Title: Maybe.. Just Once
Pairing: Kev/Nicky, AJ/Brian
Author: Jules
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Rating: Im'a say R... don't understand that NC-17 stuff
Disclaimer: If the first part never happened... then this part sure as hell never happened... Just something I came up with while in an elevator and ran with it...
Chapter 11~Kevin~
I didn't have to go to Brian. Brian came to me. He sat down in front of me and just stared at me. I know that there's something on his mind and it's serious. Maybe it has to do with AJ. I feel I should say something, and I was about to until he started. And shocked the hell out of me.
"So cuz. When were you going to tell me you were fucking my best friend?"
My jaw dropped to the floor. I know it did. First, Brian NEVER swears like that. Second, if your tone of voice could kill, I'd be dead where I'm sitting. And Third, what the fuck is going on? How does he know about Nick and I? I know Nick wouldn't have told him. And AJ knows better than to say anything to anyone. I had to think fast. "When were you going to tell me that you are falling for Bone?" That wiped that bitchy look off his face pretty quick.
We were both back to staring at each other now. I think neither of us really wanted to answer the question of the other, so that took off the edge of our anger. Well his anger... I had nothing to really be angry about.
"What are you talking about?" He's trying to cover up his nervousness now.
"You heard me Bri. When were you going to tell me...." He cut me off before I could finish.
"I'm not."
"You sure cuz?"
"Leigh." Like that was an answer. I don't know who he thinks he's fooling but it's sure as hell not me.
"So?" I was gonna be damned if I was going to let him use her as an excuse. I used Kristin for too long as my excuse and let 6 years go by without telling Nick how I felt, without admitting it to myself.
"But...." He was at a loss for words. I could tell. So I took another approach.
"How do you feel when you're with him? When he's around?"
That did it. He got this far off look on his face and was smiling like an idiot. "Exactly cuz." We were silent for a few minutes. I was letting my words sink in, letting him think about it. After a while he looked at me. His eyes not so full of anger. "Why didn't you tell me about you and Nick?" I think he was a little hurt. I felt bad for that.
"How'd you find out?"
"Walked in. Saw you sucking him off. Kinda put the pieces together."
Now I was embarrassed. I think I'm blushing. "We wanted to tell you guys, but were afraid. First reaction that we were faced with wasn't all that positive so we decided to keep it on the down low. It just happened."
"Are you in love?" Brian looked almost envious as he asked me that. I couldn't help but smile.
"More and more each day."
"Is it hard?" I couldn't help but laugh when he asked this. I looked down at my crotch and smiled.
"What? Like when he's in the room? Always." I flashed him an evil smile and watched him blush. It was just too easy sometimes.
"No smart ass. I mean, everything. Hiding it. Afraid of how people will react. Is it hard?" Brian gave me a look that was really hard to decipher.
"Is that what you're afraid of? What people will say? Whether it's right or wrong?" I was starting to get angry. I can't believe my cousin is actually thinking this way. Is this narrow minded. I watch him nod and lower his head. He now won't meet my eyes. "Then you don't deserve him." I couldn't keep the anger from my voice.
Taking a deep breath I meet his eyes and see the shame there. The confusion. If I didn't know better I'd think he was near tears. Softening my voice I begin to talk. "Yeah it's hard. I'm in love...more in love than I've ever been and I can't tell anyone. I can't show everyone how much I love him. I have to watch myself every second that we're in public, hold back how I really feel because of preconceived notions of how I should live my life. And that's hard. The hardest thing I've ever had to do."
Brian's voice was nearly a whisper. "Then why do it? Why not find something easier? Someone easier?" It was a question that I wasn't expecting. And it was right then I realized that Brian didn't even know he was in love with AJ. He's scared and confused and thinks that Leigh is his ticket to normalcy. If he can convince himself he's in love with her, not him, he'll be fine. Everything will be fine. I have to pick my words wisely. I think about it for a few seconds before I start to talk.
"Because Brian. When we're alone. In bed. Watching TV. Just sitting in silence, we know that this is how we're meant to be. When I look into his eyes and see how much he loves me, when I'm inside him, or he's inside me and we're making love, that's my destiny. There's my happiness. Our souls are connected, and all that other shit is just details. Just knowing that his heart is beating for me is enough. That's the important thing."
I look at him to gage his reaction. He's really thinking about it. He smiles a weak smile and stands up, his mind somewhere entirely else. "Thanks Kev." And he walked away.
I stand up and walk to my room. I know Nick will not be too far behind me because AJ has gotten up and left him alone at their table. As I was leaving I gave him a smile that said, 'get that fine blonde ass up to my room NOW. He knows not to ignore that look.
Talking to Brian has made me realize how lucky I am. I have to be the single most lucky man in the entire world. As I'm contemplating this there's a knock at the door and I know it's him. It amazes me how he still gets my heart going. Just the thought of him being on the other side of the door is enough to make my knees go weak. I love him so much. And fuck if I don't want him even more right now. I walk over to the door and open it, smiling when I see him standing there, running his hand through his hair. "Hey baby." He says, voice low and sexy.
I can't help but pull him into the room. I want him and I want him now. I press against him and begin to kiss his neck, his jaw, his mouth. I can tell I've surprised him, but he begins to react, kissing me back. I pull at his wife beater and rip it, throwing it across the room.
And then I remember Brian. "Nicky. Rok knows about us." I stop, hoping that he doesn't freak out. I can't read the look on his face. He looks shocked and frightened.
"What? Who? How?"
"He walked in on us. Apparently we were in my room, and I was sucking that beautiful ...hard ...hot cock of yours. Saw us and put the pieces together." As I was talking I was undoing his pants and slipped my hands into his boxers and began to slowly jack him off. "Oh yeah. And he's in love with AJ."
~Nick~
FUCK FUCK. We need to talk and he's got his hand in my pants. Ohhh... That's nice. "Right there Kev....... SHIT." He's jacking me off and I'm trying to be serious. My head rolls back and I try to talk, all that comes out is a moan and a grunt. I'm now thrusting into his hand. It feels so good. I know I should be more worried about Brian finding out about us, especially like that but I can't think with him touching me. "Is he upset?" Wow. A whole sentence? I actually got a whole sentence out. Yeah for me.
"He was but I talked to him. He understands." Kevin was now sucking on my nipples, first one then the other. Biting and licking them. Damn him. "Oh yeah. And he's in love with AJ." As he said this I stopped. I pulled away and heard him groan. "What?"
"He's in love with AJ."
"But AJ's in love with him." I say. There's so much we have to do. My head started to spin and ideas were forming left right and centre. I stood there for a second thinking.
"Nick." I could vaguely hear him talking to me but was too wrapped up in my own thoughts.
"Nick". A bit louder.. Still not paying attention.
"NICK." Kevin was screaming now.
"What?" I asked, snapping out of my daydream. Looking at Kevin I felt my jaw drop. He had stripped down naked, standing in front of me, cock fully erect and definitely raring to go.
"Oh... I just was hoping to fuck you so hard that you can't sit down for a few days but if you're busy..." He let his voice trail off and any thoughts I might have been forming were suddenly gone.
"SHIIIIT." Profound, I know but damn. He is fucking naked. In front of me. Wanting to fuck me. What the hell am I waiting for. Smiling I let my pants drop and walked towards the bed. AJ and Brian could wait. My boyfriend was horny.