happened... then this part sure as hell never happened... Just something I came up with while in an elevator and ran with it...
Chapter 12~Brian~
So Nick and I talked about everything. He told me about his mother and I swear, I just wanted to fly down to Florida and slap her. Who the hell does she think she is treating him like that. Thankfully he realized what a bitch she was and didn't listen to her. Listening to Kevin talk about Nick yesterday made me realize just how much he loves him. How much in love they are and I only hope that Leigh and I can reach that level. I'm sure we will. But we've talked and he and Kevin decided that we should have a meeting. The five of us. Just so they can officially tell us about their relationship and we can talk about it. It must have been a complete shock to Howie. He was just silent...didn't say anything. I know Bone and I knew about it so basically the meeting was to break it to D. But we didn't let on that we knew. Didn't want him to feel left out.
Another thing was that they asked me to switch buses with Kev. Since they were officially 'out' to us, they wanted their own bus. So they could be alone together. OF course I said yeah, no problem. What else could I say? No? I don't want to be on a bus with AJ.. That close to him. Have that easy access? I used the bus time to get away from him, and now I don't even have that. I don't know what I'm going to do. Oh well. I think I'm going to call her. Tell her I love her. I've talked to her almost every day this week. Just want to hear her voice. Reassure her, and myself, how much I love her.
~Howie~
I can't stress how funny this whole scenario is. I swear I have found the 4 most clueless men in the entire world and decided to befriend them. They say your friends reflect who you are... I sure as hell hope that's not true. So Kevin and Nick finally came out of that shabby closet they think they've been hiding in all these months. Who in their right mind wouldn't have clued into what's been going on? That's my question. I'm not stupid, blind or deaf. Of course I know they're together. That they spend every waking minute fucking... And if they're not fucking, they're waiting until they can be alone to fuck. It's funny really.
And now we've got Brian on our bus. How fun is that going to be? I sat there during the meeting silently. Not saying a word. Didn't want to let them know I knew all along that they were together. I gave them my blessing of course, I don't care if they're gay or not. Not my business. Sighing I look from AJ to Brian. AJ's scared and Brian's confused. Not a good combination I tell you. I foresee a lot of angst on our bus. Just great. I guess this is the price to pay when you're the only straight one in the group. I have to fight to laugh out loud. Maybe I should have my own little meeting with the guys. I can just picture it now.
Me: Kev, Nick, Bri, Bone? I have something to tell you.
Them (doesn't matter which one): What is it D? You can tell us.
Me: Well.... You see guys... It's just...well ... I'm straight. I like women.
Them (all): collective gasp.... One of them: are you sure? When did this happen?
Me: I don't know... It' just something I've always known.Okay.. So I couldn't keep from laughing... Shit. Now they're all looking at me funny. They already think I'm weird... Definitely don't need to be adding fuel to the fire. Again I sigh. This is gonna be a long tour.
~AJ~
FUCK!! He's going to be on our bus. ON OUR BUS!!! I don't know how I feel about this. I'm excited. Hell am I ever excited. But I'm scared too. The times on the bus is when I'm truly alone. When I can think about things and be away from him. It's hard to think when he's always around and I loved the solace of the bus. Now he's there too. He's everywhere. Everywhere I go I see him. Smell him. Hear him. Feel him. He's completely under my skin. And honestly? I'm not so sure it's a bad thing. I mean, I know it's not good... But does that necessarily mean it has to be bad?
One thing that I've noticed during this meeting...he won't look me in the eye. Doesn't even look in my direction actually. It's like I'm not even there..here... As I stare at him it hits me...it meant nothing to him. Everything... The kisses..the dancing...it meant nothing. Just experimenting probably. I think that's what hurts the most. That I had him...was so close and now he's gone. He let me have a taste of what it would be like and then cruelly took that away from me. Showed me what I could have had, and then changed his mind. And fuck. Howie's laughing about something...like he's laughing at me. Like he knows. I wonder if he does know. He's too quiet...too something. I can't put my finger on it. But his laughter just secures the fact that this is all a big joke on me. I can't take this any more. I have to get out of here. Mumbling an apology to the rest of the guys I stand up and make my way to the door. We're leaving soon for the next city so I've decided to just go and get comfortable on the bus. This is going to be a long tour!